Part III
Chapter One
Monsieur Leon, while studying law, had gone
pretty often to the dancing-rooms, where he was even a great success amongst
the grisettes, who thought he had a distinguished air. He was the
best-mannered of the students; he wore his hair neither too long nor too
short, didn't spend all his quarter's money on the first day of the month,
and kept on good terms with his professors. As for excesses, he had always
abstained from them, as much from cowardice as from refinement.
Often when he stayed in his room to read,
or else when sitting of an evening under the lime-trees of the Luxembourg,
he let his Code fall to the ground, and the memory of Emma came back to him.
But gradually this feeling grew weaker, and other desires gathered over it,
although it still persisted through them all. For Leon did not lose all
hope; there was for him, as it were, a vague promise floating in the future,
like a golden fruit suspended from some fantastic tree.
Then, seeing her again after three years of
absence his passion reawakened. He must, he thought, at last make up his
mind to possess her. Moreover, his timidity had worn off by contact with his
gay companions, and he returned to the provinces despising everyone who had
not with varnished shoes trodden the asphalt of the boulevards. By the side
of a Parisienne in her laces, in the drawing-room of some illustrious
physician, a person driving his carriage and wearing many orders, the poor
clerk would no doubt have trembled like a child; but here, at Rouen, on the
harbour, with the wife of this small doctor he felt at his ease, sure
beforehand he would shine. Self-possession depends on its environment. We
don't speak on the first floor as on the fourth; and the wealthy woman seems
to have, about her, to guard her virtue, all her banknotes, like a cuirass
in the lining of her corset.
On leaving the Bovarys the night before,
Leon had followed them through the streets at a distance; then having seen
them stop at the "Croix-Rouge," he turned on his heel, and spent the night
meditating a plan.
So the next day about five o'clock he
walked into the kitchen of the inn, with a choking sensation in his throat,
pale cheeks, and that resolution of cowards that stops at nothing.
"The gentleman isn't in," answered a
servant.
This seemed to him a good omen. He went
upstairs.
She was not disturbed at his approach; on
the contrary, she apologised for having neglected to tell him where they
were staying.
"Oh, I divined it!" said Leon.
He pretended he had been guided towards her
by chance, by, instinct. She began to smile; and at once, to repair his
folly, Leon told her that he had spent his morning in looking for her in all
the hotels in the town one after the other.
"So you have made up your mind to stay?" he
added.
"Yes," she said, "and I am wrong. One ought
not to accustom oneself to impossible pleasures when there are a thousand
demands upon one."
"Oh, I can imagine!"
"Ah! no; for you, you are a man!"
But men too had had their trials, and the
conversation went off into certain philosophical reflections. Emma
expatiated much on the misery of earthly affections, and the eternal
isolation in which the heart remains entombed.
To show off, or from a naive imitation of
this melancholy which called forth his, the young man declared that he had
been awfully bored during the whole course of his studies. The law irritated
him, other vocations attracted him, and his mother never ceased worrying him
in every one of her letters. As they talked they explained more and more
fully the motives of their sadness, working themselves up in their
progressive confidence. But they sometimes stopped short of the complete
exposition of their thought, and then sought to invent a phrase that might
express it all the same. She did not confess her passion for another; he did
not say that he had forgotten her.
Perhaps he no longer remembered his suppers
with girls after masked balls; and no doubt she did not recollect the
rendezvous of old when she ran across the fields in the morning to her
lover's house. The noises of the town hardly reached them, and the room
seemed small, as if on purpose to hem in their solitude more closely. Emma,
in a dimity dressing-gown, leant her head against the back of the old
arm-chair; the yellow wall-paper formed, as it were, a golden background
behind her, and her bare head was mirrored in the glass with the white
parting in the middle, and the tip of her ears peeping out from the folds of
her hair.
"But pardon me!" she said. "It is wrong of
me. I weary you with my eternal complaints."
"No, never, never!"
"If you knew," she went on, raising to the
ceiling her beautiful eyes, in which a tear was trembling, "all that I had
dreamed!"
"And I! Oh, I too have suffered! Often I
went out; I went away. I dragged myself along the quays, seeking distraction
amid the din of the crowd without being able to banish the heaviness that
weighed upon me. In an engraver's shop on the boulevard there is an Italian
print of one of the Muses. She is draped in a tunic, and she is looking at
the moon, with forget-me-nots in her flowing hair. Something drove me there
continually; I stayed there hours together." Then in a trembling voice, "She
resembled you a little."
Madame Bovary turned away her head that he
might not see the irrepressible smile she felt rising to her lips.
"Often," he went on, "I wrote you letters
that I tore up."
She did not answer. He continued—
"I sometimes fancied that some chance would
bring you. I thought I recognised you at street-corners, and I ran after all
the carriages through whose windows I saw a shawl fluttering, a veil like
yours."
She seemed resolved to let him go on
speaking without interruption. Crossing her arms and bending down her face,
she looked at the rosettes on her slippers, and at intervals made little
movements inside the satin of them with her toes.
At last she sighed.
"But the most wretched thing, is it not—is
to drag out, as I do, a useless existence. If our pains were only of some
use to someone, we should find consolation in the thought of the sacrifice."
He started off in praise of virtue, duty,
and silent immolation, having himself an incredible longing for
self-sacrifice that he could not satisfy.
"I should much like," she said, "to be a
nurse at a hospital."
"Alas! men have none of these holy
missions, and I see nowhere any calling—unless perhaps that of a doctor."
With a slight shrug of her shoulders, Emma
interrupted him to speak of her illness, which had almost killed her. What a
pity! She should not be suffering now! Leon at once envied the calm of the
tomb, and one evening he had even made his will, asking to be buried in that
beautiful rug with velvet stripes he had received from her. For this was how
they would have wished to be, each setting up an ideal to which they were
now adapting their past life. Besides, speech is a rolling-mill that always
thins out the sentiment.
But at this invention of the rug she asked,
"But why?"
"Why?" He hesitated. "Because I loved you
so!" And congratulating himself at having surmounted the difficulty, Leon
watched her face out of the corner of his eyes.
It was like the sky when a gust of wind
drives the clouds across. The mass of sad thoughts that darkened them seemed
to be lifted from her blue eyes; her whole face shone. He waited. At last
she replied—
"I always suspected it."
Then they went over all the trifling events
of that far-off existence, whose joys and sorrows they had just summed up in
one word. They recalled the arbour with clematis, the dresses she had worn,
the furniture of her room, the whole of her house.
"And our poor cactuses, where are they?"
"The cold killed them this winter."
"Ah! how I have thought of them, do you
know? I often saw them again as of yore, when on the summer mornings the sun
beat down upon your blinds, and I saw your two bare arms passing out amongst
the flowers."
"Poor friend!" she said, holding out her
hand to him.
Leon swiftly pressed his lips to it. Then,
when he had taken a deep breath—
"At that time you were to me I know not
what incomprehensible force that took captive my life. Once, for instance, I
went to see you; but you, no doubt, do not remember it."
"I do," she said; "go on."
"You were downstairs in the ante-room,
ready to go out, standing on the last stair; you were wearing a bonnet with
small blue flowers; and without any invitation from you, in spite of myself,
I went with you. Every moment, however, I grew more and more conscious of my
folly, and I went on walking by you, not daring to follow you completely,
and unwilling to leave you. When you went into a shop, I waited in the
street, and I watched you through the window taking off your gloves and
counting the change on the counter. Then you rang at Madame Tuvache's; you
were let in, and I stood like an idiot in front of the great heavy door that
had closed after you."
Madame Bovary, as she listened to him,
wondered that she was so old. All these things reappearing before her seemed
to widen out her life; it was like some sentimental immensity to which she
returned; and from time to time she said in a low voice, her eyes half
closed—
"Yes, it is true—true—true!"
They heard eight strike on the different
clocks of the Beauvoisine quarter, which is full of schools, churches, and
large empty hotels. They no longer spoke, but they felt as they looked upon
each other a buzzing in their heads, as if something sonorous had escaped
from the fixed eyes of each of them. They were hand in hand now, and the
past, the future, reminiscences and dreams, all were confounded in the
sweetness of this ecstasy. Night was darkening over the walls, on which
still shone, half hidden in the shade, the coarse colours of four bills
representing four scenes from the "Tour de Nesle," with a motto in Spanish
and French at the bottom. Through the sash-window a patch of dark sky was
seen between the pointed roofs.
She rose to light two wax-candles on the
drawers, then she sat down again.
"Well!" said Leon.
"Well!" she replied.
He was thinking how to resume the
interrupted conversation, when she said to him—
"How is it that no one until now has ever
expressed such sentiments to me?"
The clerk said that ideal natures were
difficult to understand. He from the first moment had loved her, and he
despaired when he thought of the happiness that would have been theirs, if
thanks to fortune, meeting her earlier, they had been indissolubly bound to
one another.
"I have sometimes thought of it," she went
on.
"What a dream!" murmured Leon. And
fingering gently the blue binding of her long white sash, he added, "And who
prevents us from beginning now?"
"No, my friend," she replied; "I am too
old; you are too young. Forget me! Others will love you; you will love
them."
"Not as you!" he cried.
"What a child you are! Come, let us be
sensible. I wish it."
She showed him the impossibility of their
love, and that they must remain, as formerly, on the simple terms of a
fraternal friendship.
Was she speaking thus seriously? No doubt
Emma did not herself know, quite absorbed as she was by the charm of the
seduction, and the necessity of defending herself from it; and contemplating
the young man with a moved look, she gently repulsed the timid caresses that
his trembling hands attempted.
"Ah! forgive me!" he cried, drawing back.
Emma was seized with a vague fear at this
shyness, more dangerous to her than the boldness of Rodolphe when he
advanced to her open-armed. No man had ever seemed to her so beautiful. An
exquisite candour emanated from his being. He lowered his long fine
eyelashes, that curled upwards. His cheek, with the soft skin reddened, she
thought, with desire of her person, and Emma felt an invincible longing to
press her lips to it. Then, leaning towards the clock as if to see the time—
"Ah! how late it is!" she said; "how we do
chatter!"
He understood the hint and took up his hat.
"It has even made me forget the theatre.
And poor Bovary has left me here especially for that. Monsieur Lormeaux, of
the Rue Grand-Pont, was to take me and his wife."
And the opportunity was lost, as she was to
leave the next day.
"Really!" said Leon.
"Yes."
"But I must see you again," he went on. "I
wanted to tell you—"
"What?"
"Something—important—serious. Oh, no!
Besides, you will not go; it is impossible. If you should—listen to me. Then
you have not understood me; you have not guessed—"
"Yet you speak plainly," said Emma.
"Ah! you can jest. Enough! enough! Oh, for
pity's sake, let me see you once—only once!"
"Well—" She stopped; then, as if thinking
better of it, "Oh, not here!"
"Where you will."
"Will you—" She seemed to reflect; then
abruptly, "To-morrow at eleven o'clock in the cathedral."
"I shall be there," he cried, seizing her
hands, which she disengaged.
And as they were both standing up, he
behind her, and Emma with her head bent, he stooped over her and pressed
long kisses on her neck.
"You are mad! Ah! you are mad!" she said,
with sounding little laughs, while the kisses multiplied.
Then bending his head over her shoulder, he
seemed to beg the consent of her eyes. They fell upon him full of an icy
dignity.
Leon stepped back to go out. He stopped on
the threshold; then he whispered with a trembling voice, "Tomorrow!"
She answered with a nod, and disappeared
like a bird into the next room.
In the evening Emma wrote the clerk an
interminable letter, in which she cancelled the rendezvous; all was over;
they must not, for the sake of their happiness, meet again. But when the
letter was finished, as she did not know Leon's address, she was puzzled.
"I'll give it to him myself," she said; "he
will come."
The next morning, at the open window, and
humming on his balcony, Leon himself varnished his pumps with several
coatings. He put on white trousers, fine socks, a green coat, emptied all
the scent he had into his handkerchief, then having had his hair curled, he
uncurled it again, in order to give it a more natural elegance.
"It is still too early," he thought,
looking at the hairdresser's cuckoo-clock, that pointed to the hour of nine.
He read an old fashion journal, went out, smoked a cigar, walked up three
streets, thought it was time, and went slowly towards the porch of Notre
Dame.
It was a beautiful summer morning. Silver
plate sparkled in the jeweller's windows, and the light falling obliquely on
the cathedral made mirrors of the corners of the grey stones; a flock of
birds fluttered in the grey sky round the trefoil bell-turrets; the square,
resounding with cries, was fragrant with the flowers that bordered its
pavement, roses, jasmines, pinks, narcissi, and tube-roses, unevenly spaced
out between moist grasses, catmint, and chickweed for the birds; the
fountains gurgled in the centre, and under large umbrellas, amidst melons,
piled up in heaps, flower-women, bare-headed, were twisting paper round
bunches of violets.
The young man took one. It was the first
time that he had bought flowers for a woman, and his breast, as he smelt
them, swelled with pride, as if this homage that he meant for another had
recoiled upon himself.
But he was afraid of being seen; he
resolutely entered the church. The beadle, who was just then standing on the
threshold in the middle of the left doorway, under the "Dancing Marianne,"
with feather cap, and rapier dangling against his calves, came in, more
majestic than a cardinal, and as shining as a saint on a holy pyx.
He came towards Leon, and, with that smile
of wheedling benignity assumed by ecclesiastics when they question children—
"The gentleman, no doubt, does not belong
to these parts? The gentleman would like to see the curiosities of the
church?"
"No!" said the other.
And he first went round the lower aisles.
Then he went out to look at the Place. Emma was not coming yet. He went up
again to the choir.
The nave was reflected in the full fonts
with the beginning of the arches and some portions of the glass windows. But
the reflections of the paintings, broken by the marble rim, were continued
farther on upon the flag-stones, like a many-coloured carpet. The broad
daylight from without streamed into the church in three enormous rays from
the three opened portals. From time to time at the upper end a sacristan
passed, making the oblique genuflexion of devout persons in a hurry. The
crystal lustres hung motionless. In the choir a silver lamp was burning, and
from the side chapels and dark places of the church sometimes rose sounds
like sighs, with the clang of a closing grating, its echo reverberating
under the lofty vault.
Leon with solemn steps walked along by the
walls. Life had never seemed so good to him. She would come directly,
charming, agitated, looking back at the glances that followed her, and with
her flounced dress, her gold eyeglass, her thin shoes, with all sorts of
elegant trifles that he had never enjoyed, and with the ineffable seduction
of yielding virtue. The church like a huge boudoir spread around her; the
arches bent down to gather in the shade the confession of her love; the
windows shone resplendent to illumine her face, and the censers would burn
that she might appear like an angel amid the fumes of the sweet-smelling
odours.
But she did not come. He sat down on a
chair, and his eyes fell upon a blue stained window representing boatmen
carrying baskets. He looked at it long, attentively, and he counted the
scales of the fishes and the button-holes of the doublets, while his
thoughts wandered off towards Emma.
The beadle, standing aloof, was inwardly
angry at this individual who took the liberty of admiring the cathedral by
himself. He seemed to him to be conducting himself in a monstrous fashion,
to be robbing him in a sort, and almost committing sacrilege.
But a rustle of silk on the flags, the tip
of a bonnet, a lined cloak—it was she! Leon rose and ran to meet her.
Emma was pale. She walked fast.
"Read!" she said, holding out a paper to
him. "Oh, no!"
And she abruptly withdrew her hand to enter
the chapel of the Virgin, where, kneeling on a chair, she began to pray.
The young man was irritated at this bigot
fancy; then he nevertheless experienced a certain charm in seeing her, in
the middle of a rendezvous, thus lost in her devotions, like an Andalusian
marchioness; then he grew bored, for she seemed never coming to an end.
Emma prayed, or rather strove to pray,
hoping that some sudden resolution might descend to her from heaven; and to
draw down divine aid she filled full her eyes with the splendours of the
tabernacle. She breathed in the perfumes of the full-blown flowers in the
large vases, and listened to the stillness of the church, that only
heightened the tumult of her heart.
She rose, and they were about to leave,
when the beadle came forward, hurriedly saying—
"Madame, no doubt, does not belong to these
parts? Madame would like to see the curiosities of the church?"
"Oh, no!" cried the clerk.
"Why not?" said she. For she clung with her
expiring virtue to the Virgin, the sculptures, the tombs—anything.
Then, in order to proceed "by rule," the
beadle conducted them right to the entrance near the square, where, pointing
out with his cane a large circle of block-stones without inscription or
carving—
"This," he said majestically, "is the
circumference of the beautiful bell of Ambroise. It weighed forty thousand
pounds. There was not its equal in all Europe. The workman who cast it died
of the joy—"
"Let us go on," said Leon.
The old fellow started off again; then,
having got back to the chapel of the Virgin, he stretched forth his arm with
an all-embracing gesture of demonstration, and, prouder than a country
squire showing you his espaliers, went on—
"This simple stone covers Pierre de Breze,
lord of Varenne and of Brissac, grand marshal of Poitou, and governor of
Normandy, who died at the battle of Montlhery on the 16th of July, 1465."
Leon bit his lips, fuming.
"And on the right, this gentleman all
encased in iron, on the prancing horse, is his grandson, Louis de Breze,
lord of Breval and of Montchauvet, Count de Maulevrier, Baron de Mauny,
chamberlain to the king, Knight of the Order, and also governor of Normandy;
died on the 23rd of July, 1531—a Sunday, as the inscription specifies; and
below, this figure, about to descend into the tomb, portrays the same
person. It is not possible, is it, to see a more perfect representation of
annihilation?"
Madame Bovary put up her eyeglasses. Leon,
motionless, looked at her, no longer even attempting to speak a single word,
to make a gesture, so discouraged was he at this two-fold obstinacy of
gossip and indifference.
The everlasting guide went on—
"Near him, this kneeling woman who weeps is
his spouse, Diane de Poitiers, Countess de Breze, Duchess de Valentinois,
born in 1499, died in 1566, and to the left, the one with the child is the
Holy Virgin. Now turn to this side; here are the tombs of the Ambroise. They
were both cardinals and archbishops of Rouen. That one was minister under
Louis XII. He did a great deal for the cathedral. In his will he left thirty
thousand gold crowns for the poor."
And without stopping, still talking, he
pushed them into a chapel full of balustrades, some put away, and disclosed
a kind of block that certainly might once have been an ill-made statue.
"Truly," he said with a groan, "it adorned
the tomb of Richard Coeur de Lion, King of England and Duke of Normandy. It
was the Calvinists, sir, who reduced it to this condition. They had buried
it for spite in the earth, under the episcopal seat of Monsignor. See! this
is the door by which Monsignor passes to his house. Let us pass on quickly
to see the gargoyle windows."
But Leon hastily took some silver from his
pocket and seized Emma's arm. The beadle stood dumfounded, not able to
understand this untimely munificence when there were still so many things
for the stranger to see. So calling him back, he cried—
"Sir! sir! The steeple! the steeple!"
"No, thank you!" said Leon.
"You are wrong, sir! It is four hundred and
forty feet high, nine less than the great pyramid of Egypt. It is all cast;
it—"
Leon was fleeing, for it seemed to him that
his love, that for nearly two hours now had become petrified in the church
like the stones, would vanish like a vapour through that sort of truncated
funnel, of oblong cage, of open chimney that rises so grotesquely from the
cathedral like the extravagant attempt of some fantastic brazier.
"But where are we going?" she said.
Making no answer, he walked on with a rapid
step; and Madame Bovary was already, dipping her finger in the holy water
when behind them they heard a panting breath interrupted by the regular
sound of a cane. Leon turned back.
"Sir!"
"What is it?"
And he recognised the beadle, holding under
his arms and balancing against his stomach some twenty large sewn volumes.
They were works "which treated of the cathedral."
"Idiot!" growled Leon, rushing out of the
church.
A lad was playing about the close.
"Go and get me a cab!"
The child bounded off like a ball by the
Rue Quatre-Vents; then they were alone a few minutes, face to face, and a
little embarrassed.
"Ah! Leon! Really—I don't know—if I ought,"
she whispered. Then with a more serious air, "Do you know, it is very
improper—"
"How so?" replied the clerk. "It is done at
Paris."
And that, as an irresistible argument,
decided her.
Still the cab did not come. Leon was afraid
she might go back into the church. At last the cab appeared.
"At all events, go out by the north porch,"
cried the beadle, who was left alone on the threshold, "so as to see the
Resurrection, the Last Judgment, Paradise, King David, and the Condemned in
Hell-flames."
"Where to, sir?" asked the coachman.
"Where you like," said Leon, forcing Emma
into the cab.
And the lumbering machine set out. It went
down the Rue Grand-Pont, crossed the Place des Arts, the Quai Napoleon, the
Pont Neuf, and stopped short before the statue of Pierre Corneille.
"Go on," cried a voice that came from
within.
The cab went on again, and as soon as it
reached the Carrefour Lafayette, set off down-hill, and entered the station
at a gallop.
"No, straight on!" cried the same voice.
The cab came out by the gate, and soon
having reached the Cours, trotted quietly beneath the elm-trees. The
coachman wiped his brow, put his leather hat between his knees, and drove
his carriage beyond the side alley by the meadow to the margin of the
waters.
It went along by the river, along the
towing-path paved with sharp pebbles, and for a long while in the direction
of Oyssel, beyond the isles.
But suddenly it turned with a dash across
Quatremares, Sotteville, La Grande-Chaussee, the Rue d'Elbeuf, and made its
third halt in front of the Jardin des Plantes.
"Get on, will you?" cried the voice more
furiously.
And at once resuming its course, it passed
by Saint-Sever, by the Quai'des Curandiers, the Quai aux Meules, once more
over the bridge, by the Place du Champ de Mars, and behind the hospital
gardens, where old men in black coats were walking in the sun along the
terrace all green with ivy. It went up the Boulevard Bouvreuil, along the
Boulevard Cauchoise, then the whole of Mont-Riboudet to the Deville hills.
It came back; and then, without any fixed
plan or direction, wandered about at hazard. The cab was seen at Saint-Pol,
at Lescure, at Mont Gargan, at La Rougue-Marc and Place du Gaillardbois; in
the Rue Maladrerie, Rue Dinanderie, before Saint-Romain, Saint-Vivien,
Saint-Maclou, Saint-Nicaise—in front of the Customs, at the "Vieille Tour,"
the "Trois Pipes," and the Monumental Cemetery. From time to time the
coachman, on his box cast despairing eyes at the public-houses. He could not
understand what furious desire for locomotion urged these individuals never
to wish to stop. He tried to now and then, and at once exclamations of anger
burst forth behind him. Then he lashed his perspiring jades afresh, but
indifferent to their jolting, running up against things here and there, not
caring if he did, demoralised, and almost weeping with thirst, fatigue, and
depression.
And on the harbour, in the midst of the
drays and casks, and in the streets, at the corners, the good folk opened
large wonder-stricken eyes at this sight, so extraordinary in the provinces,
a cab with blinds drawn, and which appeared thus constantly shut more
closely than a tomb, and tossing about like a vessel.
Once in the middle of the day, in the open
country, just as the sun beat most fiercely against the old plated lanterns,
a bared hand passed beneath the small blinds of yellow canvas, and threw out
some scraps of paper that scattered in the wind, and farther off lighted
like white butterflies on a field of red clover all in bloom.
At about six o'clock the carriage stopped
in a back street of the Beauvoisine Quarter, and a woman got out, who walked
with her veil down, and without turning her head.
Chapter Two
On reaching the inn, Madame Bovary was
surprised not to see the diligence. Hivert, who had waited for her
fifty-three minutes, had at last started.
Yet nothing forced her to go; but she had
given her word that she would return that same evening. Moreover, Charles
expected her, and in her heart she felt already that cowardly docility that
is for some women at once the chastisement and atonement of adultery.
She packed her box quickly, paid her bill,
took a cab in the yard, hurrying on the driver, urging him on, every moment
inquiring about the time and the miles traversed. He succeeded in catching
up the "Hirondelle" as it neared the first houses of Quincampoix.
Hardly was she seated in her corner than
she closed her eyes, and opened them at the foot of the hill, when from afar
she recognised Felicite, who was on the lookout in front of the farrier's
shop. Hivert pulled in his horses and, the servant, climbing up to the
window, said mysteriously—
"Madame, you must go at once to Monsieur
Homais. It's for something important."
The village was silent as usual. At the
corner of the streets were small pink heaps that smoked in the air, for this
was the time for jam-making, and everyone at Yonville prepared his supply on
the same day. But in front of the chemist's shop one might admire a far
larger heap, and that surpassed the others with the superiority that a
laboratory must have over ordinary stores, a general need over individual
fancy.
She went in. The large arm-chair was upset,
and even the "Fanal de Rouen" lay on the ground, outspread between two
pestles. She pushed open the lobby door, and in the middle of the kitchen,
amid brown jars full of picked currants, of powdered sugar and lump sugar,
of the scales on the table, and of the pans on the fire, she saw all the
Homais, small and large, with aprons reaching to their chins, and with forks
in their hands. Justin was standing up with bowed head, and the chemist was
screaming—
"Who told you to go and fetch it in the
Capharnaum."
"What is it? What is the matter?"
"What is it?" replied the druggist. "We are
making preserves; they are simmering; but they were about to boil over,
because there is too much juice, and I ordered another pan. Then he, from
indolence, from laziness, went and took, hanging on its nail in my
laboratory, the key of the Capharnaum."
It was thus the druggist called a small
room under the leads, full of the utensils and the goods of his trade. He
often spent long hours there alone, labelling, decanting, and doing up
again; and he looked upon it not as a simple store, but as a veritable
sanctuary, whence there afterwards issued, elaborated by his hands, all
sorts of pills, boluses, infusions, lotions, and potions, that would bear
far and wide his celebrity. No one in the world set foot there, and he
respected it so, that he swept it himself. Finally, if the pharmacy, open to
all comers, was the spot where he displayed his pride, the Capharnaum was
the refuge where, egoistically concentrating himself, Homais delighted in
the exercise of his predilections, so that Justin's thoughtlessness seemed
to him a monstrous piece of irreverence, and, redder than the currants, he
repeated—
"Yes, from the Capharnaum! The key that
locks up the acids and caustic alkalies! To go and get a spare pan! a pan
with a lid! and that I shall perhaps never use! Everything is of importance
in the delicate operations of our art! But, devil take it! one must make
distinctions, and not employ for almost domestic purposes that which is
meant for pharmaceutical! It is as if one were to carve a fowl with a
scalpel; as if a magistrate—"
"Now be calm," said Madame Homais.
And Athalie, pulling at his coat, cried
"Papa! papa!"
"No, let me alone," went on the druggist
"let me alone, hang it! My word! One might as well set up for a grocer.
That's it! go it! respect nothing! break, smash, let loose the leeches, burn
the mallow-paste, pickle the gherkins in the window jars, tear up the
bandages!"
"I thought you had—" said Emma.
"Presently! Do you know to what you exposed
yourself? Didn't you see anything in the corner, on the left, on the third
shelf? Speak, answer, articulate something."
"I—don't—know," stammered the young fellow.
"Ah! you don't know! Well, then, I do know!
You saw a bottle of blue glass, sealed with yellow wax, that contains a
white powder, on which I have even written 'Dangerous!' And do you know what
is in it? Arsenic! And you go and touch it! You take a pan that was next to
it!"
"Next to it!" cried Madame Homais, clasping
her hands. "Arsenic! You might have poisoned us all."
And the children began howling as if they
already had frightful pains in their entrails.
"Or poison a patient!" continued the
druggist. "Do you want to see me in the prisoner's dock with criminals, in a
court of justice? To see me dragged to the scaffold? Don't you know what
care I take in managing things, although I am so thoroughly used to it?
Often I am horrified myself when I think of my responsibility; for the
Government persecutes us, and the absurd legislation that rules us is a
veritable Damocles' sword over our heads."
Emma no longer dreamed of asking what they
wanted her for, and the druggist went on in breathless phrases—
"That is your return for all the kindness
we have shown you! That is how you recompense me for the really paternal
care that I lavish on you! For without me where would you be? What would you
be doing? Who provides you with food, education, clothes, and all the means
of figuring one day with honour in the ranks of society? But you must pull
hard at the oar if you're to do that, and get, as, people say, callosities
upon your hands. Fabricando fit faber, age quod agis.*"
* The worker lives by working, do what he will.
He was so exasperated he quoted Latin. He
would have quoted Chinese or Greenlandish had he known those two languages,
for he was in one of those crises in which the whole soul shows indistinctly
what it contains, like the ocean, which, in the storm, opens itself from the
seaweeds on its shores down to the sands of its abysses.
And he went on—
"I am beginning to repent terribly of
having taken you up! I should certainly have done better to have left you to
rot in your poverty and the dirt in which you were born. Oh, you'll never be
fit for anything but to herd animals with horns! You have no aptitude for
science! You hardly know how to stick on a label! And there you are,
dwelling with me snug as a parson, living in clover, taking your ease!"
But Emma, turning to Madame Homais, "I was
told to come here—"
"Oh, dear me!" interrupted the good woman,
with a sad air, "how am I to tell you? It is a misfortune!"
She could not finish, the druggist was
thundering—"Empty it! Clean it! Take it back! Be quick!"
And seizing Justin by the collar of his
blouse, he shook a book out of his pocket. The lad stooped, but Homais was
the quicker, and, having picked up the volume, contemplated it with staring
eyes and open mouth.
"CONJUGAL—LOVE!" he said, slowly separating
the two words. "Ah! very good! very good! very pretty! And illustrations!
Oh, this is too much!"
Madame Homais came forward.
"No, do not touch it!"
The children wanted to look at the
pictures.
"Leave the room," he said imperiously; and
they went out.
First he walked up and down with the open
volume in his hand, rolling his eyes, choking, tumid, apoplectic. Then he
came straight to his pupil, and, planting himself in front of him with
crossed arms—
"Have you every vice, then, little wretch?
Take care! you are on a downward path. Did not you reflect that this
infamous book might fall in the hands of my children, kindle a spark in
their minds, tarnish the purity of Athalie, corrupt Napoleon. He is already
formed like a man. Are you quite sure, anyhow, that they have not read it?
Can you certify to me—"
"But really, sir," said Emma, "you wished
to tell me—"
"Ah, yes! madame. Your father-in-law is
dead."
In fact, Monsieur Bovary senior had expired
the evening before suddenly from an attack of apoplexy as he got up from
table, and by way of greater precaution, on account of Emma's sensibility,
Charles had begged Homais to break the horrible news to her gradually.
Homais had thought over his speech; he had rounded, polished it, made it
rhythmical; it was a masterpiece of prudence and transitions, of subtle
turns and delicacy; but anger had got the better of rhetoric.
Emma, giving up all chance of hearing any
details, left the pharmacy; for Monsieur Homais had taken up the thread of
his vituperations. However, he was growing calmer, and was now grumbling in
a paternal tone whilst he fanned himself with his skull-cap.
"It is not that I entirely disapprove of
the work. Its author was a doctor! There are certain scientific points in it
that it is not ill a man should know, and I would even venture to say that a
man must know. But later—later! At any rate, not till you are man yourself
and your temperament is formed."
When Emma knocked at the door. Charles, who
was waiting for her, came forward with open arms and said to her with tears
in his voice—
"Ah! my dear!"
And he bent over her gently to kiss her.
But at the contact of his lips the memory of the other seized her, and she
passed her hand over her face shuddering.
But she made answer, "Yes, I know, I know!"
He showed her the letter in which his
mother told the event without any sentimental hypocrisy. She only regretted
her husband had not received the consolations of religion, as he had died at
Daudeville, in the street, at the door of a cafe after a patriotic dinner
with some ex-officers.
Emma gave him back the letter; then at
dinner, for appearance's sake, she affected a certain repugnance. But as he
urged her to try, she resolutely began eating, while Charles opposite her
sat motionless in a dejected attitude.
Now and then he raised his head and gave
her a long look full of distress. Once he sighed, "I should have liked to
see him again!"
She was silent. At last, understanding that
she must say something, "How old was your father?" she asked.
"Fifty-eight."
"Ah!"
And that was all.
A quarter of an hour after he added, "My
poor mother! what will become of her now?"
She made a gesture that signified she did
not know. Seeing her so taciturn, Charles imagined her much affected, and
forced himself to say nothing, not to reawaken this sorrow which moved him.
And, shaking off his own—
"Did you enjoy yourself yesterday?" he
asked.
"Yes."
When the cloth was removed, Bovary did not
rise, nor did Emma; and as she looked at him, the monotony of the spectacle
drove little by little all pity from her heart. He seemed to her paltry,
weak, a cipher—in a word, a poor thing in every way. How to get rid of him?
What an interminable evening! Something stupefying like the fumes of opium
seized her.
They heard in the passage the sharp noise
of a wooden leg on the boards. It was Hippolyte bringing back Emma's
luggage. In order to put it down he described painfully a quarter of a
circle with his stump.
"He doesn't even remember any more about
it," she thought, looking at the poor devil, whose coarse red hair was wet
with perspiration.
Bovary was searching at the bottom of his
purse for a centime, and without appearing to understand all there was of
humiliation for him in the mere presence of this man, who stood there like a
personified reproach to his incurable incapacity.
"Hallo! you've a pretty bouquet," he said,
noticing Leon's violets on the chimney.
"Yes," she replied indifferently; "it's a
bouquet I bought just now from a beggar."
Charles picked up the flowers, and
freshening his eyes, red with tears, against them, smelt them delicately.
She took them quickly from his hand and put
them in a glass of water.
The next day Madame Bovary senior arrived.
She and her son wept much. Emma, on the pretext of giving orders,
disappeared. The following day they had a talk over the mourning. They went
and sat down with their workboxes by the waterside under the arbour.
Charles was thinking of his father, and was
surprised to feel so much affection for this man, whom till then he had
thought he cared little about. Madame Bovary senior was thinking of her
husband. The worst days of the past seemed enviable to her. All was
forgotten beneath the instinctive regret of such a long habit, and from time
to time whilst she sewed, a big tear rolled along her nose and hung
suspended there a moment. Emma was thinking that it was scarcely forty-eight
hours since they had been together, far from the world, all in a frenzy of
joy, and not having eyes enough to gaze upon each other. She tried to recall
the slightest details of that past day. But the presence of her husband and
mother-in-law worried her. She would have liked to hear nothing, to see
nothing, so as not to disturb the meditation on her love, that, do what she
would, became lost in external sensations.
She was unpicking the lining of a dress,
and the strips were scattered around her. Madame Bovary senior was plying
her scissor without looking up, and Charles, in his list slippers and his
old brown surtout that he used as a dressing-gown, sat with both hands in
his pockets, and did not speak either; near them Berthe, in a little white
pinafore, was raking sand in the walks with her spade. Suddenly she saw
Monsieur Lheureux, the linendraper, come in through the gate.
He came to offer his services "under the
sad circumstances." Emma answered that she thought she could do without. The
shopkeeper was not to be beaten.
"I beg your pardon," he said, "but I should
like to have a private talk with you." Then in a low voice, "It's about that
affair—you know."
Charles crimsoned to his ears. "Oh, yes!
certainly." And in his confusion, turning to his wife, "Couldn't you, my
darling?"
She seemed to understand him, for she rose;
and Charles said to his mother, "It is nothing particular. No doubt, some
household trifle." He did not want her to know the story of the bill,
fearing her reproaches.
As soon as they were alone, Monsieur
Lheureux in sufficiently clear terms began to congratulate Emma on the
inheritance, then to talk of indifferent matters, of the espaliers, of the
harvest, and of his own health, which was always so-so, always having ups
and downs. In fact, he had to work devilish hard, although he didn't make
enough, in spite of all people said, to find butter for his bread.
Emma let him talk on. She had bored herself
so prodigiously the last two days.
"And so you're quite well again?" he went
on. "Ma foi! I saw your husband in a sad state. He's a good fellow, though
we did have a little misunderstanding."
She asked what misunderstanding, for
Charles had said nothing of the dispute about the goods supplied to her.
"Why, you know well enough," cried
Lheureux. "It was about your little fancies—the travelling trunks."
He had drawn his hat over his eyes, and,
with his hands behind his back, smiling and whistling, he looked straight at
her in an unbearable manner. Did he suspect anything?
She was lost in all kinds of apprehensions.
At last, however, he went on—
"We made it up, all the same, and I've come
again to propose another arrangement."
This was to renew the bill Bovary had
signed. The doctor, of course, would do as he pleased; he was not to trouble
himself, especially just now, when he would have a lot of worry. "And he
would do better to give it over to someone else—to you, for example. With a
power of attorney it could be easily managed, and then we (you and I) would
have our little business transactions together."
She did not understand. He was silent.
Then, passing to his trade, Lheureux declared that madame must require
something. He would send her a black barege, twelve yards, just enough to
make a gown.
"The one you've on is good enough for the
house, but you want another for calls. I saw that the very moment that I
came in. I've the eye of an American!"
He did not send the stuff; he brought it.
Then he came again to measure it; he came again on other pretexts, always
trying to make himself agreeable, useful, "enfeoffing himself," as Homais
would have said, and always dropping some hint to Emma about the power of
attorney. He never mentioned the bill; she did not think of it. Charles, at
the beginning of her convalescence, had certainly said something about it to
her, but so many emotions had passed through her head that she no longer
remembered it. Besides, she took care not to talk of any money questions.
Madame Bovary seemed surprised at this, and attributed the change in her
ways to the religious sentiments she had contracted during her illness.
But as soon as she was gone, Emma greatly
astounded Bovary by her practical good sense. It would be necessary to make
inquiries, to look into mortgages, and see if there were any occasion for a
sale by auction or a liquidation. She quoted technical terms casually,
pronounced the grand words of order, the future, foresight, and constantly
exaggerated the difficulties of settling his father's affairs so much, that
at last one day she showed him the rough draft of a power of attorney to
manage and administer his business, arrange all loans, sign and endorse all
bills, pay all sums, etc. She had profited by Lheureux's lessons. Charles
naively asked her where this paper came from.
"Monsieur Guillaumin"; and with the utmost
coolness she added, "I don't trust him overmuch. Notaries have such a bad
reputation. Perhaps we ought to consult—we only know—no one."
"Unless Leon—" replied Charles, who was
reflecting. But it was difficult to explain matters by letter. Then she
offered to make the journey, but he thanked her. She insisted. It was quite
a contest of mutual consideration. At last she cried with affected
waywardness—
"No, I will go!"
"How good you are!" he said, kissing her
forehead.
The next morning she set out in the
"Hirondelle" to go to Rouen to consult Monsieur Leon, and she stayed there
three days.
Chapter Three
They were three full, exquisite days—a true
honeymoon. They were at the Hotel-de-Boulogne, on the harbour; and they
lived there, with drawn blinds and closed doors, with flowers on the floor,
and iced syrups were brought them early in the morning.
Towards evening they took a covered boat
and went to dine on one of the islands. It was the time when one hears by
the side of the dockyard the caulking-mallets sounding against the hull of
vessels. The smoke of the tar rose up between the trees; there were large
fatty drops on the water, undulating in the purple colour of the sun, like
floating plaques of Florentine bronze.
They rowed down in the midst of moored
boats, whose long oblique cables grazed lightly against the bottom of the
boat. The din of the town gradually grew distant; the rolling of carriages,
the tumult of voices, the yelping of dogs on the decks of vessels. She took
off her bonnet, and they landed on their island.
They sat down in the low-ceilinged room of
a tavern, at whose door hung black nets. They ate fried smelts, cream and
cherries. They lay down upon the grass; they kissed behind the poplars; and
they would fain, like two Robinsons, have lived for ever in this little
place, which seemed to them in their beatitude the most magnificent on
earth. It was not the first time that they had seen trees, a blue sky,
meadows; that they had heard the water flowing and the wind blowing in the
leaves; but, no doubt, they had never admired all this, as if Nature had not
existed before, or had only begun to be beautiful since the gratification of
their desires.
At night they returned. The boat glided
along the shores of the islands. They sat at the bottom, both hidden by the
shade, in silence. The square oars rang in the iron thwarts, and, in the
stillness, seemed to mark time, like the beating of a metronome, while at
the stern the rudder that trailed behind never ceased its gentle splash
against the water.
Once the moon rose; they did not fail to
make fine phrases, finding the orb melancholy and full of poetry. She even
began to sing—
"One night, do you remember, we were
sailing," etc.
Her musical but weak voice died away along
the waves, and the winds carried off the trills that Leon heard pass like
the flapping of wings about him.
She was opposite him, leaning against the
partition of the shallop, through one of whose raised blinds the moon
streamed in. Her black dress, whose drapery spread out like a fan, made her
seem more slender, taller. Her head was raised, her hands clasped, her eyes
turned towards heaven. At times the shadow of the willows hid her
completely; then she reappeared suddenly, like a vision in the moonlight.
Leon, on the floor by her side, found under
his hand a ribbon of scarlet silk. The boatman looked at it, and at last
said—
"Perhaps it belongs to the party I took out
the other day. A lot of jolly folk, gentlemen and ladies, with cakes,
champagne, cornets—everything in style! There was one especially, a tall
handsome man with small moustaches, who was that funny! And they all kept
saying, 'Now tell us something, Adolphe—Dolpe,' I think."
She shivered.
"You are in pain?" asked Leon, coming
closer to her.
"Oh, it's nothing! No doubt, it is only the
night air."
"And who doesn't want for women, either,"
softly added the sailor, thinking he was paying the stranger a compliment.
Then, spitting on his hands, he took the
oars again.
Yet they had to part. The adieux were sad.
He was to send his letters to Mere Rollet, and she gave him such precise
instructions about a double envelope that he admired greatly her amorous
astuteness.
"So you can assure me it is all right?" she
said with her last kiss.
"Yes, certainly."
"But why," he thought afterwards as he came
back through the streets alone, "is she so very anxious to get this power of
attorney?"
Chapter Four
Leon soon put on an air of superiority
before his comrades, avoided their company, and completely neglected his
work.
He waited for her letters; he re-read them;
he wrote to her. He called her to mind with all the strength of his desires
and of his memories. Instead of lessening with absence, this longing to see
her again grew, so that at last on Saturday morning he escaped from his
office.
When, from the summit of the hill, he saw
in the valley below the church-spire with its tin flag swinging in the wind,
he felt that delight mingled with triumphant vanity and egoistic tenderness
that millionaires must experience when they come back to their native
village.
He went rambling round her house. A light
was burning in the kitchen. He watched for her shadow behind the curtains,
but nothing appeared.
Mere Lefrancois, when she saw him, uttered
many exclamations. She thought he "had grown and was thinner," while
Artemise, on the contrary, thought him stouter and darker.
He dined in the little room as of yore, but
alone, without the tax-gatherer; for Binet, tired of waiting for the
"Hirondelle," had definitely put forward his meal one hour, and now he dined
punctually at five, and yet he declared usually the rickety old concern "was
late."
Leon, however, made up his mind, and
knocked at the doctor's door. Madame was in her room, and did not come down
for a quarter of an hour. The doctor seemed delighted to see him, but he
never stirred out that evening, nor all the next day.
He saw her alone in the evening, very late,
behind the garden in the lane; in the lane, as she had the other one! It was
a stormy night, and they talked under an umbrella by lightning flashes.
Their separation was becoming intolerable.
"I would rather die!" said Emma. She was writhing in his arms, weeping.
"Adieu! adieu! When shall I see you again?"
They came back again to embrace once more,
and it was then that she promised him to find soon, by no matter what means,
a regular opportunity for seeing one another in freedom at least once a
week. Emma never doubted she should be able to do this. Besides, she was
full of hope. Some money was coming to her.
On the strength of it she bought a pair of
yellow curtains with large stripes for her room, whose cheapness Monsieur
Lheureux had commended; she dreamed of getting a carpet, and Lheureux,
declaring that it wasn't "drinking the sea," politely undertook to supply
her with one. She could no longer do without his services. Twenty times a
day she sent for him, and he at once put by his business without a murmur.
People could not understand either why Mere Rollet breakfasted with her
every day, and even paid her private visits.
It was about this time, that is to say, the
beginning of winter, that she seemed seized with great musical fervour.
One evening when Charles was listening to
her, she began the same piece four times over, each time with much vexation,
while he, not noticing any difference, cried—
"Bravo! very goodl You are wrong to stop.
Go on!"
"Oh, no; it is execrable! My fingers are
quite rusty."
The next day he begged her to play him
something again.
"Very well; to please you!"
And Charles confessed she had gone off a
little. She played wrong notes and blundered; then, stopping short—
"Ah! it is no use. I ought to take some
lessons; but—" She bit her lips and added, "Twenty francs a lesson, that's
too dear!"
"Yes, so it is—rather," said Charles,
giggling stupidly. "But it seems to me that one might be able to do it for
less; for there are artists of no reputation, and who are often better than
the celebrities."
"Find them!" said Emma.
The next day when he came home he looked at
her shyly, and at last could no longer keep back the words.
"How obstinate you are sometimes! I went to
Barfucheres to-day. Well, Madame Liegard assured me that her three young
ladies who are at La Misericorde have lessons at fifty sous apiece, and that
from an excellent mistress!"
She shrugged her shoulders and did not open
her piano again. But when she passed by it (if Bovary were there), she
sighed—
"Ah! my poor piano!"
And when anyone came to see her, she did
not fail to inform them she had given up music, and could not begin again
now for important reasons. Then people commiserated her—
"What a pity! she had so much talent!"
They even spoke to Bovary about it. They
put him to shame, and especially the chemist.
"You are wrong. One should never let any of
the faculties of nature lie fallow. Besides, just think, my good friend,
that by inducing madame to study; you are economising on the subsequent
musical education of your child. For my own part, I think that mothers ought
themselves to instruct their children. That is an idea of Rousseau's, still
rather new perhaps, but that will end by triumphing, I am certain of it,
like mothers nursing their own children and vaccination."
So Charles returned once more to this
question of the piano. Emma replied bitterly that it would be better to sell
it. This poor piano, that had given her vanity so much satisfaction—to see
it go was to Bovary like the indefinable suicide of a part of herself.
"If you liked," he said, "a lesson from
time to time, that wouldn't after all be very ruinous."
"But lessons," she replied, "are only of
use when followed up."
And thus it was she set about obtaining her
husband's permission to go to town once a week to see her lover. At the end
of a month she was even considered to have made considerable progress.
Chapter Five
She went on Thursdays. She got up and
dressed silently, in order not to awaken Charles, who would have made
remarks about her getting ready too early. Next she walked up and down, went
to the windows, and looked out at the Place. The early dawn was broadening
between the pillars of the market, and the chemist's shop, with the shutters
still up, showed in the pale light of the dawn the large letters of his
signboard.
When the clock pointed to a quarter past
seven, she went off to the "Lion d'Or," whose door Artemise opened yawning.
The girl then made up the coals covered by the cinders, and Emma remained
alone in the kitchen. Now and again she went out. Hivert was leisurely
harnessing his horses, listening, moreover, to Mere Lefrancois, who, passing
her head and nightcap through a grating, was charging him with commissions
and giving him explanations that would have confused anyone else. Emma kept
beating the soles of her boots against the pavement of the yard.
At last, when he had eaten his soup, put on
his cloak, lighted his pipe, and grasped his whip, he calmly installed
himself on his seat.
The "Hirondelle" started at a slow trot,
and for about a mile stopped here and there to pick up passengers who waited
for it, standing at the border of the road, in front of their yard gates.
Those who had secured seats the evening
before kept it waiting; some even were still in bed in their houses. Hivert
called, shouted, swore; then he got down from his seat and went and knocked
loudly at the doors. The wind blew through the cracked windows.
The four seats, however, filled up. The
carriage rolled off; rows of apple-trees followed one upon another, and the
road between its two long ditches, full of yellow water, rose, constantly
narrowing towards the horizon.
Emma knew it from end to end; she knew that
after a meadow there was a sign-post, next an elm, a barn, or the hut of a
lime-kiln tender. Sometimes even, in the hope of getting some surprise, she
shut her eyes, but she never lost the clear perception of the distance to be
traversed.
At last the brick houses began to follow
one another more closely, the earth resounded beneath the wheels, the
"Hirondelle" glided between the gardens, where through an opening one saw
statues, a periwinkle plant, clipped yews, and a swing. Then on a sudden the
town appeared. Sloping down like an amphitheatre, and drowned in the fog, it
widened out beyond the bridges confusedly. Then the open country spread away
with a monotonous movement till it touched in the distance the vague line of
the pale sky. Seen thus from above, the whole landscape looked immovable as
a picture; the anchored ships were massed in one corner, the river curved
round the foot of the green hills, and the isles, oblique in shape, lay on
the water, like large, motionless, black fishes. The factory chimneys
belched forth immense brown fumes that were blown away at the top. One heard
the rumbling of the foundries, together with the clear chimes of the
churches that stood out in the mist. The leafless trees on the boulevards
made violet thickets in the midst of the houses, and the roofs, all shining
with the rain, threw back unequal reflections, according to the height of
the quarters in which they were. Sometimes a gust of wind drove the clouds
towards the Saint Catherine hills, like aerial waves that broke silently
against a cliff.
A giddiness seemed to her to detach itself
from this mass of existence, and her heart swelled as if the hundred and
twenty thousand souls that palpitated there had all at once sent into it the
vapour of the passions she fancied theirs. Her love grew in the presence of
this vastness, and expanded with tumult to the vague murmurings that rose
towards her. She poured it out upon the square, on the walks, on the
streets, and the old Norman city outspread before her eyes as an enormous
capital, as a Babylon into which she was entering. She leant with both hands
against the window, drinking in the breeze; the three horses galloped, the
stones grated in the mud, the diligence rocked, and Hivert, from afar,
hailed the carts on the road, while the bourgeois who had spent the night at
the Guillaume woods came quietly down the hill in their little family
carriages.
They stopped at the barrier; Emma undid her
overshoes, put on other gloves, rearranged her shawl, and some twenty paces
farther she got down from the "Hirondelle."
The town was then awakening. Shop-boys in
caps were cleaning up the shop-fronts, and women with baskets against their
hips, at intervals uttered sonorous cries at the corners of streets. She
walked with downcast eyes, close to the walls, and smiling with pleasure
under her lowered black veil.
For fear of being seen, she did not usually
take the most direct road. She plunged into dark alleys, and, all
perspiring, reached the bottom of the Rue Nationale, near the fountain that
stands there. It, is the quarter for theatres, public-houses, and whores.
Often a cart would pass near her, bearing some shaking scenery. Waiters in
aprons were sprinkling sand on the flagstones between green shrubs. It all
smelt of absinthe, cigars, and oysters.
She turned down a street; she recognised
him by his curling hair that escaped from beneath his hat.
Leon walked along the pavement. She
followed him to the hotel. He went up, opened the door, entered—What an
embrace!
Then, after the kisses, the words gushed
forth. They told each other the sorrows of the week, the presentiments, the
anxiety for the letters; but now everything was forgotten; they gazed into
each other's faces with voluptuous laughs, and tender names.
The bed was large, of mahogany, in the
shape of a boat. The curtains were in red levantine, that hung from the
ceiling and bulged out too much towards the bell-shaped bedside; and nothing
in the world was so lovely as her brown head and white skin standing out
against this purple colour, when, with a movement of shame, she crossed her
bare arms, hiding her face in her hands.
The warm room, with its discreet carpet,
its gay ornaments, and its calm light, seemed made for the intimacies of
passion. The curtain-rods, ending in arrows, their brass pegs, and the great
balls of the fire-dogs shone suddenly when the sun came in. On the chimney
between the candelabra there were two of those pink shells in which one
hears the murmur of the sea if one holds them to the ear.
How they loved that dear room, so full of
gaiety, despite its rather faded splendour! They always found the furniture
in the same place, and sometimes hairpins, that she had forgotten the
Thursday before, under the pedestal of the clock. They lunched by the
fireside on a little round table, inlaid with rosewood. Emma carved, put
bits on his plate with all sorts of coquettish ways, and she laughed with a
sonorous and libertine laugh when the froth of the champagne ran over from
the glass to the rings on her fingers. They were so completely lost in the
possession of each other that they thought themselves in their own house,
and that they would live there till death, like two spouses eternally young.
They said "our room," "our carpet," she even said "my slippers," a gift of
Leon's, a whim she had had. They were pink satin, bordered with swansdown.
When she sat on his knees, her leg, then too short, hung in the air, and the
dainty shoe, that had no back to it, was held only by the toes to her bare
foot.
He for the first time enjoyed the
inexpressible delicacy of feminine refinements. He had never met this grace
of language, this reserve of clothing, these poses of the weary dove. He
admired the exaltation of her soul and the lace on her petticoat. Besides,
was she not "a lady" and a married woman—a real mistress, in fine?
By the diversity of her humour, in turn
mystical or mirthful, talkative, taciturn, passionate, careless, she
awakened in him a thousand desires, called up instincts or memories. She was
the mistress of all the novels, the heroine of all the dramas, the vague
"she" of all the volumes of verse. He found again on her shoulder the amber
colouring of the "Odalisque Bathing"; she had the long waist of feudal
chatelaines, and she resembled the "Pale Woman of Barcelona." But above all
she was the Angel!
Often looking at her, it seemed to him that
his soul, escaping towards her, spread like a wave about the outline of her
head, and descended drawn down into the whiteness of her breast. He knelt on
the ground before her, and with both elbows on her knees looked at her with
a smile, his face upturned.
She bent over him, and murmured, as if
choking with intoxication—
"Oh, do not move! do not speak! look at me!
Something so sweet comes from your eyes that helps me so much!"
She called him "child." "Child, do you love
me?"
And she did not listen for his answer in
the haste of her lips that fastened to his mouth.
On the clock there was a bronze cupid, who
smirked as he bent his arm beneath a golden garland. They had laughed at it
many a time, but when they had to part everything seemed serious to them.
Motionless in front of each other, they
kept repeating, "Till Thursday, till Thursday."
Suddenly she seized his head between her
hands, kissed him hurriedly on the forehead, crying, "Adieu!" and rushed
down the stairs.
She went to a hairdresser's in the Rue de
la Comedie to have her hair arranged. Night fell; the gas was lighted in the
shop. She heard the bell at the theatre calling the mummers to the
performance, and she saw, passing opposite, men with white faces and women
in faded gowns going in at the stage-door.
It was hot in the room, small, and too low
where the stove was hissing in the midst of wigs and pomades. The smell of
the tongs, together with the greasy hands that handled her head, soon
stunned her, and she dozed a little in her wrapper. Often, as he did her
hair, the man offered her tickets for a masked ball.
Then she went away. She went up the
streets; reached the Croix-Rouge, put on her overshoes, that she had hidden
in the morning under the seat, and sank into her place among the impatient
passengers. Some got out at the foot of the hill. She remained alone in the
carriage. At every turning all the lights of the town were seen more and
more completely, making a great luminous vapour about the dim houses. Emma
knelt on the cushions and her eyes wandered over the dazzling light. She
sobbed; called on Leon, sent him tender words and kisses lost in the wind.
On the hillside a poor devil wandered about
with his stick in the midst of the diligences. A mass of rags covered his
shoulders, and an old staved-in beaver, turned out like a basin, hid his
face; but when he took it off he discovered in the place of eyelids empty
and bloody orbits. The flesh hung in red shreds, and there flowed from it
liquids that congealed into green scale down to the nose, whose black
nostrils sniffed convulsively. To speak to you he threw back his head with
an idiotic laugh; then his bluish eyeballs, rolling constantly, at the
temples beat against the edge of the open wound. He sang a little song as he
followed the carriages—
"Maids an the warmth of a summer day Dream
of love, and of love always"
And all the rest was about birds and
sunshine and green leaves.
Sometimes he appeared suddenly behind Emma,
bareheaded, and she drew back with a cry. Hivert made fun of him. He would
advise him to get a booth at the Saint Romain fair, or else ask him,
laughing, how his young woman was.
Often they had started when, with a sudden
movement, his hat entered the diligence through the small window, while he
clung with his other arm to the footboard, between the wheels splashing mud.
His voice, feeble at first and quavering, grew sharp; it resounded in the
night like the indistinct moan of a vague distress; and through the ringing
of the bells, the murmur of the trees, and the rumbling of the empty
vehicle, it had a far-off sound that disturbed Emma. It went to the bottom
of her soul, like a whirlwind in an abyss, and carried her away into the
distances of a boundless melancholy. But Hivert, noticing a weight behind,
gave the blind man sharp cuts with his whip. The thong lashed his wounds,
and he fell back into the mud with a yell. Then the passengers in the
"Hirondelle" ended by falling asleep, some with open mouths, others with
lowered chins, leaning against their neighbour's shoulder, or with their arm
passed through the strap, oscillating regularly with the jolting of the
carriage; and the reflection of the lantern swinging without, on the crupper
of the wheeler; penetrating into the interior through the chocolate calico
curtains, threw sanguineous shadows over all these motionless people. Emma,
drunk with grief, shivered in her clothes, feeling her feet grow colder and
colder, and death in her soul.
Charles at home was waiting for her; the
"Hirondelle" was always late on Thursdays. Madame arrived at last, and
scarcely kissed the child. The dinner was not ready. No matter! She excused
the servant. This girl now seemed allowed to do just as she liked.
Often her husband, noting her pallor, asked
if she were unwell.
"No," said Emma.
"But," he replied, "you seem so strange
this evening."
"Oh, it's nothing! nothing!"
There were even days when she had no sooner
come in than she went up to her room; and Justin, happening to be there,
moved about noiselessly, quicker at helping her than the best of maids. He
put the matches ready, the candlestick, a book, arranged her nightgown,
turned back the bedclothes.
"Come!" said she, "that will do. Now you
can go."
For he stood there, his hands hanging down
and his eyes wide open, as if enmeshed in the innumerable threads of a
sudden reverie.
The following day was frightful, and those
that came after still more unbearable, because of her impatience to once
again seize her happiness; an ardent lust, inflamed by the images of past
experience, and that burst forth freely on the seventh day beneath Leon's
caresses. His ardours were hidden beneath outbursts of wonder and gratitude.
Emma tasted this love in a discreet, absorbed fashion, maintained it by all
the artifices of her tenderness, and trembled a little lest it should be
lost later on.
She often said to him, with her sweet,
melancholy voice—
"Ah! you too, you will leave me! You will
marry! You will be like all the others."
He asked, "What others?"
"Why, like all men," she replied. Then
added, repulsing him with a languid movement—
"You are all evil!"
One day, as they were talking
philosophically of earthly disillusions, to experiment on his jealousy, or
yielding, perhaps, to an over-strong need to pour out her heart, she told
him that formerly, before him, she had loved someone.
"Not like you," she went on quickly,
protesting by the head of her child that "nothing had passed between them."
The young man believed her, but none the
less questioned her to find out what he was.
"He was a ship's captain, my dear."
Was this not preventing any inquiry, and,
at the same time, assuming a higher ground through this pretended
fascination exercised over a man who must have been of warlike nature and
accustomed to receive homage?
The clerk then felt the lowliness of his
position; he longed for epaulettes, crosses, titles. All that would please
her—he gathered that from her spendthrift habits.
Emma nevertheless concealed many of these
extravagant fancies, such as her wish to have a blue tilbury to drive into
Rouen, drawn by an English horse and driven by a groom in top-boots. It was
Justin who had inspired her with this whim, by begging her to take him into
her service as valet-de-chambre*, and if the privation of it did not lessen
the pleasure of her arrival at each rendezvous, it certainly augmented the
bitterness of the return.
* Manservant.
Often, when they talked together of Paris,
she ended by murmuring, "Ah! how happy we should be there!"
"Are we not happy?" gently answered the
young man passing his hands over her hair.
"Yes, that is true," she said. "I am mad.
Kiss me!"
To her husband she was more charming than
ever. She made him pistachio-creams, and played him waltzes after dinner. So
he thought himself the most fortunate of men and Emma was without
uneasiness, when, one evening suddenly he said—
"It is Mademoiselle Lempereur, isn't it,
who gives you lessons?"
"Yes."
"Well, I saw her just now," Charles went
on, "at Madame Liegeard's. I spoke to her about you, and she doesn't know
you."
This was like a thunderclap. However, she
replied quite naturally—
"Ah! no doubt she forgot my name."
"But perhaps," said the doctor, "there are
several Demoiselles Lempereur at Rouen who are music-mistresses."
"Possibly!" Then quickly—"But I have my
receipts here. See!"
And she went to the writing-table,
ransacked all the drawers, rummaged the papers, and at last lost her head so
completely that Charles earnestly begged her not to take so much trouble
about those wretched receipts.
"Oh, I will find them," she said.
And, in fact, on the following Friday, as
Charles was putting on one of his boots in the dark cabinet where his
clothes were kept, he felt a piece of paper between the leather and his
sock. He took it out and read—
"Received, for three months' lessons and
several pieces of music, the sum of sixty-three francs.—Felicie Lempereur,
professor of music."
"How the devil did it get into my boots?"
"It must," she replied, "have fallen from
the old box of bills that is on the edge of the shelf."
From that moment her existence was but one
long tissue of lies, in which she enveloped her love as in veils to hide it.
It was a want, a mania, a pleasure carried to such an extent that if she
said she had the day before walked on the right side of a road, one might
know she had taken the left.
One morning, when she had gone, as usual,
rather lightly clothed, it suddenly began to snow, and as Charles was
watching the weather from the window, he caught sight of Monsieur Bournisien
in the chaise of Monsieur Tuvache, who was driving him to Rouen. Then he
went down to give the priest a thick shawl that he was to hand over to Emma
as soon as he reached the "Croix-Rouge." When he got to the inn, Monsieur
Bournisien asked for the wife of the Yonville doctor. The landlady replied
that she very rarely came to her establishment. So that evening, when he
recognised Madame Bovary in the "Hirondelle," the cure told her his dilemma,
without, however, appearing to attach much importance to it, for he began
praising a preacher who was doing wonders at the Cathedral, and whom all the
ladies were rushing to hear.
Still, if he did not ask for any
explanation, others, later on, might prove less discreet. So she thought
well to get down each time at the "Croix-Rouge," so that the good folk of
her village who saw her on the stairs should suspect nothing.
One day, however, Monsieur Lheureux met her
coming out of the Hotel de Boulogne on Leon's arm; and she was frightened,
thinking he would gossip. He was not such a fool. But three days after he
came to her room, shut the door, and said, "I must have some money."
She declared she could not give him any.
Lheureux burst into lamentations and reminded her of all the kindnesses he
had shown her.
In fact, of the two bills signed by
Charles, Emma up to the present had paid only one. As to the second, the
shopkeeper, at her request, had consented to replace it by another, which
again had been renewed for a long date. Then he drew from his pocket a list
of goods not paid for; to wit, the curtains, the carpet, the material for
the armchairs, several dresses, and divers articles of dress, the bills for
which amounted to about two thousand francs.
She bowed her head. He went on—
"But if you haven't any ready money, you
have an estate." And he reminded her of a miserable little hovel situated at
Barneville, near Aumale, that brought in almost nothing. It had formerly
been part of a small farm sold by Monsieur Bovary senior; for Lheureux knew
everything, even to the number of acres and the names of the neighbours.
"If I were in your place," he said, "I
should clear myself of my debts, and have money left over."
She pointed out the difficulty of getting a
purchaser. He held out the hope of finding one; but she asked him how she
should manage to sell it.
"Haven't you your power of attorney?" he
replied.
The phrase came to her like a breath of
fresh air. "Leave me the bill," said Emma.
"Oh, it isn't worth while," answered
Lheureux.
He came back the following week and boasted
of having, after much trouble, at last discovered a certain Langlois, who,
for a long time, had had an eye on the property, but without mentioning his
price.
"Never mind the price!" she cried.
But they would, on the contrary, have to
wait, to sound the fellow. The thing was worth a journey, and, as she could
not undertake it, he offered to go to the place to have an interview with
Langlois. On his return he announced that the purchaser proposed four
thousand francs.
Emma was radiant at this news.
"Frankly," he added, "that's a good price."
She drew half the sum at once, and when she
was about to pay her account the shopkeeper said—
"It really grieves me, on my word! to see
you depriving yourself all at once of such a big sum as that."
Then she looked at the bank-notes, and
dreaming of the unlimited number of rendezvous represented by those two
thousand francs, she stammered—
"What! what!"
"Oh!" he went on, laughing good-naturedly,
"one puts anything one likes on receipts. Don't you think I know what
household affairs are?" And he looked at her fixedly, while in his hand he
held two long papers that he slid between his nails. At last, opening his
pocket-book, he spread out on the table four bills to order, each for a
thousand francs.
"Sign these," he said, "and keep it all!"
She cried out, scandalised.
"But if I give you the surplus," replied
Monsieur Lheureux impudently, "is that not helping you?"
And taking a pen he wrote at the bottom of
the account, "Received of Madame Bovary four thousand francs."
"Now who can trouble you, since in six
months you'll draw the arrears for your cottage, and I don't make the last
bill due till after you've been paid?"
Emma grew rather confused in her
calculations, and her ears tingled as if gold pieces, bursting from their
bags, rang all round her on the floor. At last Lheureux explained that he
had a very good friend, Vincart, a broker at Rouen, who would discount these
four bills. Then he himself would hand over to madame the remainder after
the actual debt was paid.
But instead of two thousand francs he
brought only eighteen hundred, for the friend Vincart (which was only fair)
had deducted two hundred francs for commission and discount. Then he
carelessly asked for a receipt.
"You understand—in business—sometimes. And
with the date, if you please, with the date."
A horizon of realisable whims opened out
before Emma. She was prudent enough to lay by a thousand crowns, with which
the first three bills were paid when they fell due; but the fourth, by
chance, came to the house on a Thursday, and Charles, quite upset, patiently
awaited his wife's return for an explanation.
If she had not told him about this bill, it
was only to spare him such domestic worries; she sat on his knees, caressed
him, cooed to him, gave him a long enumeration of all the indispensable
things that had been got on credit.
"Really, you must confess, considering the
quantity, it isn't too dear."
Charles, at his wit's end, soon had
recourse to the eternal Lheureux, who swore he would arrange matters if the
doctor would sign him two bills, one of which was for seven hundred francs,
payable in three months. In order to arrange for this he wrote his mother a
pathetic letter. Instead of sending a reply she came herself; and when Emma
wanted to know whether he had got anything out of her, "Yes," he replied;
"but she wants to see the account." The next morning at daybreak Emma ran to
Lheureux to beg him to make out another account for not more than a thousand
francs, for to show the one for four thousand it would be necessary to say
that she had paid two-thirds, and confess, consequently, the sale of the
estate—a negotiation admirably carried out by the shopkeeper, and which, in
fact, was only actually known later on.
Despite the low price of each article,
Madame Bovary senior, of course, thought the expenditure extravagant.
"Couldn't you do without a carpet? Why have
recovered the arm-chairs? In my time there was a single arm-chair in a
house, for elderly persons—at any rate it was so at my mother's, who was a
good woman, I can tell you. Everybody can't be rich! No fortune can hold out
against waste! I should be ashamed to coddle myself as you do! And yet I am
old. I need looking after. And there! there! fitting up gowns! fallals!
What! silk for lining at two francs, when you can get jaconet for ten sous,
or even for eight, that would do well enough!"
Emma, lying on a lounge, replied as quietly
as possible—"Ah! Madame, enough! enough!"
The other went on lecturing her, predicting
they would end in the workhouse. But it was Bovary's fault. Luckily he had
promised to destroy that power of attorney.
"What?"
"Ah! he swore he would," went on the good
woman.
Emma opened the window, called Charles, and
the poor fellow was obliged to confess the promise torn from him by his
mother.
Emma disappeared, then came back quickly,
and majestically handed her a thick piece of paper.
"Thank you," said the old woman. And she
threw the power of attorney into the fire.
Emma began to laugh, a strident, piercing,
continuous laugh; she had an attack of hysterics.
"Oh, my God!" cried Charles. "Ah! you
really are wrong! You come here and make scenes with her!"
His mother, shrugging her shoulders,
declared it was "all put on."
But Charles, rebelling for the first time,
took his wife's part, so that Madame Bovary, senior, said she would leave.
She went the very next day, and on the threshold, as he was trying to detain
her, she replied—
"No, no! You love her better than me, and
you are right. It is natural. For the rest, so much the worse! You will see.
Good day—for I am not likely to come soon again, as you say, to make
scenes."
Charles nevertheless was very crestfallen
before Emma, who did not hide the resentment she still felt at his want of
confidence, and it needed many prayers before she would consent to have
another power of attorney. He even accompanied her to Monsieur Guillaumin to
have a second one, just like the other, drawn up.
"I understand," said the notary; "a man of
science can't be worried with the practical details of life."
And Charles felt relieved by this
comfortable reflection, which gave his weakness the flattering appearance of
higher pre-occupation.
And what an outburst the next Thursday at
the hotel in their room with Leon! She laughed, cried, sang, sent for
sherbets, wanted to smoke cigarettes, seemed to him wild and extravagant,
but adorable, superb.
He did not know what recreation of her
whole being drove her more and more to plunge into the pleasures of life.
She was becoming irritable, greedy, voluptuous; and she walked about the
streets with him carrying her head high, without fear, so she said, of
compromising herself. At times, however, Emma shuddered at the sudden
thought of meeting Rodolphe, for it seemed to her that, although they were
separated forever, she was not completely free from her subjugation to him.
One night she did not return to Yonville at
all. Charles lost his head with anxiety, and little Berthe would not go to
bed without her mamma, and sobbed enough to break her heart. Justin had gone
out searching the road at random. Monsieur Homais even had left his
pharmacy.
At last, at eleven o'clock, able to bear it
no longer, Charles harnessed his chaise, jumped in, whipped up his horse,
and reached the "Croix-Rouge" about two o'clock in the morning. No one
there! He thought that the clerk had perhaps seen her; but where did he
live? Happily, Charles remembered his employer's address, and rushed off
there.
Day was breaking, and he could distinguish
the escutcheons over the door, and knocked. Someone, without opening the
door, shouted out the required information, adding a few insults to those
who disturb people in the middle of the night.
The house inhabited by the clerk had
neither bell, knocker, nor porter. Charles knocked loudly at the shutters
with his hands. A policeman happened to pass by. Then he was frightened, and
went away.
"I am mad," he said; "no doubt they kept
her to dinner at Monsieur Lormeaux'." But the Lormeaux no longer lived at
Rouen.
"She probably stayed to look after Madame
Dubreuil. Why, Madame Dubreuil has been dead these ten months! Where can she
be?"
An idea occurred to him. At a cafe he asked
for a Directory, and hurriedly looked for the name of Mademoiselle
Lempereur, who lived at No. 74 Rue de la Renelle-des-Maroquiniers.
As he was turning into the street, Emma
herself appeared at the other end of it. He threw himself upon her rather
than embraced her, crying—
"What kept you yesterday?"
"I was not well."
"What was it? Where? How?"
She passed her hand over her forehead and
answered, "At Mademoiselle Lempereur's."
"I was sure of it! I was going there."
"Oh, it isn't worth while," said Emma. "She
went out just now; but for the future don't worry. I do not feel free, you
see, if I know that the least delay upsets you like this."
This was a sort of permission that she gave
herself, so as to get perfect freedom in her escapades. And she profited by
it freely, fully. When she was seized with the desire to see Leon, she set
out upon any pretext; and as he was not expecting her on that day, she went
to fetch him at his office.
It was a great delight at first, but soon
he no longer concealed the truth, which was, that his master complained very
much about these interruptions.
"Pshaw! come along," she said.
And he slipped out.
She wanted him to dress all in black, and
grow a pointed beard, to look like the portraits of Louis XIII. She wanted
to see his lodgings; thought them poor. He blushed at them, but she did not
notice this, then advised him to buy some curtains like hers, and as he
objected to the expense—
"Ah! ah! you care for your money," she said
laughing.
Each time Leon had to tell her everything
that he had done since their last meeting. She asked him for some
verses—some verses "for herself," a "love poem" in honour of her. But he
never succeeded in getting a rhyme for the second verse; and at last ended
by copying a sonnet in a "Keepsake." This was less from vanity than from the
one desire of pleasing her. He did not question her ideas; he accepted all
her tastes; he was rather becoming her mistress than she his. She had tender
words and kisses that thrilled his soul. Where could she have learnt this
corruption almost incorporeal in the strength of its profanity and
dissimulation?
Chapter Six
During the journeys he made to see her,
Leon had often dined at the chemist's, and he felt obliged from politeness
to invite him in turn.
"With pleasure!" Monsieur Homais replied;
"besides, I must invigorate my mind, for I am getting rusty here. We'll go
to the theatre, to the restaurant; we'll make a night of it."
"Oh, my dear!" tenderly murmured Madame
Homais, alarmed at the vague perils he was preparing to brave.
"Well, what? Do you think I'm not
sufficiently ruining my health living here amid the continual emanations of
the pharmacy? But there! that is the way with women! They are jealous of
science, and then are opposed to our taking the most legitimate
distractions. No matter! Count upon me. One of these days I shall turn up at
Rouen, and we'll go the pace together."
The druggist would formerly have taken good
care not to use such an expression, but he was cultivating a gay Parisian
style, which he thought in the best taste; and, like his neighbour, Madame
Bovary, he questioned the clerk curiously about the customs of the capital;
he even talked slang to dazzle the bourgeois, saying bender, crummy, dandy,
macaroni, the cheese, cut my stick and "I'll hook it," for "I am going."
So one Thursday Emma was surprised to meet
Monsieur Homais in the kitchen of the "Lion d'Or," wearing a traveller's
costume, that is to say, wrapped in an old cloak which no one knew he had,
while he carried a valise in one hand and the foot-warmer of his
establishment in the other. He had confided his intentions to no one, for
fear of causing the public anxiety by his absence.
The idea of seeing again the place where
his youth had been spent no doubt excited him, for during the whole journey
he never ceased talking, and as soon as he had arrived, he jumped quickly
out of the diligence to go in search of Leon. In vain the clerk tried to get
rid of him. Monsieur Homais dragged him off to the large Cafe de la
Normandie, which he entered majestically, not raising his hat, thinking it
very provincial to uncover in any public place.
Emma waited for Leon three quarters of an
hour. At last she ran to his office; and, lost in all sorts of conjectures,
accusing him of indifference, and reproaching herself for her weakness, she
spent the afternoon, her face pressed against the window-panes.
At two o'clock they were still at a table
opposite each other. The large room was emptying; the stove-pipe, in the
shape of a palm-tree, spread its gilt leaves over the white ceiling, and
near them, outside the window, in the bright sunshine, a little fountain
gurgled in a white basin, where; in the midst of watercress and asparagus,
three torpid lobsters stretched across to some quails that lay heaped up in
a pile on their sides.
Homais was enjoying himself. Although he
was even more intoxicated with the luxury than the rich fare, the Pommard
wine all the same rather excited his faculties; and when the omelette au
rhum* appeared, he began propounding immoral theories about women. What
seduced him above all else was chic. He admired an elegant toilette in a
well-furnished apartment, and as to bodily qualities, he didn't dislike a
young girl.
* In rum.
Leon watched the clock in despair. The
druggist went on drinking, eating, and talking.
"You must be very lonely," he said
suddenly, "here at Rouen. To be sure your lady-love doesn't live far away."
And the other blushed—
"Come now, be frank. Can you deny that at
Yonville—"
The young man stammered something.
"At Madame Bovary's, you're not making love
to—"
"To whom?"
"The servant!"
He was not joking; but vanity getting the
better of all prudence, Leon, in spite of himself protested. Besides, he
only liked dark women.
"I approve of that," said the chemist;
"they have more passion."
And whispering into his friend's ear, he
pointed out the symptoms by which one could find out if a woman had passion.
He even launched into an ethnographic digression: the German was vapourish,
the French woman licentious, the Italian passionate.
"And negresses?" asked the clerk.
"They are an artistic taste!" said Homais.
"Waiter! two cups of coffee!"
"Are we going?" at last asked Leon
impatiently.
"Ja!"
But before leaving he wanted to see the
proprietor of the establishment and made him a few compliments. Then the
young man, to be alone, alleged he had some business engagement.
"Ah! I will escort you," said Homais.
And all the while he was walking through
the streets with him he talked of his wife, his children; of their future,
and of his business; told him in what a decayed condition it had formerly
been, and to what a degree of perfection he had raised it.
Arrived in front of the Hotel de Boulogne,
Leon left him abruptly, ran up the stairs, and found his mistress in great
excitement. At mention of the chemist she flew into a passion. He, however,
piled up good reasons; it wasn't his fault; didn't she know Homais—did she
believe that he would prefer his company? But she turned away; he drew her
back, and, sinking on his knees, clasped her waist with his arms in a
languorous pose, full of concupiscence and supplication.
She was standing up, her large flashing
eyes looked at him seriously, almost terribly. Then tears obscured them, her
red eyelids were lowered, she gave him her hands, and Leon was pressing them
to his lips when a servant appeared to tell the gentleman that he was
wanted.
"You will come back?" she said.
"Yes."
"But when?"
"Immediately."
"It's a trick," said the chemist, when he
saw Leon. "I wanted to interrupt this visit, that seemed to me to annoy you.
Let's go and have a glass of garus at Bridoux'."
Leon vowed that he must get back to his
office. Then the druggist joked him about quill-drivers and the law.
"Leave Cujas and Barthole alone a bit. Who
the devil prevents you? Be a man! Let's go to Bridoux'. You'll see his dog.
It's very interesting."
And as the clerk still insisted—
"I'll go with you. I'll read a paper while
I wait for you, or turn over the leaves of a 'Code.'"
Leon, bewildered by Emma's anger, Monsieur
Homais' chatter, and, perhaps, by the heaviness of the luncheon, was
undecided, and, as it were, fascinated by the chemist, who kept repeating—
"Let's go to Bridoux'. It's just by here,
in the Rue Malpalu."
Then, through cowardice, through stupidity,
through that indefinable feeling that drags us into the most distasteful
acts, he allowed himself to be led off to Bridoux', whom they found in his
small yard, superintending three workmen, who panted as they turned the
large wheel of a machine for making seltzer-water. Homais gave them some
good advice. He embraced Bridoux; they took some garus. Twenty times Leon
tried to escape, but the other seized him by the arm saying—
"Presently! I'm coming! We'll go to the
'Fanal de Rouen' to see the fellows there. I'll introduce you to
Thornassin."
At last he managed to get rid of him, and
rushed straight to the hotel. Emma was no longer there. She had just gone in
a fit of anger. She detested him now. This failing to keep their rendezvous
seemed to her an insult, and she tried to rake up other reasons to separate
herself from him. He was incapable of heroism, weak, banal, more spiritless
than a woman, avaricious too, and cowardly.
Then, growing calmer, she at length
discovered that she had, no doubt, calumniated him. But the disparaging of
those we love always alienates us from them to some extent. We must not
touch our idols; the gilt sticks to our fingers.
They gradually came to talking more
frequently of matters outside their love, and in the letters that Emma wrote
him she spoke of flowers, verses, the moon and the stars, naive resources of
a waning passion striving to keep itself alive by all external aids. She was
constantly promising herself a profound felicity on her next journey. Then
she confessed to herself that she felt nothing extraordinary. This
disappointment quickly gave way to a new hope, and Emma returned to him more
inflamed, more eager than ever. She undressed brutally, tearing off the thin
laces of her corset that nestled around her hips like a gliding snake. She
went on tiptoe, barefooted, to see once more that the door was closed, then,
pale, serious, and, without speaking, with one movement, she threw herself
upon his breast with a long shudder.
Yet there was upon that brow covered with
cold drops, on those quivering lips, in those wild eyes, in the strain of
those arms, something vague and dreary that seemed to Leon to glide between
them subtly as if to separate them.
He did not dare to question her; but,
seeing her so skilled, she must have passed, he thought, through every
experience of suffering and of pleasure. What had once charmed now
frightened him a little. Besides, he rebelled against his absorption, daily
more marked, by her personality. He begrudged Emma this constant victory. He
even strove not to love her; then, when he heard the creaking of her boots,
he turned coward, like drunkards at the sight of strong drinks.
She did not fail, in truth, to lavish all
sorts of attentions upon him, from the delicacies of food to the coquettries
of dress and languishing looks. She brought roses to her breast from
Yonville, which she threw into his face; was anxious about his health, gave
him advice as to his conduct; and, in order the more surely to keep her hold
on him, hoping perhaps that heaven would take her part, she tied a medal of
the Virgin round his neck. She inquired like a virtuous mother about his
companions. She said to him—
"Don't see them; don't go out; think only
of ourselves; love me!"
She would have liked to be able to watch
over his life; and the idea occurred to her of having him followed in the
streets. Near the hotel there was always a kind of loafer who accosted
travellers, and who would not refuse. But her pride revolted at this.
"Bah! so much the worse. Let him deceive
me! What does it matter to me? As If I cared for him!"
One day, when they had parted early and she
was returning alone along the boulevard, she saw the walls of her convent;
then she sat down on a form in the shade of the elm-trees. How calm that
time had been! How she longed for the ineffable sentiments of love that she
had tried to figure to herself out of books! The first month of her
marriage, her rides in the wood, the viscount that waltzed, and Lagardy
singing, all repassed before her eyes. And Leon suddenly appeared to her as
far off as the others.
"Yet I love him," she said to herself.
No matter! She was not happy—she never had
been. Whence came this insufficiency in life—this instantaneous turning to
decay of everything on which she leant? But if there were somewhere a being
strong and beautiful, a valiant nature, full at once of exaltation and
refinement, a poet's heart in an angel's form, a lyre with sounding chords
ringing out elegiac epithalamia to heaven, why, perchance, should she not
find him? Ah! how impossible! Besides, nothing was worth the trouble of
seeking it; everything was a lie. Every smile hid a yawn of boredom, every
joy a curse, all pleasure satiety, and the sweetest kisses left upon your
lips only the unattainable desire for a greater delight.
A metallic clang droned through the air,
and four strokes were heard from the convent-clock. Four o'clock! And it
seemed to her that she had been there on that form an eternity. But an
infinity of passions may be contained in a minute, like a crowd in a small
space.
Emma lived all absorbed in hers, and
troubled no more about money matters than an archduchess.
Once, however, a wretched-looking man,
rubicund and bald, came to her house, saying he had been sent by Monsieur
Vincart of Rouen. He took out the pins that held together the side-pockets
of his long green overcoat, stuck them into his sleeve, and politely handed
her a paper.
It was a bill for seven hundred francs,
signed by her, and which Lheureux, in spite of all his professions, had paid
away to Vincart. She sent her servant for him. He could not come. Then the
stranger, who had remained standing, casting right and left curious glances,
that his thick, fair eyebrows hid, asked with a naive air—
"What answer am I to take Monsieur
Vincart?"
"Oh," said Emma, "tell him that I haven't
it. I will send next week; he must wait; yes, till next week."
And the fellow went without another word.
But the next day at twelve o'clock she
received a summons, and the sight of the stamped paper, on which appeared
several times in large letters, "Maitre Hareng, bailiff at Buchy," so
frightened her that she rushed in hot haste to the linendraper's. She found
him in his shop, doing up a parcel.
"Your obedient!" he said; "I am at your
service."
But Lheureux, all the same, went on with
his work, helped by a young girl of about thirteen, somewhat hunch-backed,
who was at once his clerk and his servant.
Then, his clogs clattering on the
shop-boards, he went up in front of Madame Bovary to the first door, and
introduced her into a narrow closet, where, in a large bureau in sapon-wood,
lay some ledgers, protected by a horizontal padlocked iron bar. Against the
wall, under some remnants of calico, one glimpsed a safe, but of such
dimensions that it must contain something besides bills and money. Monsieur
Lheureux, in fact, went in for pawnbroking, and it was there that he had put
Madame Bovary's gold chain, together with the earrings of poor old Tellier,
who, at last forced to sell out, had bought a meagre store of grocery at
Quincampoix, where he was dying of catarrh amongst his candles, that were
less yellow than his face.
Lheureux sat down in a large cane
arm-chair, saying: "What news?"
"See!"
And she showed him the paper.
"Well how can I help it?"
Then she grew angry, reminding him of the
promise he had given not to pay away her bills. He acknowledged it.
"But I was pressed myself; the knife was at
my own throat."
"And what will happen now?" she went on.
"Oh, it's very simple; a judgment and then
a distraint—that's about it!"
Emma kept down a desire to strike him, and
asked gently if there was no way of quieting Monsieur Vincart.
"I dare say! Quiet Vincart! You don't know
him; he's more ferocious than an Arab!"
Still Monsieur Lheureux must interfere.
"Well, listen. It seems to me so far I've
been very good to you." And opening one of his ledgers, "See," he said. Then
running up the page with his finger, "Let's see! let's see! August 3d, two
hundred francs; June 17th, a hundred and fifty; March 23d, forty-six. In
April—"
He stopped, as if afraid of making some
mistake.
"Not to speak of the bills signed by
Monsieur Bovary, one for seven hundred francs, and another for three
hundred. As to your little installments, with the interest, why, there's no
end to 'em; one gets quite muddled over 'em. I'll have nothing more to do
with it."
She wept; she even called him "her good
Monsieur Lheureux." But he always fell back upon "that rascal Vincart."
Besides, he hadn't a brass farthing; no one was paying him now-a-days; they
were eating his coat off his back; a poor shopkeeper like him couldn't
advance money.
Emma was silent, and Monsieur Lheureux, who
was biting the feathers of a quill, no doubt became uneasy at her silence,
for he went on—
"Unless one of these days I have something
coming in, I might—"
"Besides," said she, "as soon as the
balance of Barneville—"
"What!"
And on hearing that Langlois had not yet
paid he seemed much surprised. Then in a honied voice—
"And we agree, you say?"
"Oh! to anything you like."
On this he closed his eyes to reflect,
wrote down a few figures, and declaring it would be very difficult for him,
that the affair was shady, and that he was being bled, he wrote out four
bills for two hundred and fifty francs each, to fall due month by month.
"Provided that Vincart will listen to me!
However, it's settled. I don't play the fool; I'm straight enough."
Next he carelessly showed her several new
goods, not one of which, however, was in his opinion worthy of madame.
"When I think that there's a dress at
threepence-halfpenny a yard, and warranted fast colours! And yet they
actually swallow it! Of course you understand one doesn't tell them what it
really is!" He hoped by this confession of dishonesty to others to quite
convince her of his probity to her.
Then he called her back to show her three
yards of guipure that he had lately picked up "at a sale."
"Isn't it lovely?" said Lheureux. "It is
very much used now for the backs of arm-chairs. It's quite the rage."
And, more ready than a juggler, he wrapped
up the guipure in some blue paper and put it in Emma's hands.
"But at least let me know—"
"Yes, another time," he replied, turning on
his heel.
That same evening she urged Bovary to write
to his mother, to ask her to send as quickly as possible the whole of the
balance due from the father's estate. The mother-in-law replied that she had
nothing more, the winding up was over, and there was due to them besides
Barneville an income of six hundred francs, that she would pay them
punctually.
Then Madame Bovary sent in accounts to two
or three patients, and she made large use of this method, which was very
successful. She was always careful to add a postscript: "Do not mention this
to my husband; you know how proud he is. Excuse me. Yours obediently." There
were some complaints; she intercepted them.
To get money she began selling her old
gloves, her old hats, the old odds and ends, and she bargained rapaciously,
her peasant blood standing her in good stead. Then on her journey to town
she picked up nick-nacks secondhand, that, in default of anyone else,
Monsieur Lheureux would certainly take off her hands. She bought ostrich
feathers, Chinese porcelain, and trunks; she borrowed from Felicite, from
Madame Lefrancois, from the landlady at the Croix-Rouge, from everybody, no
matter where.
With the money she at last received from
Barneville she paid two bills; the other fifteen hundred francs fell due.
She renewed the bills, and thus it was continually.
Sometimes, it is true, she tried to make a
calculation, but she discovered things so exorbitant that she could not
believe them possible. Then she recommenced, soon got confused, gave it all
up, and thought no more about it.
The house was very dreary now. Tradesmen
were seen leaving it with angry faces. Handkerchiefs were lying about on the
stoves, and little Berthe, to the great scandal of Madame Homais, wore
stockings with holes in them. If Charles timidly ventured a remark, she
answered roughly that it wasn't her fault.
What was the meaning of all these fits of
temper? He explained everything through her old nervous illness, and
reproaching himself with having taken her infirmities for faults, accused
himself of egotism, and longed to go and take her in his arms.
"Ah, no!" he said to himself; "I should
worry her."
And he did not stir.
After dinner he walked about alone in the
garden; he took little Berthe on his knees, and unfolding his medical
journal, tried to teach her to read. But the child, who never had any
lessons, soon looked up with large, sad eyes and began to cry. Then he
comforted her; went to fetch water in her can to make rivers on the sand
path, or broke off branches from the privet hedges to plant trees in the
beds. This did not spoil the garden much, all choked now with long weeds.
They owed Lestiboudois for so many days. Then the child grew cold and asked
for her mother.
"Call the servant," said Charles. "You
know, dearie, that mamma does not like to be disturbed."
Autumn was setting in, and the leaves were
already falling, as they did two years ago when she was ill. Where would it
all end? And he walked up and down, his hands behind his back.
Madame was in her room, which no one
entered. She stayed there all day long, torpid, half dressed, and from time
to time burning Turkish pastilles which she had bought at Rouen in an
Algerian's shop. In order not to have at night this sleeping man stretched
at her side, by dint of manoeuvring, she at last succeeded in banishing him
to the second floor, while she read till morning extravagant books, full of
pictures of orgies and thrilling situations. Often, seized with fear, she
cried out, and Charles hurried to her.
"Oh, go away!" she would say.
Or at other times, consumed more ardently
than ever by that inner flame to which adultery added fuel, panting,
tremulous, all desire, she threw open her window, breathed in the cold air,
shook loose in the wind her masses of hair, too heavy, and, gazing upon the
stars, longed for some princely love. She thought of him, of Leon. She would
then have given anything for a single one of those meetings that surfeited
her.
These were her gala days. She wanted them
to be sumptuous, and when he alone could not pay the expenses, she made up
the deficit liberally, which happened pretty well every time. He tried to
make her understand that they would be quite as comfortable somewhere else,
in a smaller hotel, but she always found some objection.
One day she drew six small silver-gilt
spoons from her bag (they were old Roualt's wedding present), begging him to
pawn them at once for her, and Leon obeyed, though the proceeding annoyed
him. He was afraid of compromising himself.
Then, on, reflection, he began to think his
mistress's ways were growing odd, and that they were perhaps not wrong in
wishing to separate him from her.
In fact someone had sent his mother a long
anonymous letter to warn her that he was "ruining himself with a married
woman," and the good lady at once conjuring up the eternal bugbear of
families, the vague pernicious creature, the siren, the monster, who dwells
fantastically in depths of love, wrote to Lawyer Dubocage, his employer, who
behaved perfectly in the affair. He kept him for three quarters of an hour
trying to open his eyes, to warn him of the abyss into which he was falling.
Such an intrigue would damage him later on, when he set up for himself. He
implored him to break with her, and, if he would not make this sacrifice in
his own interest, to do it at least for his, Dubocage's sake.
At last Leon swore he would not see Emma
again, and he reproached himself with not having kept his word, considering
all the worry and lectures this woman might still draw down upon him,
without reckoning the jokes made by his companions as they sat round the
stove in the morning. Besides, he was soon to be head clerk; it was time to
settle down. So he gave up his flute, exalted sentiments, and poetry; for
every bourgeois in the flush of his youth, were it but for a day, a moment,
has believed himself capable of immense passions, of lofty enterprises. The
most mediocre libertine has dreamed of sultanas; every notary bears within
him the debris of a poet.
He was bored now when Emma suddenly began
to sob on his breast, and his heart, like the people who can only stand a
certain amount of music, dozed to the sound of a love whose delicacies he no
longer noted.
They knew one another too well for any of
those surprises of possession that increase its joys a hundred-fold. She was
as sick of him as he was weary of her. Emma found again in adultery all the
platitudes of marriage.
But how to get rid of him? Then, though she
might feel humiliated at the baseness of such enjoyment, she clung to it
from habit or from corruption, and each day she hungered after them the
more, exhausting all felicity in wishing for too much of it. She accused
Leon of her baffled hopes, as if he had betrayed her; and she even longed
for some catastrophe that would bring about their separation, since she had
not the courage to make up her mind to it herself.
She none the less went on writing him love
letters, in virtue of the notion that a woman must write to her lover.
But whilst she wrote it was another man she
saw, a phantom fashioned out of her most ardent memories, of her finest
reading, her strongest lusts, and at last he became so real, so tangible,
that she palpitated wondering, without, however, the power to imagine him
clearly, so lost was he, like a god, beneath the abundance of his
attributes. He dwelt in that azure land where silk ladders hang from
balconies under the breath of flowers, in the light of the moon. She felt
him near her; he was coming, and would carry her right away in a kiss.
Then she fell back exhausted, for these
transports of vague love wearied her more than great debauchery.
She now felt constant ache all over her.
Often she even received summonses, stamped paper that she barely looked at.
She would have liked not to be alive, or to be always asleep.
On Mid-Lent she did not return to Yonville,
but in the evening went to a masked ball. She wore velvet breeches, red
stockings, a club wig, and three-cornered hat cocked on one side. She danced
all night to the wild tones of the trombones; people gathered round her, and
in the morning she found herself on the steps of the theatre together with
five or six masks, debardeuses* and sailors, Leon's comrades, who were
talking about having supper.
* People dressed as longshoremen.
The neighbouring cafes were full. They
caught sight of one on the harbour, a very indifferent restaurant, whose
proprietor showed them to a little room on the fourth floor.
The men were whispering in a corner, no
doubt consorting about expenses. There were a clerk, two medical students,
and a shopman—what company for her! As to the women, Emma soon perceived
from the tone of their voices that they must almost belong to the lowest
class. Then she was frightened, pushed back her chair, and cast down her
eyes.
The others began to eat; she ate nothing.
Her head was on fire, her eyes smarted, and her skin was ice-cold. In her
head she seemed to feel the floor of the ball-room rebounding again beneath
the rhythmical pulsation of the thousands of dancing feet. And now the smell
of the punch, the smoke of the cigars, made her giddy. She fainted, and they
carried her to the window.
Day was breaking, and a great stain of
purple colour broadened out in the pale horizon over the St. Catherine
hills. The livid river was shivering in the wind; there was no one on the
bridges; the street lamps were going out.
She revived, and began thinking of Berthe
asleep yonder in the servant's room. Then a cart filled with long strips of
iron passed by, and made a deafening metallic vibration against the walls of
the houses.
She slipped away suddenly, threw off her
costume, told Leon she must get back, and at last was alone at the Hotel de
Boulogne. Everything, even herself, was now unbearable to her. She wished
that, taking wing like a bird, she could fly somewhere, far away to regions
of purity, and there grow young again.
She went out, crossed the Boulevard, the
Place Cauchoise, and the Faubourg, as far as an open street that overlooked
some gardens. She walked rapidly; the fresh air calming her; and, little by
little, the faces of the crowd, the masks, the quadrilles, the lights, the
supper, those women, all disappeared like mists fading away. Then, reaching
the "Croix-Rouge," she threw herself on the bed in her little room on the
second floor, where there were pictures of the "Tour de Nesle." At four
o'clock Hivert awoke her.
When she got home, Felicite showed her
behind the clock a grey paper. She read—
"In virtue of the seizure in execution of a
judgment."
What judgment? As a matter of fact, the
evening before another paper had been brought that she had not yet seen, and
she was stunned by these words—
"By order of the king, law, and justice, to
Madame Bovary." Then, skipping several lines, she read, "Within twenty-four
hours, without fail—" But what? "To pay the sum of eight thousand francs."
And there was even at the bottom, "She will be constrained thereto by every
form of law, and notably by a writ of distraint on her furniture and
effects."
What was to be done? In twenty-four
hours—tomorrow. Lheureux, she thought, wanted to frighten her again; for she
saw through all his devices, the object of his kindnesses. What reassured
her was the very magnitude of the sum.
However, by dint of buying and not paying,
of borrowing, signing bills, and renewing these bills that grew at each new
falling-in, she had ended by preparing a capital for Monsieur Lheureux which
he was impatiently awaiting for his speculations.
She presented herself at his place with an
offhand air.
"You know what has happened to me? No doubt
it's a joke!"
"How so?"
He turned away slowly, and, folding his
arms, said to her—
"My good lady, did you think I should go on
to all eternity being your purveyor and banker, for the love of God? Now be
just. I must get back what I've laid out. Now be just."
She cried out against the debt.
"Ah! so much the worse. The court has
admitted it. There's a judgment. It's been notified to you. Besides, it
isn't my fault. It's Vincart's."
"Could you not—?"
"Oh, nothing whatever."
"But still, now talk it over."
And she began beating about the bush; she
had known nothing about it; it was a surprise.
"Whose fault is that?" said Lheureux,
bowing ironically. "While I'm slaving like a nigger, you go gallivanting
about."
"Ah! no lecturing."
"It never does any harm," he replied.
She turned coward; she implored him; she
even pressed her pretty white and slender hand against the shopkeeper's
knee.
"There, that'll do! Anyone'd think you
wanted to seduce me!"
"You are a wretch!" she cried.
"Oh, oh! go it! go it!"
"I will show you up. I shall tell my
husband."
"All right! I too. I'll show your husband
something."
And Lheureux drew from his strong box the
receipt for eighteen hundred francs that she had given him when Vincart had
discounted the bills.
"Do you think," he added, "that he'll not
understand your little theft, the poor dear man?"
She collapsed, more overcome than if felled
by the blow of a pole-axe. He was walking up and down from the window to the
bureau, repeating all the while—
"Ah! I'll show him! I'll show him!" Then he
approached her, and in a soft voice said—
"It isn't pleasant, I know; but, after all,
no bones are broken, and, since that is the only way that is left for you
paying back my money—"
"But where am I to get any?" said Emma,
wringing her hands.
"Bah! when one has friends like you!"
And he looked at her in so keen, so
terrible a fashion, that she shuddered to her very heart.
"I promise you," she said, "to sign—"
"I've enough of your signatures."
"I will sell something."
"Get along!" he said, shrugging his
shoulders; "you've not got anything."
And he called through the peep-hole that
looked down into the shop—
"Annette, don't forget the three coupons of
No. 14."
The servant appeared. Emma understood, and
asked how much money would be wanted to put a stop to the proceedings.
"It is too late."
"But if I brought you several thousand
francs—a quarter of the sum—a third—perhaps the whole?"
"No; it's no use!"
And he pushed her gently towards the
staircase.
"I implore you, Monsieur Lheureux, just a
few days more!" She was sobbing.
"There! tears now!"
"You are driving me to despair!"
"What do I care?" said he, shutting the
door.
Chapter Seven
She was stoical the next day when Maitre
Hareng, the bailiff, with two assistants, presented himself at her house to
draw up the inventory for the distraint.
They began with Bovary's consulting-room,
and did not write down the phrenological head, which was considered an
"instrument of his profession"; but in the kitchen they counted the plates;
the saucepans, the chairs, the candlesticks, and in the bedroom all the
nick-nacks on the whatnot. They examined her dresses, the linen, the
dressing-room; and her whole existence to its most intimate details, was,
like a corpse on whom a post-mortem is made, outspread before the eyes of
these three men.
Maitre Hareng, buttoned up in his thin
black coat, wearing a white choker and very tight foot-straps, repeated from
time to time—"Allow me, madame. You allow me?" Often he uttered
exclamations. "Charming! very pretty." Then he began writing again, dipping
his pen into the horn inkstand in his left hand.
When they had done with the rooms they went
up to the attic. She kept a desk there in which Rodolphe's letters were
locked. It had to be opened.
"Ah! a correspondence," said Maitre Hareng,
with a discreet smile. "But allow me, for I must make sure the box contains
nothing else." And he tipped up the papers lightly, as if to shake out
napoleons. Then she grew angered to see this coarse hand, with fingers red
and pulpy like slugs, touching these pages against which her heart had
beaten.
They went at last. Felicite came back. Emma
had sent her out to watch for Bovary in order to keep him off, and they
hurriedly installed the man in possession under the roof, where he swore he
would remain.
During the evening Charles seemed to her
careworn. Emma watched him with a look of anguish, fancying she saw an
accusation in every line of his face. Then, when her eyes wandered over the
chimney-piece ornamented with Chinese screens, over the large curtains, the
armchairs, all those things, in a word, that had, softened the bitterness of
her life, remorse seized her or rather an immense regret, that, far from
crushing, irritated her passion. Charles placidly poked the fire, both his
feet on the fire-dogs.
Once the man, no doubt bored in his
hiding-place, made a slight noise.
"Is anyone walking upstairs?" said Charles.
"No," she replied; "it is a window that has
been left open, and is rattling in the wind."
The next day, Sunday, she went to Rouen to
call on all the brokers whose names she knew. They were at their
country-places or on journeys. She was not discouraged; and those whom she
did manage to see she asked for money, declaring she must have some, and
that she would pay it back. Some laughed in her face; all refused.
At two o'clock she hurried to Leon, and
knocked at the door. No one answered. At length he appeared.
"What brings you here?"
"Do I disturb you?"
"No; but—" And he admitted that his
landlord didn't like his having "women" there.
"I must speak to you," she went on.
Then he took down the key, but she stopped
him.
"No, no! Down there, in our home!"
And they went to their room at the Hotel de
Boulogne.
On arriving she drank off a large glass of
water. She was very pale. She said to him—
"Leon, you will do me a service?"
And, shaking him by both hands that she
grasped tightly, she added—
"Listen, I want eight thousand francs."
"But you are mad!"
"Not yet."
And thereupon, telling him the story of the
distraint, she explained her distress to him; for Charles knew nothing of
it; her mother-in-law detested her; old Rouault could do nothing; but he,
Leon, he would set about finding this indispensable sum.
"How on earth can I?"
"What a coward you are!" she cried.
Then he said stupidly, "You are
exaggerating the difficulty. Perhaps, with a thousand crowns or so the
fellow could be stopped."
All the greater reason to try and do
something; it was impossible that they could not find three thousand francs.
Besides, Leon, could be security instead of her.
"Go, try, try! I will love you so!"
He went out, and came back at the end of an
hour, saying, with solemn face—
"I have been to three people with no
success."
Then they remained sitting face to face at
the two chimney corners, motionless, in silence. Emma shrugged her shoulders
as she stamped her feet. He heard her murmuring—
"If I were in your place I should
soon get some."
"But where?"
"At your office." And she looked at him.
An infernal boldness looked out from her
burning eyes, and their lids drew close together with a lascivious and
encouraging look, so that the young man felt himself growing weak beneath
the mute will of this woman who was urging him to a crime. Then he was
afraid, and to avoid any explanation he smote his forehead, crying—
"Morel is to come back to-night; he will
not refuse me, I hope" (this was one of his friends, the son of a very rich
merchant); "and I will bring it you to-morrow," he added.
Emma did not seem to welcome this hope with
all the joy he had expected. Did she suspect the lie? He went on, blushing—
"However, if you don't see me by three
o'clock do not wait for me, my darling. I must be off now; forgive me!
Goodbye!"
He pressed her hand, but it felt quite
lifeless. Emma had no strength left for any sentiment.
Four o'clock struck, and she rose to return
to Yonville, mechanically obeying the force of old habits.
The weather was fine. It was one of those
March days, clear and sharp, when the sun shines in a perfectly white sky.
The Rouen folk, in Sunday-clothes, were walking about with happy looks. She
reached the Place du Parvis. People were coming out after vespers; the crowd
flowed out through the three doors like a stream through the three arches of
a bridge, and in the middle one, more motionless than a rock, stood the
beadle.
Then she remembered the day when, all
anxious and full of hope, she had entered beneath this large nave, that had
opened out before her, less profound than her love; and she walked on
weeping beneath her veil, giddy, staggering, almost fainting.
"Take care!" cried a voice issuing from the
gate of a courtyard that was thrown open.
She stopped to let pass a black horse,
pawing the ground between the shafts of a tilbury, driven by a gentleman in
sable furs. Who was it? She knew him. The carriage darted by and
disappeared.
Why, it was he—the Viscount. She turned
away; the street was empty. She was so overwhelmed, so sad, that she had to
lean against a wall to keep herself from falling.
Then she thought she had been mistaken.
Anyhow, she did not know. All within her and around her was abandoning her.
She felt lost, sinking at random into indefinable abysses, and it was almost
with joy that, on reaching the "Croix-Rouge," she saw the good Homais, who
was watching a large box full of pharmaceutical stores being hoisted on to
the "Hirondelle." In his hand he held tied in a silk handkerchief six
cheminots for his wife.
Madame Homais was very fond of these small,
heavy turban-shaped loaves, that are eaten in Lent with salt butter; a last
vestige of Gothic food that goes back, perhaps, to the time of the Crusades,
and with which the robust Normans gorged themselves of yore, fancying they
saw on the table, in the light of the yellow torches, between tankards of
hippocras and huge boars' heads, the heads of Saracens to be devoured. The
druggist's wife crunched them up as they had done—heroically, despite her
wretched teeth. And so whenever Homais journeyed to town, he never failed to
bring her home some that he bought at the great baker's in the Rue Massacre.
"Charmed to see you," he said, offering
Emma a hand to help her into the "Hirondelle." Then he hung up his cheminots
to the cords of the netting, and remained bare-headed in an attitude pensive
and Napoleonic.
But when the blind man appeared as usual at
the foot of the hill he exclaimed—
"I can't understand why the authorities
tolerate such culpable industries. Such unfortunates should be locked up and
forced to work. Progress, my word! creeps at a snail's pace. We are
floundering about in mere barbarism."
The blind man held out his hat, that
flapped about at the door, as if it were a bag in the lining that had come
unnailed.
"This," said the chemist, "is a scrofulous
affection."
And though he knew the poor devil, he
pretended to see him for the first time, murmured something about "cornea,"
"opaque cornea," "sclerotic," "facies," then asked him in a paternal tone—
"My friend, have you long had this terrible
infirmity? Instead of getting drunk at the public, you'd do better to die
yourself."
He advised him to take good wine, good
beer, and good joints. The blind man went on with his song; he seemed,
moreover, almost idiotic. At last Monsieur Homais opened his purse—
"Now there's a sou; give me back two
lairds, and don't forget my advice: you'll be the better for it."
Hivert openly cast some doubt on the
efficacy of it. But the druggist said that he would cure himself with an
antiphlogistic pomade of his own composition, and he gave his
address—"Monsieur Homais, near the market, pretty well known."
"Now," said Hivert, "for all this trouble
you'll give us your performance."
The blind man sank down on his haunches,
with his head thrown back, whilst he rolled his greenish eyes, lolled out
his tongue, and rubbed his stomach with both hands as he uttered a kind of
hollow yell like a famished dog. Emma, filled with disgust, threw him over
her shoulder a five-franc piece. It was all her fortune. It seemed to her
very fine thus to throw it away.
The coach had gone on again when suddenly
Monsieur Homais leant out through the window, crying—
"No farinaceous or milk food, wear wool
next the skin, and expose the diseased parts to the smoke of juniper
berries."
The sight of the well-known objects that
defiled before her eyes gradually diverted Emma from her present trouble. An
intolerable fatigue overwhelmed her, and she reached her home stupefied,
discouraged, almost asleep.
"Come what may come!" she said to herself.
"And then, who knows? Why, at any moment could not some extraordinary event
occur? Lheureux even might die!"
At nine o'clock in the morning she was
awakened by the sound of voices in the Place. There was a crowd round the
market reading a large bill fixed to one of the posts, and she saw Justin,
who was climbing on to a stone and tearing down the bill. But at this moment
the rural guard seized him by the collar. Monsieur Homais came out of his
shop, and Mere Lefrangois, in the midst of the crowd, seemed to be
perorating.
"Madame! madame!" cried Felicite, running
in, "it's abominable!"
And the poor girl, deeply moved, handed her
a yellow paper that she had just torn off the door. Emma read with a glance
that all her furniture was for sale.
Then they looked at one another silently.
The servant and mistress had no secret one from the other. At last Felicite
sighed—
"If I were you, madame, I should go to
Monsieur Guillaumin."
"Do you think—"
And this question meant to say—
"You who know the house through the
servant, has the master spoken sometimes of me?"
"Yes, you'd do well to go there."
She dressed, put on her black gown, and her
hood with jet beads, and that she might not be seen (there was still a crowd
on the Place), she took the path by the river, outside the village.
She reached the notary's gate quite
breathless. The sky was sombre, and a little snow was falling. At the sound
of the bell, Theodore in a red waistcoat appeared on the steps; he came to
open the door almost familiarly, as to an acquaintance, and showed her into
the dining-room.
A large porcelain stove crackled beneath a
cactus that filled up the niche in the wall, and in black wood frames
against the oak-stained paper hung Steuben's "Esmeralda" and Schopin's
"Potiphar." The ready-laid table, the two silver chafing-dishes, the crystal
door-knobs, the parquet and the furniture, all shone with a scrupulous,
English cleanliness; the windows were ornamented at each corner with stained
glass.
"Now this," thought Emma, "is the
dining-room I ought to have."
The notary came in pressing his palm-leaf
dressing-gown to his breast with his left arm, while with the other hand he
raised and quickly put on again his brown velvet cap, pretentiously cocked
on the right side, whence looked out the ends of three fair curls drawn from
the back of the head, following the line of his bald skull.
After he had offered her a seat he sat down
to breakfast, apologising profusely for his rudeness.
"I have come," she said, "to beg you, sir—"
"What, madame? I am listening."
And she began explaining her position to
him. Monsieur Guillaumin knew it, being secretly associated with the
linendraper, from whom he always got capital for the loans on mortgages that
he was asked to make.
So he knew (and better than she herself)
the long story of the bills, small at first, bearing different names as
endorsers, made out at long dates, and constantly renewed up to the day,
when, gathering together all the protested bills, the shopkeeper had bidden
his friend Vincart take in his own name all the necessary proceedings, not
wishing to pass for a tiger with his fellow-citizens.
She mingled her story with recriminations
against Lheureux, to which the notary replied from time to time with some
insignificant word. Eating his cutlet and drinking his tea, he buried his
chin in his sky-blue cravat, into which were thrust two diamond pins, held
together by a small gold chain; and he smiled a singular smile, in a sugary,
ambiguous fashion. But noticing that her feet were damp, he said—
"Do get closer to the stove; put your feet
up against the porcelain."
She was afraid of dirtying it. The notary
replied in a gallant tone—
"Beautiful things spoil nothing."
Then she tried to move him, and, growing
moved herself, she began telling him about the poorness of her home, her
worries, her wants. He could understand that; an elegant woman! and, without
leaving off eating, he had turned completely round towards her, so that his
knee brushed against her boot, whose sole curled round as it smoked against
the stove.
But when she asked for a thousand sous, he
closed his lips, and declared he was very sorry he had not had the
management of her fortune before, for there were hundreds of ways very
convenient, even for a lady, of turning her money to account. They might,
either in the turf-peats of Grumesnil or building-ground at Havre, almost
without risk, have ventured on some excellent speculations; and he let her
consume herself with rage at the thought of the fabulous sums that she would
certainly have made.
"How was it," he went on, "that you didn't
come to me?"
"I hardly know," she said.
"Why, hey? Did I frighten you so much? It
is I, on the contrary, who ought to complain. We hardly know one another;
yet I am very devoted to you. You do not doubt that, I hope?"
He held out his hand, took hers, covered it
with a greedy kiss, then held it on his knee; and he played delicately with
her fingers whilst he murmured a thousand blandishments. His insipid voice
murmured like a running brook; a light shone in his eyes through the
glimmering of his spectacles, and his hand was advancing up Emma's sleeve to
press her arm. She felt against her cheek his panting breath. This man
oppressed her horribly.
She sprang up and said to him—
"Sir, I am waiting."
"For what?" said the notary, who suddenly
became very pale.
"This money."
"But—" Then, yielding to the outburst of
too powerful a desire, "Well, yes!"
He dragged himself towards her on his
knees, regardless of his dressing-gown.
"For pity's sake, stay. I love you!"
He seized her by her waist. Madame Bovary's
face flushed purple. She recoiled with a terrible look, crying—
"You are taking a shameless advantage of my
distress, sir! I am to be pitied—not to be sold."
And she went out.
The notary remained quite stupefied, his
eyes fixed on his fine embroidered slippers. They were a love gift, and the
sight of them at last consoled him. Besides, he reflected that such an
adventure might have carried him too far.
"What a wretch! what a scoundrel! what an
infamy!" she said to herself, as she fled with nervous steps beneath the
aspens of the path. The disappointment of her failure increased the
indignation of her outraged modesty; it seemed to her that Providence
pursued her implacably, and, strengthening herself in her pride, she had
never felt so much esteem for herself nor so much contempt for others. A
spirit of warfare transformed her. She would have liked to strike all men,
to spit in their faces, to crush them, and she walked rapidly straight on,
pale, quivering, maddened, searching the empty horizon with tear-dimmed
eyes, and as it were rejoicing in the hate that was choking her.
When she saw her house a numbness came over
her. She could not go on; and yet she must. Besides, whither could she flee?
Felicite was waiting for her at the door.
"Well?"
"No!" said Emma.
And for a quarter of an hour the two of
them went over the various persons in Yonville who might perhaps be inclined
to help her. But each time that Felicite named someone Emma replied—
"Impossible! they will not!"
"And the master'll soon be in."
"I know that well enough. Leave me alone."
She had tried everything; there was nothing
more to be done now; and when Charles came in she would have to say to him—
"Go away! This carpet on which you are
walking is no longer ours. In your own house you do not possess a chair, a
pin, a straw, and it is I, poor man, who have ruined you."
Then there would be a great sob; next he
would weep abundantly, and at last, the surprise past, he would forgive her.
"Yes," she murmured, grinding her teeth,
"he will forgive me, he who would give a million if I would forgive him for
having known me! Never! never!"
This thought of Bovary's superiority to her
exasperated her. Then, whether she confessed or did not confess, presently,
immediately, to-morrow, he would know the catastrophe all the same; so she
must wait for this horrible scene, and bear the weight of his magnanimity.
The desire to return to Lheureux's seized her—what would be the use? To
write to her father—it was too late; and perhaps, she began to repent now
that she had not yielded to that other, when she heard the trot of a horse
in the alley. It was he; he was opening the gate; he was whiter than the
plaster wall. Rushing to the stairs, she ran out quickly to the square; and
the wife of the mayor, who was talking to Lestiboudois in front of the
church, saw her go in to the tax-collector's.
She hurried off to tell Madame Caron, and
the two ladies went up to the attic, and, hidden by some linen spread across
props, stationed themselves comfortably for overlooking the whole of Binet's
room.
He was alone in his garret, busy imitating
in wood one of those indescribable bits of ivory, composed of crescents, of
spheres hollowed out one within the other, the whole as straight as an
obelisk, and of no use whatever; and he was beginning on the last piece—he
was nearing his goal. In the twilight of the workshop the white dust was
flying from his tools like a shower of sparks under the hoofs of a galloping
horse; the two wheels were turning, droning; Binet smiled, his chin lowered,
his nostrils distended, and, in a word, seemed lost in one of those complete
happinesses that, no doubt, belong only to commonplace occupations, which
amuse the mind with facile difficulties, and satisfy by a realisation of
that beyond which such minds have not a dream.
"Ah! there she is!" exclaimed Madame
Tuvache.
But it was impossible because of the lathe
to hear what she was saying.
At last these ladies thought they made out
the word "francs," and Madame Tuvache whispered in a low voice—
"She is begging him to give her time for
paying her taxes."
"Apparently!" replied the other.
They saw her walking up and down, examining
the napkin-rings, the candlesticks, the banister rails against the walls,
while Binet stroked his beard with satisfaction.
"Do you think she wants to order something
of him?" said Madame Tuvache.
"Why, he doesn't sell anything," objected
her neighbour.
The tax-collector seemed to be listening
with wide-open eyes, as if he did not understand. She went on in a tender,
suppliant manner. She came nearer to him, her breast heaving; they no longer
spoke.
"Is she making him advances?" said Madame
Tuvache. Binet was scarlet to his very ears. She took hold of his hands.
"Oh, it's too much!"
And no doubt she was suggesting something
abominable to him; for the tax-collector—yet he was brave, had fought at
Bautzen and at Lutzen, had been through the French campaign, and had even
been recommended for the cross—suddenly, as at the sight of a serpent,
recoiled as far as he could from her, crying—
"Madame! what do you mean?"
"Women like that ought to be whipped," said
Madame Tuvache.
"But where is she?" continued Madame Caron,
for she had disappeared whilst they spoke; then catching sight of her going
up the Grande Rue, and turning to the right as if making for the cemetery,
they were lost in conjectures.
"Nurse Rollet," she said on reaching the
nurse's, "I am choking; unlace me!" She fell on the bed sobbing. Nurse
Rollet covered her with a petticoat and remained standing by her side. Then,
as she did not answer, the good woman withdrew, took her wheel and began
spinning flax.
"Oh, leave off!" she murmured, fancying she
heard Binet's lathe.
"What's bothering her?" said the nurse to
herself. "Why has she come here?"
She had rushed thither; impelled by a kind
of horror that drove her from her home.
Lying on her back, motionless, and with
staring eyes, she saw things but vaguely, although she tried to with idiotic
persistence. She looked at the scales on the walls, two brands smoking end
to end, and a long spider crawling over her head in a rent in the beam. At
last she began to collect her thoughts. She remembered—one day—Leon—Oh! how
long ago that was—the sun was shining on the river, and the clematis were
perfuming the air. Then, carried away as by a rushing torrent, she soon
began to recall the day before.
"What time is it?" she asked.
Mere Rollet went out, raised the fingers of
her right hand to that side of the sky that was brightest, and came back
slowly, saying—
"Nearly three."
"Ahl thanks, thanks!"
For he would come; he would have found some
money. But he would, perhaps, go down yonder, not guessing she was here, and
she told the nurse to run to her house to fetch him.
"Be quick!"
"But, my dear lady, I'm going, I'm going!"
She wondered now that she had not thought
of him from the first. Yesterday he had given his word; he would not break
it. And she already saw herself at Lheureux's spreading out her three
bank-notes on his bureau. Then she would have to invent some story to
explain matters to Bovary. What should it be?
The nurse, however, was a long while gone.
But, as there was no clock in the cot, Emma feared she was perhaps
exaggerating the length of time. She began walking round the garden, step by
step; she went into the path by the hedge, and returned quickly, hoping that
the woman would have come back by another road. At last, weary of waiting,
assailed by fears that she thrust from her, no longer conscious whether she
had been here a century or a moment, she sat down in a corner, closed her
eyes, and stopped her ears. The gate grated; she sprang up. Before she had
spoken Mere Rollet said to her—
"There is no one at your house!"
"What?"
"Oh, no one! And the doctor is crying. He
is calling for you; they're looking for you."
Emma answered nothing. She gasped as she
turned her eyes about her, while the peasant woman, frightened at her face,
drew back instinctively, thinking her mad. Suddenly she struck her brow and
uttered a cry; for the thought of Rodolphe, like a flash of lightning in a
dark night, had passed into her soul. He was so good, so delicate, so
generous! And besides, should he hesitate to do her this service, she would
know well enough how to constrain him to it by re-waking, in a single
moment, their lost love. So she set out towards La Huchette, not seeing that
she was hastening to offer herself to that which but a while ago had so
angered her, not in the least conscious of her prostitution.
Chapter Eight
She asked herself as she walked along,
"What am I going to say? How shall I begin?" And as she went on she
recognised the thickets, the trees, the sea-rushes on the hill, the chateau
yonder. All the sensations of her first tenderness came back to her, and her
poor aching heart opened out amorously. A warm wind blew in her face; the
melting snow fell drop by drop from the buds to the grass.
She entered, as she used to, through the
small park-gate. She reached the avenue bordered by a double row of dense
lime-trees. They were swaying their long whispering branches to and fro. The
dogs in their kennels all barked, and the noise of their voices resounded,
but brought out no one.
She went up the large straight staircase
with wooden balusters that led to the corridor paved with dusty flags, into
which several doors in a row opened, as in a monastery or an inn. His was at
the top, right at the end, on the left. When she placed her fingers on the
lock her strength suddenly deserted her. She was afraid, almost wished he
would not be there, though this was her only hope, her last chance of
salvation. She collected her thoughts for one moment, and, strengthening
herself by the feeling of present necessity, went in.
He was in front of the fire, both his feet
on the mantelpiece, smoking a pipe.
"What! it is you!" he said, getting up
hurriedly.
"Yes, it is I, Rodolphe. I should like to
ask your advice."
And, despite all her efforts, it was
impossible for her to open her lips.
"You have not changed; you are charming as
ever!"
"Oh," she replied bitterly, "they are poor
charms since you disdained them."
Then he began a long explanation of his
conduct, excusing himself in vague terms, in default of being able to invent
better.
She yielded to his words, still more to his
voice and the sight of him, so that, she pretended to believe, or perhaps
believed; in the pretext he gave for their rupture; this was a secret on
which depended the honour, the very life of a third person.
"No matter!" she said, looking at him
sadly. "I have suffered much."
He replied philosophically—
"Such is life!"
"Has life," Emma went on, "been good to you
at least, since our separation?"
"Oh, neither good nor bad."
"Perhaps it would have been better never to
have parted."
"Yes, perhaps."
"You think so?" she said, drawing nearer,
and she sighed. "Oh, Rodolphe! if you but knew! I loved you so!"
It was then that she took his hand, and
they remained some time, their fingers intertwined, like that first day at
the Show. With a gesture of pride he struggled against this emotion. But
sinking upon his breast she said to him—
"How did you think I could live without
you? One cannot lose the habit of happiness. I was desolate. I thought I
should die. I will tell you about all that and you will see. And you—you
fled from me!"
For, all the three years, he had carefully
avoided her in consequence of that natural cowardice that characterises the
stronger sex. Emma went on, with dainty little nods, more coaxing than an
amorous kitten—
"You love others, confess it! Oh, I
understand them, dear! I excuse them. You probably seduced them as you
seduced me. You are indeed a man; you have everything to make one love you.
But we'll begin again, won't we? We will love one another. See! I am
laughing; I am happy! Oh, speak!"
And she was charming to see, with her eyes,
in which trembled a tear, like the rain of a storm in a blue corolla.
He had drawn her upon his knees, and with
the back of his hand was caressing her smooth hair, where in the twilight
was mirrored like a golden arrow one last ray of the sun. She bent down her
brow; at last he kissed her on the eyelids quite gently with the tips of his
lips.
"Why, you have been crying! What for?"
She burst into tears. Rodolphe thought this
was an outburst of her love. As she did not speak, he took this silence for
a last remnant of resistance, and then he cried out—
"Oh, forgive me! You are the only one who
pleases me. I was imbecile and cruel. I love you. I will love you always.
What is it. Tell me!" He was kneeling by her.
"Well, I am ruined, Rodolphe! You must lend
me three thousand francs."
"But—but—" said he, getting up slowly,
while his face assumed a grave expression.
"You know," she went on quickly, "that my
husband had placed his whole fortune at a notary's. He ran away. So we
borrowed; the patients don't pay us. Moreover, the settling of the estate is
not yet done; we shall have the money later on. But to-day, for want of
three thousand francs, we are to be sold up. It is to be at once, this very
moment, and, counting upon your friendship, I have come to you."
"Ah!" thought Rodolphe, turning very pale,
"that was what she came for." At last he said with a calm air—
"Dear madame, I have not got them."
He did not lie. If he had had them, he
would, no doubt, have given them, although it is generally disagreeable to
do such fine things: a demand for money being, of all the winds that blow
upon love, the coldest and most destructive.
First she looked at him for some moments.
"You have not got them!" she repeated
several times. "You have not got them! I ought to have spared myself this
last shame. You never loved me. You are no better than the others."
She was betraying, ruining herself.
Rodolphe interrupted her, declaring he was
"hard up" himself.
"Ah! I pity you," said Emma. "Yes—very
much."
And fixing her eyes upon an embossed
carabine, that shone against its panoply, "But when one is so poor one
doesn't have silver on the butt of one's gun. One doesn't buy a clock inlaid
with tortoise shell," she went on, pointing to a buhl timepiece, "nor
silver-gilt whistles for one's whips," and she touched them, "nor charms for
one's watch. Oh, he wants for nothing! even to a liqueur-stand in his room!
For you love yourself; you live well. You have a chateau, farms, woods; you
go hunting; you travel to Paris. Why, if it were but that," she cried,
taking up two studs from the mantelpiece, "but the least of these trifles,
one can get money for them. Oh, I do not want them, keep them!"
And she threw the two links away from her,
their gold chain breaking as it struck against the wall.
"But I! I would have given you everything.
I would have sold all, worked for you with my hands, I would have begged on
the highroads for a smile, for a look, to hear you say 'Thanks!' And you sit
there quietly in your arm-chair, as if you had not made me suffer enough
already! But for you, and you know it, I might have lived happily. What made
you do it? Was it a bet? Yet you loved me—you said so. And but a moment
since—Ah! it would have been better to have driven me away. My hands are hot
with your kisses, and there is the spot on the carpet where at my knees you
swore an eternity of love! You made me believe you; for two years you held
me in the most magnificent, the sweetest dream! Eh! Our plans for the
journey, do you remember? Oh, your letter! your letter! it tore my heart!
And then when I come back to him—to him, rich, happy, free—to implore the
help the first stranger would give, a suppliant, and bringing back to him
all my tenderness, he repulses me because it would cost him three thousand
francs!"
"I haven't got them," replied Rodolphe,
with that perfect calm with which resigned rage covers itself as with a
shield.
She went out. The walls trembled, the
ceiling was crushing her, and she passed back through the long alley,
stumbling against the heaps of dead leaves scattered by the wind. At last
she reached the ha-ha hedge in front of the gate; she broke her nails
against the lock in her haste to open it. Then a hundred steps farther on,
breathless, almost falling, she stopped. And now turning round, she once
more saw the impassive chateau, with the park, the gardens, the three
courts, and all the windows of the facade.
She remained lost in stupor, and having no
more consciousness of herself than through the beating of her arteries, that
she seemed to hear bursting forth like a deafening music filling all the
fields. The earth beneath her feet was more yielding than the sea, and the
furrows seemed to her immense brown waves breaking into foam. Everything in
her head, of memories, ideas, went off at once like a thousand pieces of
fireworks. She saw her father, Lheureux's closet, their room at home,
another landscape. Madness was coming upon her; she grew afraid, and managed
to recover herself, in a confused way, it is true, for she did not in the
least remember the cause of the terrible condition she was in, that is to
say, the question of money. She suffered only in her love, and felt her soul
passing from her in this memory; as wounded men, dying, feel their life ebb
from their bleeding wounds.
Night was falling, crows were flying about.
Suddenly it seemed to her that fiery
spheres were exploding in the air like fulminating balls when they strike,
and were whirling, whirling, to melt at last upon the snow between the
branches of the trees. In the midst of each of them appeared the face of
Rodolphe. They multiplied and drew near her, penetrating, her. It all
disappeared; she recognised the lights of the houses that shone through the
fog.
Now her situation, like an abyss, rose up
before her. She was panting as if her heart would burst. Then in an ecstasy
of heroism, that made her almost joyous, she ran down the hill, crossed the
cow-plank, the foot-path, the alley, the market, and reached the chemist's
shop. She was about to enter, but at the sound of the bell someone might
come, and slipping in by the gate, holding her breath, feeling her way along
the walls, she went as far as the door of the kitchen, where a candle stuck
on the stove was burning. Justin in his shirt-sleeves was carrying out a
dish.
"Ah! they are dining; I will wait."
He returned; she tapped at the window. He
went out.
"The key! the one for upstairs where he
keeps the—"
"What?"
And he looked at her, astonished at the
pallor of her face, that stood out white against the black background of the
night. She seemed to him extraordinarily beautiful and majestic as a
phantom. Without understanding what she wanted, he had the presentiment of
something terrible.
But she went on quickly in a love voice; in
a sweet, melting voice, "I want it; give it to me."
As the partition wall was thin, they could
hear the clatter of the forks on the plates in the dining-room.
She pretended that she wanted to kill the
rats that kept her from sleeping.
"I must tell master."
"No, stay!" Then with an indifferent air,
"Oh, it's not worth while; I'll tell him presently. Come, light me
upstairs."
She entered the corridor into which the
laboratory door opened. Against the wall was a key labelled Capharnaum.
"Justin!" called the druggist impatiently.
"Let us go up."
And he followed her. The key turned in the
lock, and she went straight to the third shelf, so well did her memory guide
her, seized the blue jar, tore out the cork, plunged in her hand, and
withdrawing it full of a white powder, she began eating it.
"Stop!" he cried, rushing at her.
"Hush! someone will come."
He was in despair, was calling out.
"Say nothing, or all the blame will fall on
your master."
Then she went home, suddenly calmed, and
with something of the serenity of one that had performed a duty.
When Charles, distracted by the news of the
distraint, returned home, Emma had just gone out. He cried aloud, wept,
fainted, but she did not return. Where could she be? He sent Felicite to
Homais, to Monsieur Tuvache, to Lheureux, to the "Lion d'Or," everywhere,
and in the intervals of his agony he saw his reputation destroyed, their
fortune lost, Berthe's future ruined. By what?—Not a word! He waited till
six in the evening. At last, unable to bear it any longer, and fancying she
had gone to Rouen, he set out along the highroad, walked a mile, met no one,
again waited, and returned home. She had come back.
"What was the matter? Why? Explain to me."
She sat down at her writing-table and wrote
a letter, which she sealed slowly, adding the date and the hour. Then she
said in a solemn tone:
"You are to read it to-morrow; till then, I
pray you, do not ask me a single question. No, not one!"
"But—"
"Oh, leave me!"
She lay down full length on her bed. A
bitter taste that she felt in her mouth awakened her. She saw Charles, and
again closed her eyes.
She was studying herself curiously, to see
if she were not suffering. But no! nothing as yet. She heard the ticking of
the clock, the crackling of the fire, and Charles breathing as he stood
upright by her bed.
"Ah! it is but a little thing, death!" she
thought. "I shall fall asleep and all will be over."
She drank a mouthful of water and turned to
the wall. The frightful taste of ink continued.
"I am thirsty; oh! so thirsty," she sighed.
"What is it?" said Charles, who was handing
her a glass.
"It is nothing! Open the window; I am
choking."
She was seized with a sickness so sudden
that she had hardly time to draw out her handkerchief from under the pillow.
"Take it away," she said quickly; "throw it
away."
He spoke to her; she did not answer. She
lay motionless, afraid that the slightest movement might make her vomit. But
she felt an icy cold creeping from her feet to her heart.
"Ah! it is beginning," she murmured.
"What did you say?"
She turned her head from side to side with
a gentle movement full of agony, while constantly opening her mouth as if
something very heavy were weighing upon her tongue. At eight o'clock the
vomiting began again.
Charles noticed that at the bottom of the
basin there was a sort of white sediment sticking to the sides of the
porcelain.
"This is extraordinary—very singular," he
repeated.
But she said in a firm voice, "No, you are
mistaken."
Then gently, and almost as caressing her,
he passed his hand over her stomach. She uttered a sharp cry. He fell back
terror-stricken.
Then she began to groan, faintly at first.
Her shoulders were shaken by a strong shuddering, and she was growing paler
than the sheets in which her clenched fingers buried themselves. Her unequal
pulse was now almost imperceptible.
Drops of sweat oozed from her bluish face,
that seemed as if rigid in the exhalations of a metallic vapour. Her teeth
chattered, her dilated eyes looked vaguely about her, and to all questions
she replied only with a shake of the head; she even smiled once or twice.
Gradually, her moaning grew louder; a hollow shriek burst from her; she
pretended she was better and that she would get up presently. But she was
seized with convulsions and cried out—
"Ah! my God! It is horrible!"
He threw himself on his knees by her bed.
"Tell me! what have you eaten? Answer, for
heaven's sake!"
And he looked at her with a tenderness in
his eyes such as she had never seen.
"Well, there—there!" she said in a faint
voice. He flew to the writing-table, tore open the seal, and read aloud:
"Accuse no one." He stopped, passed his hands across his eyes, and read it
over again.
"What! help—help!"
He could only keep repeating the word:
"Poisoned! poisoned!" Felicite ran to Homais, who proclaimed it in the
market-place; Madame Lefrancois heard it at the "Lion d'Or"; some got up to
go and tell their neighbours, and all night the village was on the alert.
Distraught, faltering, reeling, Charles
wandered about the room. He knocked against the furniture, tore his hair,
and the chemist had never believed that there could be so terrible a sight.
He went home to write to Monsieur Canivet
and to Doctor Lariviere. He lost his head, and made more than fifteen rough
copies. Hippolyte went to Neufchatel, and Justin so spurred Bovary's horse
that he left it foundered and three parts dead by the hill at
Bois-Guillaume.
Charles tried to look up his medical
dictionary, but could not read it; the lines were dancing.
"Be calm," said the druggist; "we have only
to administer a powerful antidote. What is the poison?"
Charles showed him the letter. It was
arsenic.
"Very well," said Homais, "we must make an
analysis."
For he knew that in cases of poisoning an
analysis must be made; and the other, who did not understand, answered—
"Oh, do anything! save her!"
Then going back to her, he sank upon the
carpet, and lay there with his head leaning against the edge of her bed,
sobbing.
"Don't cry," she said to him. "Soon I shall
not trouble you any more."
"Why was it? Who drove you to it?"
She replied. "It had to be, my dear!"
"Weren't you happy? Is it my fault? I did
all I could!"
"Yes, that is true—you are good—you."
And she passed her hand slowly over his
hair. The sweetness of this sensation deepened his sadness; he felt his
whole being dissolving in despair at the thought that he must lose her, just
when she was confessing more love for him than ever. And he could think of
nothing; he did not know, he did not dare; the urgent need for some
immediate resolution gave the finishing stroke to the turmoil of his mind.
So she had done, she thought, with all the
treachery; and meanness, and numberless desires that had tortured her. She
hated no one now; a twilight dimness was settling upon her thoughts, and, of
all earthly noises, Emma heard none but the intermittent lamentations of
this poor heart, sweet and indistinct like the echo of a symphony dying
away.
"Bring me the child," she said, raising
herself on her elbow.
"You are not worse, are you?" asked
Charles.
"No, no!"
The child, serious, and still half-asleep,
was carried in on the servant's arm in her long white nightgown, from which
her bare feet peeped out. She looked wonderingly at the disordered room, and
half-closed her eyes, dazzled by the candles burning on the table. They
reminded her, no doubt, of the morning of New Year's day and Mid-Lent, when
thus awakened early by candle-light she came to her mother's bed to fetch
her presents, for she began saying—
"But where is it, mamma?" And as everybody
was silent, "But I can't see my little stocking."
Felicite held her over the bed while she
still kept looking towards the mantelpiece.
"Has nurse taken it?" she asked.
And at this name, that carried her back to
the memory of her adulteries and her calamities, Madame Bovary turned away
her head, as at the loathing of another bitterer poison that rose to her
mouth. But Berthe remained perched on the bed.
"Oh, how big your eyes are, mamma! How pale
you are! how hot you are!"
Her mother looked at her. "I am
frightened!" cried the child, recoiling.
Emma took her hand to kiss it; the child
struggled.
"That will do. Take her away," cried
Charles, who was sobbing in the alcove.
Then the symptoms ceased for a moment; she
seemed less agitated; and at every insignificant word, at every respiration
a little more easy, he regained hope. At last, when Canivet came in, he
threw himself into his arms.
"Ah! it is you. Thanks! You are good! But
she is better. See! look at her."
His colleague was by no means of this
opinion, and, as he said of himself, "never beating about the bush," he
prescribed, an emetic in order to empty the stomach completely.
She soon began vomiting blood. Her lips
became drawn. Her limbs were convulsed, her whole body covered with brown
spots, and her pulse slipped beneath the fingers like a stretched thread,
like a harp-string nearly breaking.
After this she began to scream horribly.
She cursed the poison, railed at it, and implored it to be quick, and thrust
away with her stiffened arms everything that Charles, in more agony than
herself, tried to make her drink. He stood up, his handkerchief to his lips,
with a rattling sound in his throat, weeping, and choked by sobs that shook
his whole body. Felicite was running hither and thither in the room. Homais,
motionless, uttered great sighs; and Monsieur Canivet, always retaining his
self-command, nevertheless began to feel uneasy.
"The devil! yet she has been purged, and
from the moment that the cause ceases—"
"The effect must cease," said Homais, "that
is evident."
"Oh, save her!" cried Bovary.
And, without listening to the chemist, who
was still venturing the hypothesis, "It is perhaps a salutary paroxysm,"
Canivet was about to administer some theriac, when they heard the cracking
of a whip; all the windows rattled, and a post-chaise drawn by three horses
abreast, up to their ears in mud, drove at a gallop round the corner of the
market. It was Doctor Lariviere.
The apparition of a god would not have
caused more commotion. Bovary raised his hands; Canivet stopped short; and
Homais pulled off his skull-cap long before the doctor had come in.
He belonged to that great school of surgery
begotten of Bichat, to that generation, now extinct, of philosophical
practitioners, who, loving their art with a fanatical love, exercised it
with enthusiasm and wisdom. Everyone in his hospital trembled when he was
angry; and his students so revered him that they tried, as soon as they were
themselves in practice, to imitate him as much as possible. So that in all
the towns about they were found wearing his long wadded merino overcoat and
black frock-coat, whose buttoned cuffs slightly covered his brawny
hands—very beautiful hands, and that never knew gloves, as though to be more
ready to plunge into suffering. Disdainful of honours, of titles, and of
academies, like one of the old Knight-Hospitallers, generous, fatherly to
the poor, and practising virtue without believing in it, he would almost
have passed for a saint if the keenness of his intellect had not caused him
to be feared as a demon. His glance, more penetrating than his bistouries,
looked straight into your soul, and dissected every lie athwart all
assertions and all reticences. And thus he went along, full of that debonair
majesty that is given by the consciousness of great talent, of fortune, and
of forty years of a labourious and irreproachable life.
He frowned as soon as he had passed the
door when he saw the cadaverous face of Emma stretched out on her back with
her mouth open. Then, while apparently listening to Canivet, he rubbed his
fingers up and down beneath his nostrils, and repeated—
"Good! good!"
But he made a slow gesture with his
shoulders. Bovary watched him; they looked at one another; and this man,
accustomed as he was to the sight of pain, could not keep back a tear that
fell on his shirt-frill.
He tried to take Canivet into the next
room. Charles followed him.
"She is very ill, isn't she? If we put on
sinapisms? Anything! Oh, think of something, you who have saved so many!"
Charles caught him in both his arms, and
gazed at him wildly, imploringly, half-fainting against his breast.
"Come, my poor fellow, courage! There is
nothing more to be done."
And Doctor Lariviere turned away.
"You are going?"
"I will come back."
He went out only to give an order to the
coachman, with Monsieur Canivet, who did not care either to have Emma die
under his hands.
The chemist rejoined them on the Place. He
could not by temperament keep away from celebrities, so he begged Monsieur
Lariviere to do him the signal honour of accepting some breakfast.
He sent quickly to the "Lion d'Or" for some
pigeons; to the butcher's for all the cutlets that were to be had; to
Tuvache for cream; and to Lestiboudois for eggs; and the druggist himself
aided in the preparations, while Madame Homais was saying as she pulled
together the strings of her jacket—
"You must excuse us, sir, for in this poor
place, when one hasn't been told the night before—"
"Wine glasses!" whispered Homais.
"If only we were in town, we could fall
back upon stuffed trotters."
"Be quiet! Sit down, doctor!"
He thought fit, after the first few
mouthfuls, to give some details as to the catastrophe.
"We first had a feeling of siccity in the
pharynx, then intolerable pains at the epigastrium, super purgation, coma."
"But how did she poison herself?"
"I don't know, doctor, and I don't even
know where she can have procured the arsenious acid."
Justin, who was just bringing in a pile of
plates, began to tremble.
"What's the matter?" said the chemist.
At this question the young man dropped the
whole lot on the ground with a crash.
"Imbecile!" cried Homais, "awkward lout!
block-head! confounded ass!"
But suddenly controlling himself—
"I wished, doctor, to make an analysis, and
primo I delicately introduced a tube—"
"You would have done better," said the
physician, "to introduce your fingers into her throat."
His colleague was silent, having just
before privately received a severe lecture about his emetic, so that this
good Canivet, so arrogant and so verbose at the time of the clubfoot, was
to-day very modest. He smiled without ceasing in an approving manner.
Homais dilated in Amphytrionic pride, and
the affecting thought of Bovary vaguely contributed to his pleasure by a
kind of egotistic reflex upon himself. Then the presence of the doctor
transported him. He displayed his erudition, cited pell-mell cantharides,
upas, the manchineel, vipers.
"I have even read that various persons have
found themselves under toxicological symptoms, and, as it were,
thunderstricken by black-pudding that had been subjected to a too vehement
fumigation. At least, this was stated in a very fine report drawn up by one
of our pharmaceutical chiefs, one of our masters, the illustrious Cadet de
Gassicourt!"
Madame Homais reappeared, carrying one of
those shaky machines that are heated with spirits of wine; for Homais liked
to make his coffee at table, having, moreover, torrefied it, pulverised it,
and mixed it himself.
"Saccharum, doctor?" said he, offering the
sugar.
Then he had all his children brought down,
anxious to have the physician's opinion on their constitutions.
At last Monsieur Lariviere was about to
leave, when Madame Homais asked for a consultation about her husband. He was
making his blood too thick by going to sleep every evening after dinner.
"Oh, it isn't his blood that's too thick,"
said the physician.
And, smiling a little at his unnoticed
joke, the doctor opened the door. But the chemist's shop was full of people;
he had the greatest difficulty in getting rid of Monsieur Tuvache, who
feared his spouse would get inflammation of the lungs, because she was in
the habit of spitting on the ashes; then of Monsieur Binet, who sometimes
experienced sudden attacks of great hunger; and of Madame Caron, who
suffered from tinglings; of Lheureux, who had vertigo; of Lestiboudois, who
had rheumatism; and of Madame Lefrancois, who had heartburn. At last the
three horses started; and it was the general opinion that he had not shown
himself at all obliging.
Public attention was distracted by the
appearance of Monsieur Bournisien, who was going across the market with the
holy oil.
Homais, as was due to his principles,
compared priests to ravens attracted by the odour of death. The sight of an
ecclesiastic was personally disagreeable to him, for the cassock made him
think of the shroud, and he detested the one from some fear of the other.
Nevertheless, not shrinking from what he
called his mission, he returned to Bovary's in company with Canivet whom
Monsieur Lariviere, before leaving, had strongly urged to make this visit;
and he would, but for his wife's objections, have taken his two sons with
him, in order to accustom them to great occasions; that this might be a
lesson, an example, a solemn picture, that should remain in their heads
later on.
The room when they went in was full of
mournful solemnity. On the work-table, covered over with a white cloth,
there were five or six small balls of cotton in a silver dish, near a large
crucifix between two lighted candles.
Emma, her chin sunken upon her breast, had
her eyes inordinately wide open, and her poor hands wandered over the sheets
with that hideous and soft movement of the dying, that seems as if they
wanted already to cover themselves with the shroud. Pale as a statue and
with eyes red as fire, Charles, not weeping, stood opposite her at the foot
of the bed, while the priest, bending one knee, was muttering words in a low
voice.
She turned her face slowly, and seemed
filled with joy on seeing suddenly the violet stole, no doubt finding again,
in the midst of a temporary lull in her pain, the lost voluptuousness of her
first mystical transports, with the visions of eternal beatitude that were
beginning.
The priest rose to take the crucifix; then
she stretched forward her neck as one who is athirst, and glueing her lips
to the body of the Man-God, she pressed upon it with all her expiring
strength the fullest kiss of love that she had ever given. Then he recited
the Misereatur and the Indulgentiam, dipped his right thumb in the oil, and
began to give extreme unction. First upon the eyes, that had so coveted all
worldly pomp; then upon the nostrils, that had been greedy of the warm
breeze and amorous odours; then upon the mouth, that had uttered lies, that
had curled with pride and cried out in lewdness; then upon the hands that
had delighted in sensual touches; and finally upon the soles of the feet, so
swift of yore, when she was running to satisfy her desires, and that would
now walk no more.
The cure wiped his fingers, threw the bit
of cotton dipped in oil into the fire, and came and sat down by the dying
woman, to tell her that she must now blend her sufferings with those of
Jesus Christ and abandon herself to the divine mercy.
Finishing his exhortations, he tried to
place in her hand a blessed candle, symbol of the celestial glory with which
she was soon to be surrounded. Emma, too weak, could not close her fingers,
and the taper, but for Monsieur Bournisien would have fallen to the ground.
However, she was not quite so pale, and her
face had an expression of serenity as if the sacrament had cured her.
The priest did not fail to point this out;
he even explained to Bovary that the Lord sometimes prolonged the life of
persons when he thought it meet for their salvation; and Charles remembered
the day when, so near death, she had received the communion. Perhaps there
was no need to despair, he thought.
In fact, she looked around her slowly, as
one awakening from a dream; then in a distinct voice she asked for her
looking-glass, and remained some time bending over it, until the big tears
fell from her eyes. Then she turned away her head with a sigh and fell back
upon the pillows.
Her chest soon began panting rapidly; the
whole of her tongue protruded from her mouth; her eyes, as they rolled, grew
paler, like the two globes of a lamp that is going out, so that one might
have thought her already dead but for the fearful labouring of her ribs,
shaken by violent breathing, as if the soul were struggling to free itself.
Felicite knelt down before the crucifix, and the druggist himself slightly
bent his knees, while Monsieur Canivet looked out vaguely at the Place.
Bournisien had again begun to pray, his face bowed against the edge of the
bed, his long black cassock trailing behind him in the room. Charles was on
the other side, on his knees, his arms outstretched towards Emma. He had
taken her hands and pressed them, shuddering at every beat of her heart, as
at the shaking of a falling ruin. As the death-rattle became stronger the
priest prayed faster; his prayers mingled with the stifled sobs of Bovary,
and sometimes all seemed lost in the muffled murmur of the Latin syllables
that tolled like a passing bell.
Suddenly on the pavement was heard a loud
noise of clogs and the clattering of a stick; and a voice rose—a raucous
voice—that sang—
"Maids in the warmth of a summer day Dream
of love and of love always"
Emma raised herself like a galvanised
corpse, her hair undone, her eyes fixed, staring.
"Where the sickle blades have been,
Nannette, gathering ears of corn, Passes bending down, my queen, To the
earth where they were born."
"The blind man!" she cried. And Emma began
to laugh, an atrocious, frantic, despairing laugh, thinking she saw the
hideous face of the poor wretch that stood out against the eternal night
like a menace.
"The wind is strong this summer day, Her
petticoat has flown away."
She fell back upon the mattress in a
convulsion. They all drew near. She was dead.
Chapter Nine
There is always after the death of anyone a
kind of stupefaction; so difficult is it to grasp this advent of nothingness
and to resign ourselves to believe in it. But still, when he saw that she
did not move, Charles threw himself upon her, crying—
"Farewell! farewell!"
Homais and Canivet dragged him from the
room.
"Restrain yourself!"
"Yes." said he, struggling, "I'll be quiet.
I'll not do anything. But leave me alone. I want to see her. She is my
wife!"
And he wept.
"Cry," said the chemist; "let nature take
her course; that will solace you."
Weaker than a child, Charles let himself be
led downstairs into the sitting-room, and Monsieur Homais soon went home. On
the Place he was accosted by the blind man, who, having dragged himself as
far as Yonville, in the hope of getting the antiphlogistic pomade, was
asking every passer-by where the druggist lived.
"There now! as if I hadn't got other fish
to fry. Well, so much the worse; you must come later on."
And he entered the shop hurriedly.
He had to write two letters, to prepare a
soothing potion for Bovary, to invent some lie that would conceal the
poisoning, and work it up into an article for the "Fanal," without counting
the people who were waiting to get the news from him; and when the
Yonvillers had all heard his story of the arsenic that she had mistaken for
sugar in making a vanilla cream. Homais once more returned to Bovary's.
He found him alone (Monsieur Canivet had
left), sitting in an arm-chair near the window, staring with an idiotic look
at the flags of the floor.
"Now," said the chemist, "you ought
yourself to fix the hour for the ceremony."
"Why? What ceremony?" Then, in a
stammering, frightened voice, "Oh, no! not that. No! I want to see her
here."
Homais, to keep himself in countenance,
took up a water-bottle on the whatnot to water the geraniums.
"Ah! thanks," said Charles; "you are good."
But he did not finish, choking beneath the
crowd of memories that this action of the druggist recalled to him.
Then to distract him, Homais thought fit to
talk a little horticulture: plants wanted humidity. Charles bowed his head
in sign of approbation.
"Besides, the fine days will soon be here
again."
"Ah!" said Bovary.
The druggist, at his wit's end, began
softly to draw aside the small window-curtain.
"Hallo! there's Monsieur Tuvache passing."
Charles repeated like a machine—-
"Monsieur Tuvache passing!"
Homais did not dare to speak to him again
about the funeral arrangements; it was the priest who succeeded in
reconciling him to them.
He shut himself up in his consulting-room,
took a pen, and after sobbing for some time, wrote—
"I wish her to be buried in her
wedding-dress, with white shoes, and a wreath. Her hair is to be spread out
over her shoulders. Three coffins, one of oak, one of mahogany, one of lead.
Let no one say anything to me. I shall have strength. Over all there is to
be placed a large piece of green velvet. This is my wish; see that it is
done."
The two men were much surprised at Bovary's
romantic ideas. The chemist at once went to him and said—
"This velvet seems to me a superfetation.
Besides, the expense—"
"What's that to you?" cried Charles. "Leave
me! You did not love her. Go!"
The priest took him by the arm for a turn
in the garden. He discoursed on the vanity of earthly things. God was very
great, was very good: one must submit to his decrees without a murmur; nay,
must even thank him.
Charles burst out into blasphemies: "I hate
your God!"
"The spirit of rebellion is still upon
you," sighed the ecclesiastic.
Bovary was far away. He was walking with
great strides along by the wall, near the espalier, and he ground his teeth;
he raised to heaven looks of malediction, but not so much as a leaf stirred.
A fine rain was falling: Charles, whose
chest was bare, at last began to shiver; he went in and sat down in the
kitchen.
At six o'clock a noise like a clatter of
old iron was heard on the Place; it was the "Hirondelle" coming in, and he
remained with his forehead against the windowpane, watching all the
passengers get out, one after the other. Felicite put down a mattress for
him in the drawing-room. He threw himself upon it and fell asleep.
Although a philosopher, Monsieur Homais
respected the dead. So bearing no grudge to poor Charles, he came back again
in the evening to sit up with the body; bringing with him three volumes and
a pocket-book for taking notes.
Monsieur Bournisien was there, and two
large candles were burning at the head of the bed, that had been taken out
of the alcove. The druggist, on whom the silence weighed, was not long
before he began formulating some regrets about this "unfortunate young
woman." and the priest replied that there was nothing to do now but pray for
her.
"Yet," Homais went on, "one of two things;
either she died in a state of grace (as the Church has it), and then she has
no need of our prayers; or else she departed impertinent (that is, I
believe, the ecclesiastical expression), and then—"
Bournisien interrupted him, replying
testily that it was none the less necessary to pray.
"But," objected the chemist, "since God
knows all our needs, what can be the good of prayer?"
"What!" cried the ecclesiastic, "prayer!
Why, aren't you a Christian?"
"Excuse me," said Homais; "I admire
Christianity. To begin with, it enfranchised the slaves, introduced into the
world a morality—"
"That isn't the question. All the texts-"
"Oh! oh! As to texts, look at history; it,
is known that all the texts have been falsified by the Jesuits."
Charles came in, and advancing towards the
bed, slowly drew the curtains.
Emma's head was turned towards her right
shoulder, the corner of her mouth, which was open, seemed like a black hole
at the lower part of her face; her two thumbs were bent into the palms of
her hands; a kind of white dust besprinkled her lashes, and her eyes were
beginning to disappear in that viscous pallor that looks like a thin web, as
if spiders had spun it over. The sheet sunk in from her breast to her knees,
and then rose at the tips of her toes, and it seemed to Charles that
infinite masses, an enormous load, were weighing upon her.
The church clock struck two. They could
hear the loud murmur of the river flowing in the darkness at the foot of the
terrace. Monsieur Bournisien from time to time blew his nose noisily, and
Homais' pen was scratching over the paper.
"Come, my good friend," he said, "withdraw;
this spectacle is tearing you to pieces."
Charles once gone, the chemist and the cure
recommenced their discussions.
"Read Voltaire," said the one, "read
D'Holbach, read the 'Encyclopaedia'!"
"Read the 'Letters of some Portuguese
Jews,'" said the other; "read 'The Meaning of Christianity,' by Nicolas,
formerly a magistrate."
They grew warm, they grew red, they both
talked at once without listening to each other. Bournisien was scandalized
at such audacity; Homais marvelled at such stupidity; and they were on the
point of insulting one another when Charles suddenly reappeared. A
fascination drew him. He was continually coming upstairs.
He stood opposite her, the better to see
her, and he lost himself in a contemplation so deep that it was no longer
painful.
He recalled stories of catalepsy, the
marvels of magnetism, and he said to himself that by willing it with all his
force he might perhaps succeed in reviving her. Once he even bent towards
he, and cried in a low voice, "Emma! Emma!" His strong breathing made the
flames of the candles tremble against the wall.
At daybreak Madame Bovary senior arrived.
Charles as he embraced her burst into another flood of tears. She tried, as
the chemist had done, to make some remarks to him on the expenses of the
funeral. He became so angry that she was silent, and he even commissioned
her to go to town at once and buy what was necessary.
Charles remained alone the whole afternoon;
they had taken Berthe to Madame Homais'; Felicite was in the room upstairs
with Madame Lefrancois.
In the evening he had some visitors. He
rose, pressed their hands, unable to speak. Then they sat down near one
another, and formed a large semicircle in front of the fire. With lowered
faces, and swinging one leg crossed over the other knee, they uttered deep
sighs at intervals; each one was inordinately bored, and yet none would be
the first to go.
Homais, when he returned at nine o'clock
(for the last two days only Homais seemed to have been on the Place), was
laden with a stock of camphor, of benzine, and aromatic herbs. He also
carried a large jar full of chlorine water, to keep off all miasmata. Just
then the servant, Madame Lefrancois, and Madame Bovary senior were busy
about Emma, finishing dressing her, and they were drawing down the long
stiff veil that covered her to her satin shoes.
Felicite was sobbing—"Ah! my poor mistress!
my poor mistress!"
"Look at her," said the landlady, sighing;
"how pretty she still is! Now, couldn't you swear she was going to get up in
a minute?"
Then they bent over her to put on her
wreath. They had to raise the head a little, and a rush of black liquid
issued, as if she were vomiting, from her mouth.
"Oh, goodness! The dress; take care!" cried
Madame Lefrancois. "Now, just come and help," she said to the chemist.
"Perhaps you're afraid?"
"I afraid?" replied he, shrugging his
shoulders. "I dare say! I've seen all sorts of things at the hospital when I
was studying pharmacy. We used to make punch in the dissecting room!
Nothingness does not terrify a philosopher; and, as I often say, I even
intend to leave my body to the hospitals, in order, later on, to serve
science."
The cure on his arrival inquired how
Monsieur Bovary was, and, on the reply of the druggist, went on—"The blow,
you see, is still too recent."
Then Homais congratulated him on not being
exposed, like other people, to the loss of a beloved companion; whence there
followed a discussion on the celibacy of priests.
"For," said the chemist, "it is unnatural
that a man should do without women! There have been crimes—"
"But, good heaven!" cried the ecclesiastic,
"how do you expect an individual who is married to keep the secrets of the
confessional, for example?"
Homais fell foul of the confessional.
Bournisien defended it; he enlarged on the acts of restitution that it
brought about. He cited various anecdotes about thieves who had suddenly
become honest. Military men on approaching the tribunal of penitence had
felt the scales fall from their eyes. At Fribourg there was a minister—
His companion was asleep. Then he felt
somewhat stifled by the over-heavy atmosphere of the room; he opened the
window; this awoke the chemist.
"Come, take a pinch of snuff," he said to
him. "Take it; it'll relieve you."
A continual barking was heard in the
distance. "Do you hear that dog howling?" said the chemist.
"They smell the dead," replied the priest.
"It's like bees; they leave their hives on the decease of any person."
Homais made no remark upon these
prejudices, for he had again dropped asleep. Monsieur Bournisien, stronger
than he, went on moving his lips gently for some time, then insensibly his
chin sank down, he let fall his big black boot, and began to snore.
They sat opposite one another, with
protruding stomachs, puffed-up faces, and frowning looks, after so much
disagreement uniting at last in the same human weakness, and they moved no
more than the corpse by their side, that seemed to be sleeping.
Charles coming in did not wake them. It was
the last time; he came to bid her farewell.
The aromatic herbs were still smoking, and
spirals of bluish vapour blended at the window-sash with the fog that was
coming in. There were few stars, and the night was warm. The wax of the
candles fell in great drops upon the sheets of the bed. Charles watched them
burn, tiring his eyes against the glare of their yellow flame.
The watering on the satin gown shimmered
white as moonlight. Emma was lost beneath it; and it seemed to him that,
spreading beyond her own self, she blended confusedly with everything around
her—the silence, the night, the passing wind, the damp odours rising from
the ground.
Then suddenly he saw her in the garden at
Tostes, on a bench against the thorn hedge, or else at Rouen in the streets,
on the threshold of their house, in the yard at Bertaux. He again heard the
laughter of the happy boys beneath the apple-trees: the room was filled with
the perfume of her hair; and her dress rustled in his arms with a noise like
electricity. The dress was still the same.
For a long while he thus recalled all his
lost joys, her attitudes, her movements, the sound of her voice. Upon one
fit of despair followed another, and even others, inexhaustible as the waves
of an overflowing sea.
A terrible curiosity seized him. Slowly,
with the tips of his fingers, palpitating, he lifted her veil. But he
uttered a cry of horror that awoke the other two.
They dragged him down into the
sitting-room. Then Felicite came up to say that he wanted some of her hair.
"Cut some off," replied the druggist.
And as she did not dare to, he himself
stepped forward, scissors in hand. He trembled so that he pierced the skin
of the temple in several places. At last, stiffening himself against
emotion, Homais gave two or three great cuts at random that left white
patches amongst that beautiful black hair.
The chemist and the cure plunged anew into
their occupations, not without sleeping from time to time, of which they
accused each other reciprocally at each fresh awakening. Then Monsieur
Bournisien sprinkled the room with holy water and Homais threw a little
chlorine water on the floor.
Felicite had taken care to put on the chest
of drawers, for each of them, a bottle of brandy, some cheese, and a large
roll. And the druggist, who could not hold out any longer, about four in the
morning sighed—
"My word! I should like to take some
sustenance."
The priest did not need any persuading; he
went out to go and say mass, came back, and then they ate and hobnobbed,
giggling a little without knowing why, stimulated by that vague gaiety that
comes upon us after times of sadness, and at the last glass the priest said
to the druggist, as he clapped him on the shoulder—
"We shall end by understanding one
another."
In the passage downstairs they met the
undertaker's men, who were coming in. Then Charles for two hours had to
suffer the torture of hearing the hammer resound against the wood. Next day
they lowered her into her oak coffin, that was fitted into the other two;
but as the bier was too large, they had to fill up the gaps with the wool of
a mattress. At last, when the three lids had been planed down, nailed,
soldered, it was placed outside in front of the door; the house was thrown
open, and the people of Yonville began to flock round.
Old Rouault arrived, and fainted on the
Place when he saw the black cloth!
Chapter Ten
He had only received the chemist's letter
thirty-six hours after the event; and, from consideration for his feelings,
Homais had so worded it that it was impossible to make out what it was all
about.
First, the old fellow had fallen as if
struck by apoplexy. Next, he understood that she was not dead, but she might
be. At last, he had put on his blouse, taken his hat, fastened his spurs to
his boots, and set out at full speed; and the whole of the way old Rouault,
panting, was torn by anguish. Once even he was obliged to dismount. He was
dizzy; he heard voices round about him; he felt himself going mad.
Day broke. He saw three black hens asleep
in a tree. He shuddered, horrified at this omen. Then he promised the Holy
Virgin three chasubles for the church, and that he would go barefooted from
the cemetery at Bertaux to the chapel of Vassonville.
He entered Maromme shouting for the people
of the inn, burst open the door with a thrust of his shoulder, made for a
sack of oats, emptied a bottle of sweet cider into the manger, and again
mounted his nag, whose feet struck fire as it dashed along.
He said to himself that no doubt they would
save her; the doctors would discover some remedy surely. He remembered all
the miraculous cures he had been told about. Then she appeared to him dead.
She was there; before his eyes, lying on her back in the middle of the road.
He reined up, and the hallucination disappeared.
At Quincampoix, to give himself heart, he
drank three cups of coffee one after the other. He fancied they had made a
mistake in the name in writing. He looked for the letter in his pocket, felt
it there, but did not dare to open it.
At last he began to think it was all a
joke; someone's spite, the jest of some wag; and besides, if she were dead,
one would have known it. But no! There was nothing extraordinary about the
country; the sky was blue, the trees swayed; a flock of sheep passed. He saw
the village; he was seen coming bending forward upon his horse, belabouring
it with great blows, the girths dripping with blood.
When he had recovered consciousness, he
fell, weeping, into Bovary's arms: "My girl! Emma! my child! tell me—"
The other replied, sobbing, "I don't know!
I don't know! It's a curse!"
The druggist separated them. "These
horrible details are useless. I will tell this gentleman all about it. Here
are the people coming. Dignity! Come now! Philosophy!"
The poor fellow tried to show himself
brave, and repeated several times. "Yes! courage!"
"Oh," cried the old man, "so I will have,
by God! I'll go along o' her to the end!"
The bell began tolling. All was ready; they
had to start. And seated in a stall of the choir, side by side, they saw
pass and repass in front of them continually the three chanting choristers.
The serpent-player was blowing with all his
might. Monsieur Bournisien, in full vestments, was singing in a shrill
voice. He bowed before the tabernacle, raising his hands, stretched out his
arms. Lestiboudois went about the church with his whalebone stick. The bier
stood near the lectern, between four rows of candles. Charles felt inclined
to get up and put them out.
Yet he tried to stir himself to a feeling
of devotion, to throw himself into the hope of a future life in which he
should see her again. He imagined to himself she had gone on a long journey,
far away, for a long time. But when he thought of her lying there, and that
all was over, that they would lay her in the earth, he was seized with a
fierce, gloomy, despairful rage. At times he thought he felt nothing more,
and he enjoyed this lull in his pain, whilst at the same time he reproached
himself for being a wretch.
The sharp noise of an iron-ferruled stick
was heard on the stones, striking them at irregular intervals. It came from
the end of the church, and stopped short at the lower aisles. A man in a
coarse brown jacket knelt down painfully. It was Hippolyte, the stable-boy
at the "Lion d'Or." He had put on his new leg.
One of the choristers went round the nave
making a collection, and the coppers chinked one after the other on the
silver plate.
"Oh, make haste! I am in pain!" cried
Bovary, angrily throwing him a five-franc piece. The churchman thanked him
with a deep bow.
They sang, they knelt, they stood up; it
was endless! He remembered that once, in the early times, they had been to
mass together, and they had sat down on the other side, on the right, by the
wall. The bell began again. There was a great moving of chairs; the bearers
slipped their three staves under the coffin, and everyone left the church.
Then Justin appeared at the door of the
shop. He suddenly went in again, pale, staggering.
People were at the windows to see the
procession pass. Charles at the head walked erect. He affected a brave air,
and saluted with a nod those who, coming out from the lanes or from their
doors, stood amidst the crowd.
The six men, three on either side, walked
slowly, panting a little. The priests, the choristers, and the two choirboys
recited the De profundis*, and their voices echoed over the fields, rising
and falling with their undulations. Sometimes they disappeared in the
windings of the path; but the great silver cross rose always before the
trees.
*Psalm CXXX.
The women followed in black cloaks with
turned-down hoods; each of them carried in her hands a large lighted candle,
and Charles felt himself growing weaker at this continual repetition of
prayers and torches, beneath this oppressive odour of wax and of cassocks. A
fresh breeze was blowing; the rye and colza were sprouting, little dewdrops
trembled at the roadsides and on the hawthorn hedges. All sorts of joyous
sounds filled the air; the jolting of a cart rolling afar off in the ruts,
the crowing of a cock, repeated again and again, or the gambling of a foal
running away under the apple-trees: The pure sky was fretted with rosy
clouds; a bluish haze rested upon the cots covered with iris. Charles as he
passed recognised each courtyard. He remembered mornings like this, when,
after visiting some patient, he came out from one and returned to her.
The black cloth bestrewn with white beads
blew up from time to time, laying bare the coffin. The tired bearers walked
more slowly, and it advanced with constant jerks, like a boat that pitches
with every wave.
They reached the cemetery. The men went
right down to a place in the grass where a grave was dug. They ranged
themselves all round; and while the priest spoke, the red soil thrown up at
the sides kept noiselessly slipping down at the corners.
Then when the four ropes were arranged the
coffin was placed upon them. He watched it descend; it seemed descending for
ever. At last a thud was heard; the ropes creaked as they were drawn up.
Then Bournisien took the spade handed to him by Lestiboudois; with his left
hand all the time sprinkling water, with the right he vigorously threw in a
large spadeful; and the wood of the coffin, struck by the pebbles, gave
forth that dread sound that seems to us the reverberation of eternity.
The ecclesiastic passed the holy water
sprinkler to his neighbour. This was Homais. He swung it gravely, then
handed it to Charles, who sank to his knees in the earth and threw in
handfuls of it, crying, "Adieu!" He sent her kisses; he dragged himself
towards the grave, to engulf himself with her. They led him away, and he
soon grew calmer, feeling perhaps, like the others, a vague satisfaction
that it was all over.
Old Rouault on his way back began quietly
smoking a pipe, which Homais in his innermost conscience thought not quite
the thing. He also noticed that Monsieur Binet had not been present, and
that Tuvache had "made off" after mass, and that Theodore, the notary's
servant wore a blue coat, "as if one could not have got a black coat, since
that is the custom, by Jove!" And to share his observations with others he
went from group to group. They were deploring Emma's death, especially
Lheureux, who had not failed to come to the funeral.
"Poor little woman! What a trouble for her
husband!"
The druggist continued, "Do you know that
but for me he would have committed some fatal attempt upon himself?"
"Such a good woman! To think that I saw her
only last Saturday in my shop."
"I haven't had leisure," said Homais, "to
prepare a few words that I would have cast upon her tomb."
Charles on getting home undressed, and old
Rouault put on his blue blouse. It was a new one, and as he had often during
the journey wiped his eyes on the sleeves, the dye had stained his face, and
the traces of tears made lines in the layer of dust that covered it.
Madame Bovary senior was with them. All
three were silent. At last the old fellow sighed—
"Do you remember, my friend, that I went to
Tostes once when you had just lost your first deceased? I consoled you at
that time. I thought of something to say then, but now—" Then, with a loud
groan that shook his whole chest, "Ah! this is the end for me, do you see! I
saw my wife go, then my son, and now to-day it's my daughter."
He wanted to go back at once to Bertaux,
saying that he could not sleep in this house. He even refused to see his
granddaughter.
"No, no! It would grieve me too much. Only
you'll kiss her many times for me. Good-bye! you're a good fellow! And then
I shall never forget that," he said, slapping his thigh. "Never fear, you
shall always have your turkey."
But when he reached the top of the hill he
turned back, as he had turned once before on the road of Saint-Victor when
he had parted from her. The windows of the village were all on fire beneath
the slanting rays of the sun sinking behind the field. He put his hand over
his eyes, and saw in the horizon an enclosure of walls, where trees here and
there formed black clusters between white stones; then he went on his way at
a gentle trot, for his nag had gone lame.
Despite their fatigue, Charles and his
mother stayed very long that evening talking together. They spoke of the
days of the past and of the future. She would come to live at Yonville; she
would keep house for him; they would never part again. She was ingenious and
caressing, rejoicing in her heart at gaining once more an affection that had
wandered from her for so many years. Midnight struck. The village as usual
was silent, and Charles, awake, thought always of her.
Rodolphe, who, to distract himself, had
been rambling about the wood all day, was sleeping quietly in his chateau,
and Leon, down yonder, always slept.
There was another who at that hour was not
asleep.
On the grave between the pine-trees a child
was on his knees weeping, and his heart, rent by sobs, was beating in the
shadow beneath the load of an immense regret, sweeter than the moon and
fathomless as the night. The gate suddenly grated. It was Lestiboudois; he
came to fetch his spade, that he had forgotten. He recognised Justin
climbing over the wall, and at last knew who was the culprit who stole his
potatoes.
Chapter Eleven
The next day Charles had the child brought
back. She asked for her mamma. They told her she was away; that she would
bring her back some playthings. Berthe spoke of her again several times,
then at last thought no more of her. The child's gaiety broke Bovary's
heart, and he had to bear besides the intolerable consolations of the
chemist.
Money troubles soon began again, Monsieur
Lheureux urging on anew his friend Vincart, and Charles pledged himself for
exorbitant sums; for he would never consent to let the smallest of the
things that had belonged to HER be sold. His mother was exasperated with
him; he grew even more angry than she did. He had altogether changed. She
left the house.
Then everyone began "taking advantage" of
him. Mademoiselle Lempereur presented a bill for six months' teaching,
although Emma had never taken a lesson (despite the receipted bill she had
shown Bovary); it was an arrangement between the two women. The man at the
circulating library demanded three years' subscriptions; Mere Rollet claimed
the postage due for some twenty letters, and when Charles asked for an
explanation, she had the delicacy to reply—
"Oh, I don't know. It was for her business
affairs."
With every debt he paid Charles thought he
had come to the end of them. But others followed ceaselessly. He sent in
accounts for professional attendance. He was shown the letters his wife had
written. Then he had to apologise.
Felicite now wore Madame Bovary's gowns;
not all, for he had kept some of them, and he went to look at them in her
dressing-room, locking himself up there; she was about her height, and often
Charles, seeing her from behind, was seized with an illusion, and cried out—
"Oh, stay, stay!"
But at Whitsuntide she ran away from
Yonville, carried off by Theodore, stealing all that was left of the
wardrobe.
It was about this time that the widow
Dupuis had the honour to inform him of the "marriage of Monsieur Leon Dupuis
her son, notary at Yvetot, to Mademoiselle Leocadie Leboeuf of Bondeville."
Charles, among the other congratulations he sent him, wrote this sentence—
"How glad my poor wife would have been!"
One day when, wandering aimlessly about the
house, he had gone up to the attic, he felt a pellet of fine paper under his
slipper. He opened it and read: "Courage, Emma, courage. I would not bring
misery into your life." It was Rodolphe's letter, fallen to the ground
between the boxes, where it had remained, and that the wind from the dormer
window had just blown towards the door. And Charles stood, motionless and
staring, in the very same place where, long ago, Emma, in despair, and paler
even than he, had thought of dying. At last he discovered a small R at the
bottom of the second page. What did this mean? He remembered Rodolphe's
attentions, his sudden, disappearance, his constrained air when they had met
two or three times since. But the respectful tone of the letter deceived
him.
"Perhaps they loved one another
platonically," he said to himself.
Besides, Charles was not of those who go to
the bottom of things; he shrank from the proofs, and his vague jealousy was
lost in the immensity of his woe.
Everyone, he thought, must have adored her;
all men assuredly must have coveted her. She seemed but the more beautiful
to him for this; he was seized with a lasting, furious desire for her, that
inflamed his despair, and that was boundless, because it was now
unrealisable.
To please her, as if she were still living,
he adopted her predilections, her ideas; he bought patent leather boots and
took to wearing white cravats. He put cosmetics on his moustache, and, like
her, signed notes of hand. She corrupted him from beyond the grave.
He was obliged to sell his silver piece by
piece; next he sold the drawing-room furniture. All the rooms were stripped;
but the bedroom, her own room, remained as before. After his dinner Charles
went up there. He pushed the round table in front of the fire, and drew up
her armchair. He sat down opposite it. A candle burnt in one of the gilt
candlesticks. Berthe by his side was painting prints.
He suffered, poor man, at seeing her so
badly dressed, with laceless boots, and the arm-holes of her pinafore torn
down to the hips; for the charwoman took no care of her. But she was so
sweet, so pretty, and her little head bent forward so gracefully, letting
the dear fair hair fall over her rosy cheeks, that an infinite joy came upon
him, a happiness mingled with bitterness, like those ill-made wines that
taste of resin. He mended her toys, made her puppets from cardboard, or
sewed up half-torn dolls. Then, if his eyes fell upon the workbox, a ribbon
lying about, or even a pin left in a crack of the table, he began to dream,
and looked so sad that she became as sad as he.
No one now came to see them, for Justin had
run away to Rouen, where he was a grocer's assistant, and the druggist's
children saw less and less of the child, Monsieur Homais not caring, seeing
the difference of their social position, to continue the intimacy.
The blind man, whom he had not been able to
cure with the pomade, had gone back to the hill of Bois-Guillaume, where he
told the travellers of the vain attempt of the druggist, to such an extent,
that Homais when he went to town hid himself behind the curtains of the
"Hirondelle" to avoid meeting him. He detested him, and wishing, in the
interests of his own reputation, to get rid of him at all costs, he directed
against him a secret battery, that betrayed the depth of his intellect and
the baseness of his vanity. Thus, for six consecutive months, one could read
in the "Fanal de Rouen" editorials such as these—
"All who bend their steps towards the
fertile plains of Picardy have, no doubt, remarked, by the Bois-Guillaume
hill, a wretch suffering from a horrible facial wound. He importunes,
persecutes one, and levies a regular tax on all travellers. Are we still
living in the monstrous times of the Middle Ages, when vagabonds were
permitted to display in our public places leprosy and scrofulas they had
brought back from the Crusades?"
Or—
"In spite of the laws against vagabondage,
the approaches to our great towns continue to be infected by bands of
beggars. Some are seen going about alone, and these are not, perhaps, the
least dangerous. What are our ediles about?"
Then Homais invented anecdotes—
"Yesterday, by the Bois-Guillaume hill, a
skittish horse—" And then followed the story of an accident caused by the
presence of the blind man.
He managed so well that the fellow was
locked up. But he was released. He began again, and Homais began again. It
was a struggle. Homais won it, for his foe was condemned to life-long
confinement in an asylum.
This success emboldened him, and henceforth
there was no longer a dog run over, a barn burnt down, a woman beaten in the
parish, of which he did not immediately inform the public, guided always by
the love of progress and the hate of priests. He instituted comparisons
between the elementary and clerical schools to the detriment of the latter;
called to mind the massacre of St. Bartholomew a propos of a grant of one
hundred francs to the church, and denounced abuses, aired new views. That
was his phrase. Homais was digging and delving; he was becoming dangerous.
However, he was stifling in the narrow
limits of journalism, and soon a book, a work was necessary to him. Then he
composed "General Statistics of the Canton of Yonville, followed by
Climatological Remarks." The statistics drove him to philosophy. He busied
himself with great questions: the social problem, moralisation of the poorer
classes, pisciculture, caoutchouc, railways, etc. He even began to blush at
being a bourgeois. He affected the artistic style, he smoked. He bought two
chic Pompadour statuettes to adorn his drawing-room.
He by no means gave up his shop. On the
contrary, he kept well abreast of new discoveries. He followed the great
movement of chocolates; he was the first to introduce "cocoa" and
"revalenta" into the Seine-Inferieure. He was enthusiastic about the
hydro-electric Pulvermacher chains; he wore one himself, and when at night
he took off his flannel vest, Madame Homais stood quite dazzled before the
golden spiral beneath which he was hidden, and felt her ardour redouble for
this man more bandaged than a Scythian, and splendid as one of the Magi.
He had fine ideas about Emma's tomb. First
he proposed a broken column with some drapery, next a pyramid, then a Temple
of Vesta, a sort of rotunda, or else a "mass of ruins." And in all his plans
Homais always stuck to the weeping willow, which he looked upon as the
indispensable symbol of sorrow.
Charles and he made a journey to Rouen
together to look at some tombs at a funeral furnisher's, accompanied by an
artist, one Vaufrylard, a friend of Bridoux's, who made puns all the time.
At last, after having examined some hundred designs, having ordered an
estimate and made another journey to Rouen, Charles decided in favour of a
mausoleum, which on the two principal sides was to have a "spirit bearing an
extinguished torch."
As to the inscription, Homais could think
of nothing so fine as Sta viator*, and he got no further; he racked his
brain, he constantly repeated Sta viator. At last he hit upon Amabilen
conjugem calcas**, which was adopted.
* Rest traveler.
** Tread upon a loving wife.
A strange thing was that Bovary, while
continually thinking of Emma, was forgetting her. He grew desperate as he
felt this image fading from his memory in spite of all efforts to retain it.
Yet every night he dreamt of her; it was always the same dream. He drew near
her, but when he was about to clasp her she fell into decay in his arms.
For a week he was seen going to church in
the evening. Monsieur Bournisien even paid him two or three visits, then
gave him up. Moreover, the old fellow was growing intolerant, fanatic, said
Homais. He thundered against the spirit of the age, and never failed, every
other week, in his sermon, to recount the death agony of Voltaire, who died
devouring his excrements, as everyone knows.
In spite of the economy with which Bovary
lived, he was far from being able to pay off his old debts. Lheureux refused
to renew any more bills. A distraint became imminent. Then he appealed to
his mother, who consented to let him take a mortgage on her property, but
with a great many recriminations against Emma; and in return for her
sacrifice she asked for a shawl that had escaped the depredations of
Felicite. Charles refused to give it her; they quarrelled.
She made the first overtures of
reconciliation by offering to have the little girl, who could help her in
the house, to live with her. Charles consented to this, but when the time
for parting came, all his courage failed him. Then there was a final,
complete rupture.
As his affections vanished, he clung more
closely to the love of his child. She made him anxious, however, for she
coughed sometimes, and had red spots on her cheeks.
Opposite his house, flourishing and merry,
was the family of the chemist, with whom everything was prospering. Napoleon
helped him in the laboratory, Athalie embroidered him a skullcap, Irma cut
out rounds of paper to cover the preserves, and Franklin recited Pythagoras'
table in a breath. He was the happiest of fathers, the most fortunate of
men.
Not so! A secret ambition devoured him.
Homais hankered after the cross of the Legion of Honour. He had plenty of
claims to it.
"First, having at the time of the cholera
distinguished myself by a boundless devotion; second, by having published,
at my expense, various works of public utility, such as" (and he recalled
his pamphlet entitled, "Cider, its manufacture and effects," besides
observation on the lanigerous plant-louse, sent to the Academy; his volume
of statistics, and down to his pharmaceutical thesis); "without counting
that I am a member of several learned societies" (he was member of a single
one).
"In short!" he cried, making a pirouette,
"if it were only for distinguishing myself at fires!"
Then Homais inclined towards the
Government. He secretly did the prefect great service during the elections.
He sold himself—in a word, prostituted himself. He even addressed a petition
to the sovereign in which he implored him to "do him justice"; he called him
"our good king," and compared him to Henri IV.
And every morning the druggist rushed for
the paper to see if his nomination were in it. It was never there. At last,
unable to bear it any longer, he had a grass plot in his garden designed to
represent the Star of the Cross of Honour with two little strips of grass
running from the top to imitate the ribband. He walked round it with folded
arms, meditating on the folly of the Government and the ingratitude of men.
From respect, or from a sort of sensuality
that made him carry on his investigations slowly, Charles had not yet opened
the secret drawer of a rosewood desk which Emma had generally used. One day,
however, he sat down before it, turned the key, and pressed the spring. All
Leon's letters were there. There could be no doubt this time. He devoured
them to the very last, ransacked every corner, all the furniture, all the
drawers, behind the walls, sobbing, crying aloud, distraught, mad. He found
a box and broke it open with a kick. Rodolphe's portrait flew full in his
face in the midst of the overturned love-letters.
People wondered at his despondency. He
never went out, saw no one, refused even to visit his patients. Then they
said "he shut himself up to drink."
Sometimes, however, some curious person
climbed on to the garden hedge, and saw with amazement this long-bearded,
shabbily clothed, wild man, who wept aloud as he walked up and down.
In the evening in summer he took his little
girl with him and led her to the cemetery. They came back at nightfall, when
the only light left in the Place was that in Binet's window.
The voluptuousness of his grief was,
however, incomplete, for he had no one near him to share it, and he paid
visits to Madame Lefrancois to be able to speak of her.
But the landlady only listened with half an
ear, having troubles like himself. For Lheureux had at last established the
"Favorites du Commerce," and Hivert, who enjoyed a great reputation for
doing errands, insisted on a rise of wages, and was threatening to go over
"to the opposition shop."
One day when he had gone to the market at
Argueil to sell his horse—his last resource—he met Rodolphe.
They both turned pale when they caught
sight of one another. Rodolphe, who had only sent his card, first stammered
some apologies, then grew bolder, and even pushed his assurance (it was in
the month of August and very hot) to the length of inviting him to have a
bottle of beer at the public-house.
Leaning on the table opposite him, he
chewed his cigar as he talked, and Charles was lost in reverie at this face
that she had loved. He seemed to see again something of her in it. It was a
marvel to him. He would have liked to have been this man.
The other went on talking agriculture,
cattle, pasturage, filling out with banal phrases all the gaps where an
allusion might slip in. Charles was not listening to him; Rodolphe noticed
it, and he followed the succession of memories that crossed his face. This
gradually grew redder; the nostrils throbbed fast, the lips quivered. There
was at last a moment when Charles, full of a sombre fury, fixed his eyes on
Rodolphe, who, in something of fear, stopped talking. But soon the same look
of weary lassitude came back to his face.
"I don't blame you," he said.
Rodolphe was dumb. And Charles, his head in
his hands, went on in a broken voice, and with the resigned accent of
infinite sorrow—
"No, I don't blame you now."
He even added a fine phrase, the only one
he ever made—
"It is the fault of fatality!"
Rodolphe, who had managed the fatality,
thought the remark very offhand from a man in his position, comic even, and
a little mean.
The next day Charles went to sit down on
the seat in the arbour. Rays of light were straying through the trellis, the
vine leaves threw their shadows on the sand, the jasmines perfumed the air,
the heavens were blue, Spanish flies buzzed round the lilies in bloom, and
Charles was suffocating like a youth beneath the vague love influences that
filled his aching heart.
At seven o'clock little Berthe, who had not
seen him all the afternoon, went to fetch him to dinner.
His head was thrown back against the wall,
his eyes closed, his mouth open, and in his hand was a long tress of black
hair.
"Come along, papa," she said.
And thinking he wanted to play; she pushed
him gently. He fell to the ground. He was dead.
Thirty-six hours after, at the druggist's
request, Monsieur Canivet came thither. He made a post-mortem and found
nothing.
When everything had been sold, twelve
francs seventy-five centimes remained, that served to pay for Mademoiselle
Bovary's going to her grandmother. The good woman died the same year; old
Rouault was paralysed, and it was an aunt who took charge of her. She is
poor, and sends her to a cotton-factory to earn a living.
Since Bovary's death three doctors have
followed one another at Yonville without any success, so severely did Homais
attack them. He has an enormous practice; the authorities treat him with
consideration, and public opinion protects him.
He has just received the cross of the
Legion of Honour.