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CHAPTER I
START IN LIFE
I WAS born in the year 1632, in
the city of York, of a good family, though not of that country,
my father being a foreigner of Bremen, who settled first at
Hull. He got a good estate by merchandise, and leaving off his
trade, lived afterwards at York, from whence he had married my
mother, whose relations were named Robinson, a very good family
in that country, and from whom I was called Robinson Kreutznaer;
but, by the usual corruption of words in England, we are now
called nay we call ourselves and write our name Crusoe; and so
my companions always called me.
I had two elder
brothers, one of whom was lieutenant-colonel to
an English regiment of foot in Flanders,
formerly commanded by the famous Colonel
Lockhart, and was killed at the battle near
Dunkirk against the Spaniards. What became of my
second brother I never knew, any more than my
father or mother knew what became of me.
Being the third
son of the family and not bred to any trade, my
head began to be filled very early with rambling
thoughts. My father, who was very ancient, had
given me a competent share of learning, as far
as house-education and a country free school
generally go, and designed me for the law; but I
would be satisfied with nothing but going to
sea; and my inclination to this led me so
strongly against the will, nay, the commands of
my father, and against all the entreaties and
persuasions of my mother and other friends, that
there seemed to be something fatal in that
propensity of nature, tending directly to the
life of misery which was to befall me.
My father, a
wise and grave man, gave me serious and
excellent counsel against what he foresaw was my
design. He called me one morning into his
chamber, where he was confined by the gout, and
expostulated very warmly with me upon this
subject. He asked me what reasons, more than a
mere wandering inclination, I had for leaving
father`s house and my native country, where I
might be well introduced, and had a prospect of
raising my fortune by application and industry,
with a life of ease and pleasure. He told me it
was men of desperate fortunes on one hand, or of
aspiring, superior fortunes on the other, who
went abroad upon adventures, to rise by
enterprise, and make themselves famous in
undertakings of a nature out of the common road;
that these things were all either too far above
me or too far below me; that mine was the middle
state, or what might be called the upper station
of low life, which he had found, by long
experience, was the best state in the world, the
most suited to human happiness, not exposed to
the miseries and hardships, the labour and
sufferings of the mechanic part of mankind, and
not embarrassed with the pride, luxury,
ambition, and envy of the upper part of mankind.
He told me I might judge of the happiness of
this state by this one thing viz. that this was
the state of life which all other people envied;
that kings have frequently lamented the
miserable consequence of being born to great
things, and wished they had been placed in the
middle of the two extremes, between the mean and
the great; that the wise man gave his testimony
to this, as the standard of felicity, when he
prayed to have neither poverty nor riches.
He bade me
observe it, and I should always find that the
calamities of life were shared among the upper
and lower part of mankind, but that the middle
station had the fewest disasters, and was not
exposed to so many vicissitudes as the higher or
lower part of mankind; nay, they were not
subjected to so many distempers and
uneasinesses, either of body or mind, as those
were who, by vicious living, luxury, and
extravagances on the one hand, or by hard
labour, want of necessaries, and mean or
insufficient diet on the other hand, bring
distemper upon themselves by the natural
consequences of their way of living; that the
middle station of life was calculated for all
kind of virtue and all kind of enjoyments; that
peace and plenty were the handmaids of a middle
fortune; that temperance, moderation, quietness,
health, society, all agreeable diversions, and
all desirable pleasures, were the blessings
attending the middle station of life; that this
way men went silently and smoothly through the
world, and comfortably out of it, not
embarrassed with the labours of the hands or of
the head, not sold to a life of slavery for
daily bread, nor harassed with perplexed
circumstances, which rob the soul of peace and
the body of rest, nor enraged with the passion
of envy, or the secret burning lust of ambition
for great things; but, in easy circumstances,
sliding gently through the world, and sensibly
tasting the sweets of living, without the
bitter; feeling that they are happy, and
learning by every day`s experience to know it
more sensibly,
After this he
pressed me earnestly, and in the most
affectionate manner, not to play the young man,
nor to precipitate myself into miseries which
nature, and the station of life I was born in,
seemed to have provided against; that I was
under no necessity of seeking my bread; that he
would do well for me, and endeavour to enter me
fairly into the station of life which he had
just been recommending to me; and that if I was
not very easy and happy in the world, it must be
my mere fate or fault that must hinder it; and
that he should have nothing to answer for,
having thus discharged his duty in warning me
against measures which he knew would be to my
hurt; in a word, that as he would do very kind
things for me if I would stay and settle at home
as he directed, so he would not have so much
hand in my misfortunes as to give me any
encouragement to go away; and to close all, he
told me I had my elder brother for an example,
to whom he had used the same earnest persuasions
to keep him from going into the Low Country
wars, but could not prevail, his young desires
prompting him to run into the army, where he was
killed; and though he said he would not cease to
pray for me, yet he would venture to say to me,
that if I did take this foolish step, God would
not bless me, and I should have leisure
hereafter to reflect upon having neglected his
counsel when there might be none to assist in my
recovery.
I observed in
this last part of his discourse, which was truly
prophetic, though I suppose my father did not
know it to be so himself I say, I observed the
tears run down his face very plentifully,
especially when he spoke of my brother who was
killed: and that when he spoke of my having
leisure to repent, and none to assist me, he was
so moved that he broke off the discourse, and
told me his heart was so full he could say no
more to me.
I was sincerely
affected with this discourse, and, indeed, who
could be otherwise? and I resolved not to think
of going abroad any more, but to settle at home
according to my father`s desire. But alas! a few
days wore it all off; and, in short, to prevent
any of my father`s further importunities, in a
few weeks after I resolved to run quite away
from him. However, I did not act quite so
hastily as the first heat of my resolution
prompted; but I took my mother at a time when I
thought her a little more pleasant than
ordinary, and told her that my thoughts were so
entirely bent upon seeing the world that I
should never settle to anything with resolution
enough to go through with it, and my father had
better give me his consent than force me to go
without it; that I was now eighteen years old,
which was too late to go apprentice to a trade
or clerk to an attorney; that I was sure if I
did I should never serve out my time, but I
should certainly run away from my master before
my time was out, and go to sea; and if she would
speak to my father to let me go one voyage
abroad, if I came home again, and did not like
it, I would go no more; and I would promise, by
a double diligence, to recover the time that I
had lost.
This put my
mother into a great passion; she told me she
knew it would be to no purpose to speak to my
father upon any such subject; that he knew too
well what was my interest to give his consent to
anything so much for my hurt; and that she
wondered how I could think of any such thing
after the discourse I had had with my father,
and such kind and tender expressions as she knew
my father had used to me; and that, in short, if
I would ruin myself, there was no help for me;
but I might depend I should never have their
consent to it; that for her part she would not
have so much hand in my destruction; and I
should never have it to say that my mother was
willing when my father was not.
Though my
mother refused to move it to my father, yet I
heard afterwards that she reported all the
discourse to him, and that my father, after
showing a great concern at it, said to her, with
a sigh, "That boy might be happy if he would
stay at home; but if he goes abroad, he will be
the most miserable wretch that ever was born: I
can give no consent to it."
It was not till
almost a year after this that I broke loose,
though, in the meantime, I continued obstinately
deaf to all proposals of settling to business,
and frequently expostulated with my father and
mother about their being so positively
determined against what they knew my
inclinations prompted me to. But being one day
at Hull, where I went casually, and without any
purpose of making an elopement at that time;
but, I say, being there, and one of my
companions being about to sail to London in his
father`s ship, and prompting me to go with them
with the common allurement of seafaring men,
that it should cost me nothing for my passage, I
consulted neither father nor mother any more,
nor so much as sent them word of it; but leaving
them to hear of it as they might, without asking
God`s blessing or my father`s, without any
consideration of circumstances or consequences,
and in an ill hour, God knows, on the 1st of
September 1651, I went on board a ship bound for
London. Never any young adventurer`s
misfortunes, I believe, began sooner, or
continued longer than mine. The ship was no
sooner out of the Humber than the wind began to
blow and the sea to rise in a most frightful
manner; and, as I had never been at sea before,
I was most inexpressibly sick in body and
terrified in mind. I began now seriously to
reflect upon what I had done, and how justly I
was overtaken by the judgment of Heaven for my
wicked leaving my father`s house, and abandoning
my duty. All the good counsels of my parents, my
father`s tears and my mother`s entreaties, came
now fresh into my mind; and my conscience, which
was not yet come to the pitch of hardness to
which it has since, reproached me with the
contempt of advice, and the breach of my duty to
God and my father.
All this while
the storm increased, and the sea went very high,
though nothing like what I have seen many times
since; no, nor what I saw a few days after; but
it was enough to affect me then, who was but a
young sailor, and had never known anything of
the matter. I expected every wave would have
swallowed us up, and that every time the ship
fell down, as I thought it did, in the trough or
hollow of the sea, we should never rise more; in
this agony of mind, I made many vows and
resolutions that if it would please God to spare
my life in this one voyage, if ever I got once
my foot upon dry land again, I would go directly
home to my father, and never set it into a ship
again while I lived; that I would take his
advice, and never run myself into such miseries
as these any more. Now I saw plainly the
goodness of his observations about the middle
station of life, how easy, how comfortably he
had lived all his days, and never had been
exposed to tempests at sea or troubles on shore;
and I resolved that I would, like a true
repenting prodigal, go home to my father.
These wise and
sober thoughts continued all the while the storm
lasted, and indeed some time after; but the next
day the wind was abated, and the sea calmer, and
I began to be a little inured to it; however, I
was very grave for all that day, being also a
little sea-sick still; but towards night the
weather cleared up, the wind was quite over, and
a charming fine evening followed; the sun went
down perfectly clear, and rose so the next
morning; and having little or no wind, and a
smooth sea, the sun shining upon it, the sight
was, as I thought, the most delightful that ever
I saw.
I had slept
well in the night, and was now no more sea-sick,
but very cheerful, looking with wonder upon the
sea that was so rough and terrible the day
before, and could be so calm and so pleasant in
so little a time after. And now, lest my good
resolutions should continue, my companion, who
had enticed me away, comes to me; "Well, Bob,"
says he, clapping me upon the shoulder, "how do
you do after it? I warrant you were frighted,
wer`n`t you, last night, when it blew but a
capful of wind?" "A capful d`you call it?" said
I; "`twas a terrible storm." "A storm, you fool
you," replies he; "do you call that a storm?
why, it was nothing at all; give us but a good
ship and sea-room, and we think nothing of such
a squall of wind as that; but you`re but a
fresh-water sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a
bowl of punch, and we`ll forget all that; d`ye
see what charming weather `tis now?" To make
short this sad part of my story, we went the way
of all sailors; the punch was made and I was
made half drunk with it: and in that one night`s
wickedness I drowned all my repentance, all my
reflections upon my past conduct, all my
resolutions for the future. In a word, as the
sea was returned to its smoothness of surface
and settled calmness by the abatement of that
storm, so the hurry of my thoughts being over,
my fears and apprehensions of being swallowed up
by the sea being forgotten, and the current of
my former desires returned, I entirely forgot
the vows and promises that I made in my
distress. I found, indeed, some intervals of
reflection; and the serious thoughts did, as it
were, endeavour to return again sometimes; but I
shook them off, and roused myself from them as
it were from a distemper, and applying myself to
drinking and company, soon mastered the return
of those fits for so I called them; and I had in
five or six days got as complete a victory over
conscience as any young fellow that resolved not
to be troubled with it could desire. But I was
to have another trial for it still; and
Providence, as in such cases generally it does,
resolved to leave me entirely without excuse;
for if I would not take this for a deliverance,
the next was to be such a one as the worst and
most hardened wretch among us would confess both
the danger and the mercy of.
The sixth day
of our being at sea we came into Yarmouth Roads;
the wind having been contrary and the weather
calm, we had made but little way since the
storm. Here we were obliged to come to an
anchor, and here we lay, the wind continuing
contrary viz. at south-west for seven or eight
days, during which time a great many ships from
Newcastle came into the same Roads, as the
common harbour where the ships might wait for a
wind for the river.
We had not,
however, rid here so long but we should have
tided it up the river, but that the wind blew
too fresh, and after we had lain four or five
days, blew very hard. However, the Roads being
reckoned as good as a harbour, the anchorage
good, and our groundtackle very strong, our men
were unconcerned, and not in the least
apprehensive of danger, but spent the time in
rest and mirth, after the manner of the sea; but
the eighth day, in the morning, the wind
increased, and we had all hands at work to
strike our topmasts, and make everything snug
and close, that the ship might ride as easy as
possible. By noon the sea went very high indeed,
and our ship rode forecastle in, shipped several
seas, and we thought once or twice our anchor
had come home; upon which our master ordered out
the sheet-anchor, so that we rode with two
anchors ahead, and the cables veered out to the
bitter end.
By this time it
blew a terrible storm indeed; and now I began to
see terror and amazement in the faces even of
the seamen themselves. The master, though
vigilant in the business of preserving the ship,
yet as he went in and out of his cabin by me, I
could hear him softly to himself say, several
times, "Lord be merciful to us! we shall be all
lost! we shall be all undone!" and the like.
During these first hurries I was stupid, lying
still in my cabin, which was in the steerage,
and cannot describe my temper: I could ill
resume the first penitence which I had so
apparently trampled upon and hardened myself
against: I thought the bitterness of death had
been past, and that this would be nothing like
the first; but when the master himself came by
me, as I said just now, and said we should be
all lost, I was dreadfully frighted. I got up
out of my cabin and looked out; but such a
dismal sight I never saw: the sea ran mountains
high, and broke upon us every three or four
minutes; when I could look about, I could see
nothing but distress round us; two ships that
rode near us, we found, had cut their masts by
the board, being deep laden; and our men cried
out that a ship which rode about a mile ahead of
us was foundered. Two more ships, being driven
from their anchors, were run out of the Roads to
sea, at all adventures, and that with not a mast
standing. The light ships fared the best, as not
so much labouring in the sea; but two or three
of them drove, and came close by us, running
away with only their spritsail out before the
wind.
Towards evening
the mate and boatswain begged the master of our
ship to let them cut away the fore-mast, which
he was very unwilling to do; but the boatswain
protesting to him that if he did not the ship
would founder, he consented; and when they had
cut away the fore-mast, the main-mast stood so
loose, and shook the ship so much, they were
obliged to cut that away also, and make a clear
deck.
Any one may
judge what a condition I must be in at all this,
who was but a young sailor, and who had been in
such a fright before at but a little. But if I
can express at this distance the thoughts I had
about me at that time, I was in tenfold more
horror of mind upon account of my former
convictions, and the having returned from them
to the resolutions I had wickedly taken at
first, than I was at death itself; and these,
added to the terror of the storm, put me into
such a condition that I can by no words describe
it. But the worst was not come yet; the storm
continued with such fury that the seamen
themselves acknowledged they had never seen a
worse. We had a good ship, but she was deep
laden, and wallowed in the sea, so that the
seamen every now and then cried out she would
founder. It was my advantage in one respect,
that I did not know what they meant by FOUNDER
till I inquired. However, the storm was so
violent that I saw, what is not often seen, the
master, the boatswain, and some others more
sensible than the rest, at their prayers, and
expecting every moment when the ship would go to
the bottom. In the middle of the night, and
under all the rest of our distresses, one of the
men that had been down to see cried out we had
sprung a leak; another said there was four feet
water in the hold. Then all hands were called to
the pump. At that word, my heart, as I thought,
died within me: and I fell backwards upon the
side of my bed where I sat, into the cabin.
However, the men roused me, and told me that I,
that was able to do nothing before, was as well
able to pump as another; at which I stirred up
and went to the pump, and worked very heartily.
While this was doing the master, seeing some
light colliers, who, not able to ride out the
storm were obliged to slip and run away to sea,
and would come near us, ordered to fire a gun as
a signal of distress. I, who knew nothing what
they meant, thought the ship had broken, or some
dreadful thing happened. In a word, I was so
surprised that I fell down in a swoon. As this
was a time when everybody had his own life to
think of, nobody minded me, or what was become
of me; but another man stepped up to the pump,
and thrusting me aside with his foot, let me
lie, thinking I had been dead; and it was a
great while before I came to myself.
We worked on;
but the water increasing in the hold, it was
apparent that the ship would founder; and though
the storm began to abate a little, yet it was
not possible she could swim till we might run
into any port; so the master continued firing
guns for help; and a light ship, who had rid it
out just ahead of us, ventured a boat out to
help us. It was with the utmost hazard the boat
came near us; but it was impossible for us to
get on board, or for the boat to lie near the
ship`s side, till at last the men rowing very
heartily, and venturing their lives to save
ours, our men cast them a rope over the stern
with a buoy to it, and then veered it out a
great length, which they, after much labour and
hazard, took hold of, and we hauled them close
under our stern, and got all into their boat. It
was to no purpose for them or us, after we were
in the boat, to think of reaching their own
ship; so all agreed to let her drive, and only
to pull her in towards shore as much as we
could; and our master promised them, that if the
boat was staved upon shore, he would make it
good to their master: so partly rowing and
partly driving, our boat went away to the
northward, sloping towards the shore almost as
far as Winterton Ness.
We were not
much more than a quarter of an hour out of our
ship till we saw her sink, and then I understood
for the first time what was meant by a ship
foundering in the sea. I must acknowledge I had
hardly eyes to look up when the seamen told me
she was sinking; for from the moment that they
rather put me into the boat than that I might be
said to go in, my heart was, as it were, dead
within me, partly with fright, partly with
horror of mind, and the thoughts of what was yet
before me.
While we were
in this condition the men yet labouring at the
oar to bring the boat near the shore we could
see (when, our boat mounting the waves, we were
able to see the shore) a great many people
running along the strand to assist us when we
should come near; but we made but slow way
towards the shore; nor were we able to reach the
shore till, being past the lighthouse at
Winterton, the shore falls off to the westward
towards Cromer, and so the land broke off a
little the violence of the wind. Here we got in,
and though not without much difficulty, got all
safe on shore, and walked afterwards on foot to
Yarmouth, where, as unfortunate men, we were
used with great humanity, as well by the
magistrates of the town, who assigned us good
quarters, as by particular merchants and owners
of ships, and had money given us sufficient to
carry us either to London or back to Hull as we
thought fit.
Had I now had
the sense to have gone back to Hull, and have
gone home, I had been happy, and my father, as
in our blessed Saviour`s parable, had even
killed the fatted calf for me; for hearing the
ship I went away in was cast away in Yarmouth
Roads, it was a great while before he had any
assurances that I was not drowned.
But my ill fate
pushed me on now with an obstinacy that nothing
could resist; and though I had several times
loud calls from my reason and my more composed
judgment to go home, yet I had no power to do
it. I know not what to call this, nor will I
urge that it is a secret overruling decree, that
hurries us on to be the instruments of our own
destruction, even though it be before us, and
that we rush upon it with our eyes open.
Certainly, nothing but some such decreed
unavoidable misery, which it was impossible for
me to escape, could have pushed me forward
against the calm reasonings and persuasions of
my most retired thoughts, and against two such
visible instructions as I had met with in my
first attempt.
My comrade, who
had helped to harden me before, and who was the
master`s son, was now less forward than I. The
first time he spoke to me after we were at
Yarmouth, which was not till two or three days,
for we were separated in the town to several
quarters; I say, the first time he saw me, it
appeared his tone was altered; and, looking very
melancholy, and shaking his head, he asked me
how I did, and telling his father who I was, and
how I had come this voyage only for a trial, in
order to go further abroad, his father, turning
to me with a very grave and concerned tone
"Young man," says he, "you ought never to go to
sea any more; you ought to take this for a plain
and visible token that you are not to be a
seafaring man." "Why, sir," said I, "will you go
to sea no more?" "That is another case," said
he; "it is my calling, and therefore my duty;
but as you made this voyage on trial, you see
what a taste Heaven has given you of what you
are to expect if you persist. Perhaps this has
all befallen us on your account, like Jonah in
the ship of Tarshish. Pray," continues he, "what
are you; and on what account did you go to sea?"
Upon that I told him some of my story; at the
end of which he burst out into a strange kind of
passion: "What had I done," says he, "that such
an unhappy wretch should come into my ship? I
would not set my foot in the same ship with thee
again for a thousand pounds." This indeed was,
as I said, an excursion of his spirits, which
were yet agitated by the sense of his loss, and
was farther than he could have authority to go.
However, he afterwards talked very gravely to
me, exhorting me to go back to my father, and
not tempt Providence to my ruin, telling me I
might see a visible hand of Heaven against me.
"And, young man," said he, "depend upon it, if
you do not go back, wherever you go, you will
meet with nothing but disasters and
disappointments, till your father`s words are
fulfilled upon you."
We parted soon
after; for I made him little answer, and I saw
him no more; which way he went I knew not. As
for me, having some money in my pocket, I
travelled to London by land; and there, as well
as on the road, had many struggles with myself
what course of life I should take, and whether I
should go home or to sea.
As to going
home, shame opposed the best motions that
offered to my thoughts, and it immediately
occurred to me how I should be laughed at among
the neighbours, and should be ashamed to see,
not my father and mother only, but even
everybody else; from whence I have since often
observed, how incongruous and irrational the
common temper of mankind is, especially of
youth, to that reason which ought to guide them
in such cases viz. that they are not ashamed to
sin, and yet are ashamed to repent; not ashamed
of the action for which they ought justly to be
esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the
returning, which only can make them be esteemed
wise men.
In this state
of life, however, I remained some time,
uncertain what measures to take, and what course
of life to lead. An irresistible reluctance
continued to going home; and as I stayed away a
while, the remembrance of the distress I had
been in wore off, and as that abated, the little
motion I had in my desires to return wore off
with it, till at last I quite laid aside the
thoughts of it, and looked out for a voyage.
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CHAPTER II
SLAVERY AND ESCAPE
THAT evil influence which carried me first away from my father`s house
which hurried me into the wild and indigested
notion of raising my fortune, and that impressed
those conceits so forcibly upon me as to make me
deaf to all good advice, and to the entreaties
and even the commands of my father I say, the
same influence, whatever it was, presented the
most unfortunate of all enterprises to my view;
and I went on board a vessel bound to the coast
of Africa; or, as our sailors vulgarly called
it, a voyage to Guinea.
It was my great misfortune that in all these
adventures I did not ship myself as a sailor;
when, though I might indeed have worked a little
harder than ordinary, yet at the same time I
should have learnt the duty and office of a
fore-mast man, and in time might have qualified
myself for a mate or lieutenant, if not for a
master. But as it was always my fate to choose
for the worse, so I did here; for having money
in my pocket and good clothes upon my back, I
would always go on board in the habit of a
gentleman; and so I neither had any business in
the ship, nor learned to do any.
It was my lot first of all to fall into
pretty good company in London, which does not
always happen to such loose and misguided young
fellows as I then was; the devil generally not
omitting to lay some snare for them very early;
but it was not so with me. I first got
acquainted with the master of a ship who had
been on the coast of Guinea; and who, having had
very good success there, was resolved to go
again. This captain taking a fancy to my
conversation, which was not at all disagreeable
at that time, hearing me say I had a mind to see
the world, told me if I would go the voyage with
him I should be at no expense; I should be his
messmate and his companion; and if I could carry
anything with me, I should have all the
advantage of it that the trade would admit; and
perhaps I might meet with some encouragement.
I embraced the offer; and entering into a
strict friendship with this captain, who was an
honest, plain-dealing man, I went the voyage
with him, and carried a small adventure with me,
which, by the disinterested honesty of my friend
the captain, I increased very considerably; for
I carried about 40 pounds in such toys and
trifles as the captain directed me to buy. These
40 pounds I had mustered together by the
assistance of some of my relations whom I
corresponded with; and who, I believe, got my
father, or at least my mother, to contribute so
much as that to my first adventure.
This was the only voyage which I may say was
successful in all my adventures, which I owe to
the integrity and honesty of my friend the
captain; under whom also I got a competent
knowledge of the mathematics and the rules of
navigation, learned how to keep an account of
the ship`s course, take an observation, and, in
short, to understand some things that were
needful to be understood by a sailor; for, as he
took delight to instruct me, I took delight to
learn; and, in a word, this voyage made me both
a sailor and a merchant; for I brought home five
pounds nine ounces of gold-dust for my
adventure, which yielded me in London, at my
return, almost 300 pounds; and this filled me
with those aspiring thoughts which have since so
completed my ruin.
Yet even in this voyage I had my misfortunes
too; particularly, that I was continually sick,
being thrown into a violent calenture by the
excessive heat of the climate; our principal
trading being upon the coast, from latitude of
15 degrees north even to the line itself.
I was now set up for a Guinea trader; and my
friend, to my great misfortune, dying soon after
his arrival, I resolved to go the same voyage
again, and I embarked in the same vessel with
one who was his mate in the former voyage, and
had now got the command of the ship. This was
the unhappiest voyage that ever man made; for
though I did not carry quite 100 pounds of my
new-gained wealth, so that I had 200 pounds
left, which I had lodged with my friend`s widow,
who was very just to me, yet I fell into
terrible misfortunes. The first was this: our
ship making her course towards the Canary
Islands, or rather between those islands and the
African shore, was surprised in the grey of the
morning by a Turkish rover of Sallee, who gave
chase to us with all the sail she could make. We
crowded also as much canvas as our yards would
spread, or our masts carry, to get clear; but
finding the pirate gained upon us, and would
certainly come up with us in a few hours, we
prepared to fight; our ship having twelve guns,
and the rogue eighteen. About three in the
afternoon he came up with us, and bringing to,
by mistake, just athwart our quarter, instead of
athwart our stern, as he intended, we brought
eight of our guns to bear on that side, and
poured in a broadside upon him, which made him
sheer off again, after returning our fire, and
pouring in also his small shot from near two
hundred men which he had on board. However, we
had not a man touched, all our men keeping
close. He prepared to attack us again, and we to
defend ourselves. But laying us on board the
next time upon our other quarter, he entered
sixty men upon our decks, who immediately fell
to cutting and hacking the sails and rigging. We
plied them with small shot, half-pikes,
powder-chests, and such like, and cleared our
deck of them twice. However, to cut short this
melancholy part of our story, our ship being
disabled, and three of our men killed, and eight
wounded, we were obliged to yield, and were
carried all prisoners into Sallee, a port
belonging to the Moors.
The usage I had there was not so dreadful as
at first I apprehended; nor was I carried up the
country to the emperor`s court, as the rest of
our men were, but was kept by the captain of the
rover as his proper prize, and made his slave,
being young and nimble, and fit for his
business. At this surprising change of my
circumstances, from a merchant to a miserable
slave, I was perfectly overwhelmed; and now I
looked back upon my father`s prophetic discourse
to me, that I should be miserable and have none
to relieve me, which I thought was now so
effectually brought to pass that I could not be
worse; for now the hand of Heaven had overtaken
me, and I was undone without redemption; but,
alas! this was but a taste of the misery I was
to go through, as will appear in the sequel of
this story.
As my new patron, or master, had taken me
home to his house, so I was in hopes that he
would take me with him when he went to sea
again, believing that it would some time or
other be his fate to be taken by a Spanish or
Portugal man-of-war; and that then I should be
set at liberty. But this hope of mine was soon
taken away; for when he went to sea, he left me
on shore to look after his little garden, and do
the common drudgery of slaves about his house;
and when he came home again from his cruise, he
ordered me to lie in the cabin to look after the
ship.
Here I meditated nothing but my escape, and
what method I might take to effect it, but found
no way that had the least probability in it;
nothing presented to make the supposition of it
rational; for I had nobody to communicate it to
that would embark with me no fellow-slave, no
Englishman, Irishman, or Scotchman there but
myself; so that for two years, though I often
pleased myself with the imagination, yet I never
had the least encouraging prospect of putting it
in practice.
After about two years, an odd circumstance
presented itself, which put the old thought of
making some attempt for my liberty again in my
head. My patron lying at home longer than usual
without fitting out his ship, which, as I heard,
was for want of money, he used constantly, once
or twice a week, sometimes oftener if the
weather was fair, to take the ship`s pinnace and
go out into the road afishing; and as he always
took me and young Maresco with him to row the
boat, we made him very merry, and I proved very
dexterous in catching fish; insomuch that
sometimes he would send me with a Moor, one of
his kinsmen, and the youth the Maresco, as they
called him to catch a dish of fish for him.
It happened one time, that going a-fishing in
a calm morning, a fog rose so thick that, though
we were not half a league from the shore, we
lost sight of it; and rowing we knew not whither
or which way, we laboured all day, and all the
next night; and when the morning came we found
we had pulled off to sea instead of pulling in
for the shore; and that we were at least two
leagues from the shore. However, we got well in
again, though with a great deal of labour and
some danger; for the wind began to blow pretty
fresh in the morning; but we were all very
hungry.
But our patron, warned by this disaster,
resolved to take more care of himself for the
future; and having lying by him the longboat of
our English ship that he had taken, he resolved
he would not go afishing any more without a
compass and some provision; so he ordered the
carpenter of his ship, who also was an English
slave, to build a little state-room, or cabin,
in the middle of the longboat, like that of a
barge, with a place to stand behind it to steer,
and haul home the main-sheet; the room before
for a hand or two to stand and work the sails.
She sailed with what we call a
shoulder-of-mutton sail; and the boom jibed over
the top of the cabin, which lay very snug and
low, and had in it room for him to lie, with a
slave or two, and a table to eat on, with some
small lockers to put in some bottles of such
liquor as he thought fit to drink; and his
bread, rice, and coffee.
We went frequently out with this boat
a-fishing; and as I was most dexterous to catch
fish for him, he never went without me. It
happened that he had appointed to go out in this
boat, either for pleasure or for fish, with two
or three Moors of some distinction in that
place, and for whom he had provided
extraordinarily, and had, therefore, sent on
board the boat overnight a larger store of
provisions than ordinary; and had ordered me to
get ready three fusees with powder and shot,
which were on board his ship, for that they
designed some sport of fowling as well as
fishing.
I got all things ready as he had directed,
and waited the next morning with the boat washed
clean, her ancient and pendants out, and
everything to accommodate his guests; when
by-and-by my patron came on board alone, and
told me his guests had put off going from some
business that fell out, and ordered me, with the
man and boy, as usual, to go out with the boat
and catch them some fish, for that his friends
were to sup at his house, and commanded that as
soon as I got some fish I should bring it home
to his house; all which I prepared to do.
This moment my former notions of deliverance
darted into my thoughts, for now I found I was
likely to have a little ship at my command; and
my master being gone, I prepared to furnish
myself, not for fishing business, but for a
voyage; though I knew not, neither did I so much
as consider, whither I should steer anywhere to
get out of that place was my desire.
My first contrivance was to make a pretence
to speak to this Moor, to get something for our
subsistence on board; for I told him we must not
presume to eat of our patron`s bread. He said
that was true; so he brought a large basket of
rusk or biscuit, and three jars of fresh water,
into the boat. I knew where my patron`s case of
bottles stood, which it was evident, by the
make, were taken out of some English prize, and
I conveyed them into the boat while the Moor was
on shore, as if they had been there before for
our master. I conveyed also a great lump of
beeswax into the boat, which weighed about half
a hundred-weight, with a parcel of twine or
thread, a hatchet, a saw, and a hammer, all of
which were of great use to us afterwards,
especially the wax, to make candles. Another
trick I tried upon him, which he innocently came
into also: his name was Ismael, which they call
Muley, or Moely; so I called to him "Moely,"
said I, "our patron`s guns are on board the
boat; can you not get a little powder and shot?
It may be we may kill some alcamies (a fowl like
our curlews) for ourselves, for I know he keeps
the gunner`s stores in the ship." "Yes," says
he, "I`ll bring some;" and accordingly he
brought a great leather pouch, which held a
pound and a half of powder, or rather more; and
another with shot, that had five or six pounds,
with some bullets, and put all into the boat. At
the same time I had found some powder of my
master`s in the great cabin, with which I filled
one of the large bottles in the case, which was
almost empty, pouring what was in it into
another; and thus furnished with everything
needful, we sailed out of the port to fish. The
castle, which is at the entrance of the port,
knew who we were, and took no notice of us; and
we were not above a mile out of the port before
we hauled in our sail and set us down to fish.
The wind blew from the N.N.E., which was
contrary to my desire, for had it blown
southerly I had been sure to have made the coast
of Spain, and at least reached to the bay of
Cadiz; but my resolutions were, blow which way
it would, I would be gone from that horrid place
where I was, and leave the rest to fate.
After we had fished some time and caught
nothing for when I had fish on my hook I would
not pull them up, that he might not see them I
said to the Moor, "This will not do; our master
will not be thus served; we must stand farther
off." He, thinking no harm, agreed, and being in
the head of the boat, set the sails; and, as I
had the helm, I ran the boat out near a league
farther, and then brought her to, as if I would
fish; when, giving the boy the helm, I stepped
forward to where the Moor was, and making as if
I stooped for something behind him, I took him
by surprise with my arm under his waist, and
tossed him clear overboard into the sea. He rose
immediately, for he swam like a cork, and called
to me, begged to be taken in, told me he would
go all over the world with me. He swam so strong
after the boat that he would have reached me
very quickly, there being but little wind; upon
which I stepped into the cabin, and fetching one
of the fowling-pieces, I presented it at him,
and told him I had done him no hurt, and if he
would be quiet I would do him none. "But," said
I, "you swim well enough to reach to the shore,
and the sea is calm; make the best of your way
to shore, and I will do you no harm; but if you
come near the boat I`ll shoot you through the
head, for I am resolved to have my liberty;" so
he turned himself about, and swam for the shore,
and I make no doubt but he reached it with ease,
for he was an excellent swimmer.
I could have been content to have taken this
Moor with me, and have drowned the boy, but
there was no venturing to trust him. When he was
gone, I turned to the boy, whom they called
Xury, and said to him, "Xury, if you will be
faithful to me, I`ll make you a great man; but
if you will not stroke your face to be true to
me" that is, swear by Mahomet and his father`s
beard "I must throw you into the sea too." The
boy smiled in my face, and spoke so innocently
that I could not distrust him, and swore to be
faithful to me, and go all over the world with
me.
While I was in view of the Moor that was
swimming, I stood out directly to sea with the
boat, rather stretching to windward, that they
might think me gone towards the Straits` mouth
(as indeed any one that had been in their wits
must have been supposed to do): for who would
have supposed we were sailed on to the
southward, to the truly Barbarian coast, where
whole nations of negroes were sure to surround
us with their canoes and destroy us; where we
could not go on shore but we should be devoured
by savage beasts, or more merciless savages of
human kind.
But as soon as it grew dusk in the evening, I
changed my course, and steered directly south
and by east, bending my course a little towards
the east, that I might keep in with the shore;
and having a fair, fresh gale of wind, and a
smooth, quiet sea, I made such sail that I
believe by the next day, at three o`clock in the
afternoon, when I first made the land, I could
not be less than one hundred and fifty miles
south of Sallee; quite beyond the Emperor of
Morocco`s dominions, or indeed of any other king
thereabouts, for we saw no people.
Yet such was the fright I had taken of the
Moors, and the dreadful apprehensions I had of
falling into their hands, that I would not stop,
or go on shore, or come to an anchor; the wind
continuing fair till I had sailed in that manner
five days; and then the wind shifting to the
southward, I concluded also that if any of our
vessels were in chase of me, they also would now
give over; so I ventured to make to the coast,
and came to an anchor in the mouth of a little
river, I knew not what, nor where, neither what
latitude, what country, what nation, or what
river. I neither saw, nor desired to see any
people; the principal thing I wanted was fresh
water. We came into this creek in the evening,
resolving to swim on shore as soon as it was
dark, and discover the country; but as soon as
it was quite dark, we heard such dreadful noises
of the barking, roaring, and howling of wild
creatures, of we knew not what kinds, that the
poor boy was ready to die with fear, and begged
of me not to go on shore till day. "Well, Xury,"
said I, "then I won`t; but it may be that we may
see men by day, who will be as bad to us as
those lions." "Then we give them the shoot gun,"
says Xury, laughing, "make them run wey." Such
English Xury spoke by conversing among us
slaves. However, I was glad to see the boy so
cheerful, and I gave him a dram (out of our
patron`s case of bottles) to cheer him up. After
all, Xury`s advice was good, and I took it; we
dropped our little anchor, and lay still all
night; I say still, for we slept none; for in
two or three hours we saw vast great creatures
(we knew not what to call them) of many sorts,
come down to the sea-shore and run into the
water, wallowing and washing themselves for the
pleasure of cooling themselves; and they made
such hideous howlings and yellings, that I never
indeed heard the like.
Xury was dreadfully frighted, and indeed so
was I too; but we were both more frighted when
we heard one of these mighty creatures come
swimming towards our boat; we could not see him,
but we might hear him by his blowing to be a
monstrous huge and furious beast. Xury said it
was a lion, and it might be so for aught I know;
but poor Xury cried to me to weigh the anchor
and row away; "No," says I, "Xury; we can slip
our cable, with the buoy to it, and go off to
sea; they cannot follow us far." I had no sooner
said so, but I perceived the creature (whatever
it was) within two oars` length, which something
surprised me; however, I immediately stepped to
the cabin door, and taking up my gun, fired at
him; upon which he immediately turned about and
swam towards the shore again.
But it is impossible to describe the horrid
noises, and hideous cries and howlings that were
raised, as well upon the edge of the shore as
higher within the country, upon the noise or
report of the gun, a thing I have some reason to
believe those creatures had never heard before:
this convinced me that there was no going on
shore for us in the night on that coast, and how
to venture on shore in the day was another
question too; for to have fallen into the hands
of any of the savages had been as bad as to have
fallen into the hands of the lions and tigers;
at least we were equally apprehensive of the
danger of it.
Be that as it would, we were obliged to go on
shore somewhere or other for water, for we had
not a pint left in the boat; when and where to
get to it was the point. Xury said, if I would
let him go on shore with one of the jars, he
would find if there was any water, and bring
some to me. I asked him why he would go? why I
should not go, and he stay in the boat? The boy
answered with so much affection as made me love
him ever after. Says he, "If wild mans come,
they eat me, you go wey." "Well, Xury," said I,
"we will both go and if the wild mans come, we
will kill them, they shall eat neither of us."
So I gave Xury a piece of rusk bread to eat, and
a dram out of our patron`s case of bottles which
I mentioned before; and we hauled the boat in as
near the shore as we thought was proper, and so
waded on shore, carrying nothing but our arms
and two jars for water.
I did not care to go out of sight of the
boat, fearing the coming of canoes with savages
down the river; but the boy seeing a low place
about a mile up the country, rambled to it, and
by-and-by I saw him come running towards me. I
thought he was pursued by some savage, or
frighted with some wild beast, and I ran forward
towards him to help him; but when I came nearer
to him I saw something hanging over his
shoulders, which was a creature that he had
shot, like a hare, but different in colour, and
longer legs; however, we were very glad of it,
and it was very good meat; but the great joy
that poor Xury came with, was to tell me he had
found good water and seen no wild mans.
But we found afterwards that we need not take
such pains for water, for a little higher up the
creek where we were we found the water fresh
when the tide was out, which flowed but a little
way up; so we filled our jars, and feasted on
the hare he had killed, and prepared to go on
our way, having seen no footsteps of any human
creature in that part of the country.
As I had been one voyage to this coast
before, I knew very well that the islands of the
Canaries, and the Cape de Verde Islands also,
lay not far off from the coast. But as I had no
instruments to take an observation to know what
latitude we were in, and not exactly knowing, or
at least remembering, what latitude they were
in, I knew not where to look for them, or when
to stand off to sea towards them; otherwise I
might now easily have found some of these
islands. But my hope was, that if I stood along
this coast till I came to that part where the
English traded, I should find some of their
vessels upon their usual design of trade, that
would relieve and take us in.
By the best of my calculation, that place
where I now was must be that country which,
lying between the Emperor of Morocco`s dominions
and the negroes, lies waste and uninhabited,
except by wild beasts; the negroes having
abandoned it and gone farther south for fear of
the Moors, and the Moors not thinking it worth
inhabiting by reason of its barrenness; and
indeed, both forsaking it because of the
prodigious number of tigers, lions, leopards,
and other furious creatures which harbour there;
so that the Moors use it for their hunting only,
where they go like an army, two or three
thousand men at a time; and indeed for near a
hundred miles together upon this coast we saw
nothing but a waste, uninhabited country by day,
and heard nothing but howlings and roaring of
wild beasts by night.
Once or twice in the daytime I thought I saw
the Pico of Teneriffe, being the high top of the
Mountain Teneriffe in the Canaries, and had a
great mind to venture out, in hopes of reaching
thither; but having tried twice, I was forced in
again by contrary winds, the sea also going too
high for my little vessel; so, I resolved to
pursue my first design, and keep along the
shore.
Several times I was obliged to land for fresh
water, after we had left this place; and once in
particular, being early in morning, we came to
an anchor under a little point of land, which
was pretty high; and the tide beginning to flow,
we lay still to go farther in. Xury, whose eyes
were more about him than it seems mine were,
calls softly to me, and tells me that we had
best go farther off the shore; "For," says he,
"look, yonder lies a dreadful monster on the
side of that hillock, fast asleep." I looked
where he pointed, and saw a dreadful monster
indeed, for it was a terrible, great lion that
lay on the side of the shore, under the shade of
a piece of the hill that hung as it were a
little over him. "Xury," says I, "you shall on
shore and kill him." Xury, looked frighted, and
said, "Me kill! he eat me at one mouth!" one
mouthful he meant. However, I said no more to
the boy, but bade him lie still, and I took our
biggest gun, which was almost musket-bore, and
loaded it with a good charge of powder, and with
two slugs, and laid it down; then I loaded
another gun with two bullets; and the third (for
we had three pieces) I loaded with five smaller
bullets. I took the best aim I could with the
first piece to have shot him in the head, but he
lay so with his leg raised a little above his
nose, that the slugs hit his leg about the knee
and broke the bone. He started up, growling at
first, but finding his leg broken, fell down
again; and then got upon three legs, and gave
the most hideous roar that ever I heard. I was a
little surprised that I had not hit him on the
head; however, I took up the second piece
immediately, and though he began to move off,
fired again, and shot him in the head, and had
the pleasure to see him drop and make but little
noise, but lie struggling for life. Then Xury
took heart, and would have me let him go on
shore. "Well, go," said I: so the boy jumped
into the water and taking a little gun in one
hand, swam to shore with the other hand, and
coming close to the creature, put the muzzle of
the piece to his ear, and shot him in the head
again, which despatched him quite.
This was game indeed to us, but this was no
food; and I was very sorry to lose three charges
of powder and shot upon a creature that was good
for nothing to us. However, Xury said he would
have some of him; so he comes on board, and
asked me to give him the hatchet. "For what,
Xury?" said I. "Me cut off his head," said he.
However, Xury could not cut off his head, but he
cut off a foot, and brought it with him, and it
was a monstrous great one.
I bethought myself, however, that, perhaps
the skin of him might, one way or other, be of
some value to us; and I resolved to take off his
skin if I could. So Xury and I went to work with
him; but Xury was much the better workman at it,
for I knew very ill how to do it. Indeed, it
took us both up the whole day, but at last we
got off the hide of him, and spreading it on the
top of our cabin, the sun effectually dried it
in two days` time, and it afterwards served me
to lie upon.
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CHAPTER III
WRECKED ON A DESERT ISLAND
AFTER this stop, we made on to the southward continually for ten or
twelve days, living very sparingly on our
provisions, which began to abate very much, and
going no oftener to the shore than we were
obliged to for fresh water. My design in this
was to make the river Gambia or Senegal, that is
to say anywhere about the Cape de Verde, where I
was in hopes to meet with some European ship;
and if I did not, I knew not what course I had
to take, but to seek for the islands, or perish
there among the negroes. I knew that all the
ships from Europe, which sailed either to the
coast of Guinea or to Brazil, or to the East
Indies, made this cape, or those islands; and,
in a word, I put the whole of my fortune upon
this single point, either that I must meet with
some ship or must perish.
When I had pursued this resolution about ten
days longer, as I have said, I began to see that
the land was inhabited; and in two or three
places, as we sailed by, we saw people stand
upon the shore to look at us; we could also
perceive they were quite black and naked. I was
once inclined to have gone on shore to them; but
Xury was my better counsellor, and said to me,
"No go, no go." However, I hauled in nearer the
shore that I might talk to them, and I found
they ran along the shore by me a good way. I
observed they had no weapons in their hand,
except one, who had a long slender stick, which
Xury said was a lance, and that they could throw
them a great way with good aim; so I kept at a
distance, but talked with them by signs as well
as I could; and particularly made signs for
something to eat: they beckoned to me to stop my
boat, and they would fetch me some meat. Upon
this I lowered the top of my sail and lay by,
and two of them ran up into the country, and in
less than half-anhour came back, and brought
with them two pieces of dried flesh and some
corn, such as is the produce of their country;
but we neither knew what the one or the other
was; however, we were willing to accept it, but
how to come at it was our next dispute, for I
would not venture on shore to them, and they
were as much afraid of us; but they took a safe
way for us all, for they brought it to the shore
and laid it down, and went and stood a great way
off till we fetched it on board, and then came
close to us again.
We made signs of thanks to them, for we had
nothing to make them amends; but an opportunity
offered that very instant to oblige them
wonderfully; for while we were lying by the
shore came two mighty creatures, one pursuing
the other (as we took it) with great fury from
the mountains towards the sea; whether it was
the male pursuing the female, or whether they
were in sport or in rage, we could not tell, any
more than we could tell whether it was usual or
strange, but I believe it was the latter;
because, in the first place, those ravenous
creatures seldom appear but in the night; and,
in the second place, we found the people
terribly frighted, especially the women. The man
that had the lance or dart did not fly from
them, but the rest did; however, as the two
creatures ran directly into the water, they did
not offer to fall upon any of the negroes, but
plunged themselves into the sea, and swam about,
as if they had come for their diversion; at last
one of them began to come nearer our boat than
at first I expected; but I lay ready for him,
for I had loaded my gun with all possible
expedition, and bade Xury load both the others.
As soon as he came fairly within my reach, I
fired, and shot him directly in the head;
immediately he sank down into the water, but
rose instantly, and plunged up and down, as if
he were struggling for life, and so indeed he
was; he immediately made to the shore; but
between the wound, which was his mortal hurt,
and the strangling of the water, he died just
before he reached the shore.
It is impossible to express the astonishment
of these poor creatures at the noise and fire of
my gun: some of them were even ready to die for
fear, and fell down as dead with the very
terror; but when they saw the creature dead, and
sunk in the water, and that I made signs to them
to come to the shore, they took heart and came,
and began to search for the creature. I found
him by his blood staining the water; and by the
help of a rope, which I slung round him, and
gave the negroes to haul, they dragged him on
shore, and found that it was a most curious
leopard, spotted, and fine to an admirable
degree; and the negroes held up their hands with
admiration, to think what it was I had killed
him with.
The other creature, frighted with the flash
of fire and the noise of the gun, swam on shore,
and ran up directly to the mountains from whence
they came; nor could I, at that distance, know
what it was. I found quickly the negroes wished
to eat the flesh of this creature, so I was
willing to have them take it as a favour from
me; which, when I made signs to them that they
might take him, they were very thankful for.
Immediately they fell to work with him; and
though they had no knife, yet, with a sharpened
piece of wood, they took off his skin as
readily, and much more readily, than we could
have done with a knife. They offered me some of
the flesh, which I declined, pointing out that I
would give it them; but made signs for the skin,
which they gave me very freely, and brought me a
great deal more of their provisions, which,
though I did not understand, yet I accepted. I
then made signs to them for some water, and held
out one of my jars to them, turning it bottom
upward, to show that it was empty, and that I
wanted to have it filled. They called
immediately to some of their friends, and there
came two women, and brought a great vessel made
of earth, and burnt, as I supposed, in the sun,
this they set down to me, as before, and I sent
Xury on shore with my jars, and filled them all
three. The women were as naked as the men.
I was now furnished with roots and corn, such
as it was, and water; and leaving my friendly
negroes, I made forward for about eleven days
more, without offering to go near the shore,
till I saw the land run out a great length into
the sea, at about the distance of four or five
leagues before me; and the sea being very calm,
I kept a large offing to make this point. At
length, doubling the point, at about two leagues
from the land, I saw plainly land on the other
side, to seaward; then I concluded, as it was
most certain indeed, that this was the Cape de
Verde, and those the islands called, from
thence, Cape de Verde Islands. However, they
were at a great distance, and I could not well
tell what I had best to do; for if I should be
taken with a fresh of wind, I might neither
reach one or other.
In this dilemma, as I was very pensive, I
stepped into the cabin and sat down, Xury having
the helm; when, on a sudden, the boy cried out,
"Master, master, a ship with a sail!" and the
foolish boy was frighted out of his wits,
thinking it must needs be some of his master`s
ships sent to pursue us, but I knew we were far
enough out of their reach. I jumped out of the
cabin, and immediately saw, not only the ship,
but that it was a Portuguese ship; and, as I
thought, was bound to the coast of Guinea, for
negroes. But, when I observed the course she
steered, I was soon convinced they were bound
some other way, and did not design to come any
nearer to the shore; upon which I stretched out
to sea as much as I could, resolving to speak
with them if possible.
With all the sail I could make, I found I
should not be able to come in their way, but
that they would be gone by before I could make
any signal to them: but after I had crowded to
the utmost, and began to despair, they, it
seems, saw by the help of their glasses that it
was some European boat, which they supposed must
belong to some ship that was lost; so they
shortened sail to let me come up. I was
encouraged with this, and as I had my patron`s
ancient on board, I made a waft of it to them,
for a signal of distress, and fired a gun, both
which they saw; for they told me they saw the
smoke, though they did not hear the gun. Upon
these signals they very kindly brought to, and
lay by for me; and in about three hours; time I
came up with them.
They asked me what I was, in Portuguese, and
in Spanish, and in French, but I understood none
of them; but at last a Scotch sailor, who was on
board, called to me: and I answered him, and
told him I was an Englishman, that I had made my
escape out of slavery from the Moors, at Sallee;
they then bade me come on board, and very kindly
took me in, and all my goods.
It was an inexpressible joy to me, which any
one will believe, that I was thus delivered, as
I esteemed it, from such a miserable and almost
hopeless condition as I was in; and I
immediately offered all I had to the captain of
the ship, as a return for my deliverance; but he
generously told me he would take nothing from
me, but that all I had should be delivered safe
to me when I came to the Brazils. "For," says
he, "I have saved your life on no other terms
than I would be glad to be saved myself: and it
may, one time or other, be my lot to be taken up
in the same condition. Besides," said he, "when
I carry you to the Brazils, so great a way from
your own country, if I should take from you what
you have, you will be starved there, and then I
only take away that life I have given. No, no,"
says he: "Seignior Inglese" (Mr. Englishman), "I
will carry you thither in charity, and those
things will help to buy your subsistence there,
and your passage home again."
As he was charitable in this proposal, so he
was just in the performance to a tittle; for he
ordered the seamen that none should touch
anything that I had: then he took everything
into his own possession, and gave me back an
exact inventory of them, that I might have them,
even to my three earthen jars.
As to my boat, it was a very good one; and
that he saw, and told me he would buy it of me
for his ship`s use; and asked me what I would
have for it? I told him he had been so generous
to me in everything that I could not offer to
make any price of the boat, but left it entirely
to him: upon which he told me he would give me a
note of hand to pay me eighty pieces of eight
for it at Brazil; and when it came there, if any
one offered to give more, he would make it up.
He offered me also sixty pieces of eight more
for my boy Xury, which I was loth to take; not
that I was unwilling to let the captain have
him, but I was very loth to sell the poor boy`s
liberty, who had assisted me so faithfully in
procuring my own. However, when I let him know
my reason, he owned it to be just, and offered
me this medium, that he would give the boy an
obligation to set him free in ten years, if he
turned Christian: upon this, and Xury saying he
was willing to go to him, I let the captain have
him.
We had a very good voyage to the Brazils, and
I arrived in the Bay de Todos los Santos, or All
Saints` Bay, in about twenty-two days after. And
now I was once more delivered from the most
miserable of all conditions of life; and what to
do next with myself I was to consider.
The generous treatment the captain gave me I
can never enough remember: he would take nothing
of me for my passage, gave me twenty ducats for
the leopard`s skin, and forty for the lion`s
skin, which I had in my boat, and caused
everything I had in the ship to be punctually
delivered to me; and what I was willing to sell
he bought of me, such as the case of bottles,
two of my guns, and a piece of the lump of
beeswax for I had made candles of the rest: in a
word, I made about two hundred and twenty pieces
of eight of all my cargo; and with this stock I
went on shore in the Brazils.
I had not been long here before I was
recommended to the house of a good honest man
like himself, who had an INGENIO, as they call
it (that is, a plantation and a sugar-house). I
lived with him some time, and acquainted myself
by that means with the manner of planting and
making of sugar; and seeing how well the
planters lived, and how they got rich suddenly,
I resolved, if I could get a licence to settle
there, I would turn planter among them:
resolving in the meantime to find out some way
to get my money, which I had left in London,
remitted to me. To this purpose, getting a kind
of letter of naturalisation, I purchased as much
land that was uncured as my money would reach,
and formed a plan for my plantation and
settlement; such a one as might be suitable to
the stock which I proposed to myself to receive
from England.
I had a neighbour, a Portuguese, of Lisbon,
but born of English parents, whose name was
Wells, and in much such circumstances as I was.
I call him my neighbour, because his plantation
lay next to mine, and we went on very sociably
together. My stock was but low, as well as his;
and we rather planted for food than anything
else, for about two years. However, we began to
increase, and our land began to come into order;
so that the third year we planted some tobacco,
and made each of us a large piece of ground
ready for planting canes in the year to come.
But we both wanted help; and now I found, more
than before, I had done wrong in parting with my
boy Xury.
But, alas! for me to do wrong that never did
right, was no great wonder. I hail no remedy but
to go on: I had got into an employment quite
remote to my genius, and directly contrary to
the life I delighted in, and for which I forsook
my father`s house, and broke through all his
good advice. Nay, I was coming into the very
middle station, or upper degree of low life,
which my father advised me to before, and which,
if I resolved to go on with, I might as well
have stayed at home, and never have fatigued
myself in the world as I had done; and I used
often to say to myself, I could have done this
as well in England, among my friends, as have
gone five thousand miles off to do it among
strangers and savages, in a wilderness, and at
such a distance as never to hear from any part
of the world that had the least knowledge of me.
In this manner I used to look upon my
condition with the utmost regret. I had nobody
to converse with, but now and then this
neighbour; no work to be done, but by the labour
of my hands; and I used to say, I lived just
like a man cast away upon some desolate island,
that had nobody there but himself. But how just
has it been and how should all men reflect, that
when they compare their present conditions with
others that are worse, Heaven may oblige them to
make the exchange, and be convinced of their
former felicity by their experience I say, how
just has it been, that the truly solitary life I
reflected on, in an island of mere desolation,
should be my lot, who had so often unjustly
compared it with the life which I then led, in
which, had I continued, I had in all probability
been exceeding prosperous and rich.
I was in some degree settled in my measures
for carrying on the plantation before my kind
friend, the captain of the ship that took me up
at sea, went back for the ship remained there,
in providing his lading and preparing for his
voyage, nearly three months when telling him
what little stock I had left behind me in
London, he gave me this friendly and sincere
advice:"Seignior Inglese," says he (for so he
always called me), "if you will give me letters,
and a procuration in form to me, with orders to
the person who has your money in London to send
your effects to Lisbon, to such persons as I
shall direct, and in such goods as are proper
for this country, I will bring you the produce
of them, God willing, at my return; but, since
human affairs are all subject to changes and
disasters, I would have you give orders but for
one hundred pounds sterling, which, you say, is
half your stock, and let the hazard be run for
the first; so that, if it come safe, you may
order the rest the same way, and, if it
miscarry, you may have the other half to have
recourse to for your supply."
This was so wholesome advice, and looked so
friendly, that I could not but be convinced it
was the best course I could take; so I
accordingly prepared letters to the gentlewoman
with whom I had left my money, and a procuration
to the Portuguese captain, as he desired.
I wrote the English captain`s widow a full
account of all my adventures my slavery, escape,
and how I had met with the Portuguese captain at
sea, the humanity of his behaviour, and what
condition I was now in, with all other necessary
directions for my supply; and when this honest
captain came to Lisbon, he found means, by some
of the English merchants there, to send over,
not the order only, but a full account of my
story to a merchant in London, who represented
it effectually to her; whereupon she not only
delivered the money, but out of her own pocket
sent the Portugal captain a very handsome
present for his humanity and charity to me.
The merchant in London, vesting this hundred
pounds in English goods, such as the captain had
written for, sent them directly to him at
Lisbon, and he brought them all safe to me to
the Brazils; among which, without my direction
(for I was too young in my business to think of
them), he had taken care to have all sorts of
tools, ironwork, and utensils necessary for my
plantation, and which were of great use to me.
When this cargo arrived I thought my fortune
made, for I was surprised with the joy of it;
and my stood steward, the captain, had laid out
the five pounds, which my friend had sent him
for a present for himself, to purchase and bring
me over a servant, under bond for six years`
service, and would not accept of any
consideration, except a little tobacco, which I
would have him accept, being of my own produce.
Neither was this all; for my goods being all
English manufacture, such as cloths, stuffs,
baize, and things particularly valuable and
desirable in the country, I found means to sell
them to a very great advantage; so that I might
say I had more than four times the value of my
first cargo, and was now infinitely beyond my
poor neighbour I mean in the advancement of my
plantation; for the first thing I did, I bought
me a negro slave, and an European servant also I
mean another besides that which the captain
brought me from Lisbon.
But as abused prosperity is oftentimes made
the very means of our greatest adversity, so it
was with me. I went on the next year with great
success in my plantation: I raised fifty great
rolls of tobacco on my own ground, more than I
had disposed of for necessaries among my
neighbours; and these fifty rolls, being each of
above a hundredweight, were well cured, and laid
by against the return of the fleet from Lisbon:
and now increasing in business and wealth, my
head began to be full of projects and
undertakings beyond my reach; such as are,
indeed, often the ruin of the best heads in
business. Had I continued in the station I was
now in, I had room for all the happy things to
have yet befallen me for which my father so
earnestly recommended a quiet, retired life, and
of which he had so sensibly described the middle
station of life to be full of; but other things
attended me, and I was still to be the wilful
agent of all my own miseries; and particularly,
to increase my fault, and double the reflections
upon myself, which in my future sorrows I should
have leisure to make, all these miscarriages
were procured by my apparent obstinate adhering
to my foolish inclination of wandering abroad,
and pursuing that inclination, in contradiction
to the clearest views of doing myself good in a
fair and plain pursuit of those prospects, and
those measures of life, which nature and
Providence concurred to present me with, and to
make my duty.
As I had once done thus in my breaking away
from my parents, so I could not be content now,
but I must go and leave the happy view I had of
being a rich and thriving man in my new
plantation, only to pursue a rash and immoderate
desire of rising faster than the nature of the
thing admitted; and thus I cast myself down
again into the deepest gulf of human misery that
ever man fell into, or perhaps could be
consistent with life and a state of health in
the world.
To come, then, by the just degrees to the
particulars of this part of my story. You may
suppose, that having now lived almost four years
in the Brazils, and beginning to thrive and
prosper very well upon my plantation, I had not
only learned the language, but had contracted
acquaintance and friendship among my
fellow-planters, as well as among the merchants
at St. Salvador, which was our port; and that,
in my discourses among them, I had frequently
given them an account of my two voyages to the
coast of Guinea: the manner of trading with the
negroes there, and how easy it was to purchase
upon the coast for trifles such as beads, toys,
knives, scissors, hatchets, bits of glass, and
the like not only gold-dust, Guinea grains,
elephants` teeth, &c., but negroes, for the
service of the Brazils, in great numbers.
They listened always very attentively to my
discourses on these heads, but especially to
that part which related to the buying of
negroes, which was a trade at that time, not
only not far entered into, but, as far as it
was, had been carried on by assientos, or
permission of the kings of Spain and Portugal,
and engrossed in the public stock: so that few
negroes were bought, and these excessively dear.
It happened, being in company with some
merchants and planters of my acquaintance, and
talking of those things very earnestly, three of
them came to me next morning, and told me they
had been musing very much upon what I had
discoursed with them of the last night, and they
came to make a secret proposal to me; and, after
enjoining me to secrecy, they told me that they
had a mind to fit out a ship to go to Guinea;
that they had all plantations as well as I, and
were straitened for nothing so much as servants;
that as it was a trade that could not be carried
on, because they could not publicly sell the
negroes when they came home, so they desired to
make but one voyage, to bring the negroes on
shore privately, and divide them among their own
plantations; and, in a word, the question was
whether I would go their supercargo in the ship,
to manage the trading part upon the coast of
Guinea; and they offered me that I should have
my equal share of the negroes, without providing
any part of the stock.
This was a fair proposal, it must be
confessed, had it been made to any one that had
not had a settlement and a plantation of his own
to look after, which was in a fair way of coming
to be very considerable, and with a good stock
upon it; but for me, that was thus entered and
established, and had nothing to do but to go on
as I had begun, for three or four years more,
and to have sent for the other hundred pounds
from England; and who in that time, and with
that little addition, could scarce have failed
of being worth three or four thousand pounds
sterling, and that increasing too for me to
think of such a voyage was the most preposterous
thing that ever man in such circumstances could
be guilty of.
But I, that was born to be my own destroyer,
could no more resist the offer than I could
restrain my first rambling designs when my
father` good counsel was lost upon me. In a
word, I told them I would go with all my heart,
if they would undertake to look after my
plantation in my absence, and would dispose of
it to such as I should direct, if I miscarried.
This they all engaged to do, and entered into
writings or covenants to do so; and I made a
formal will, disposing of my plantation and
effects in case of my death, making the captain
of the ship that had saved my life, as before,
my universal heir, but obliging him to dispose
of my effects as I had directed in my will; one
half of the produce being to himself, and the
other to be shipped to England.
In short, I took all possible caution to
preserve my effects and to keep up my
plantation. Had I used half as much prudence to
have looked into my own interest, and have made
a judgment of what I ought to have done and not
to have done, I had certainly never gone away
from so prosperous an undertaking, leaving all
the probable views of a thriving circumstance,
and gone upon a voyage to sea, attended with all
its common hazards, to say nothing of the
reasons I had to expect particular misfortunes
to myself.
But I was hurried on, and obeyed blindly the
dictates of my fancy rather than my reason; and,
accordingly, the ship being fitted out, and the
cargo furnished, and all things done, as by
agreement, by my partners in the voyage, I went
on board in an evil hour, the 1st September
1659, being the same day eight years that I went
from my father and mother at Hull, in order to
act the rebel to their authority, and the fool
to my own interests.
Our ship was about one hundred and twenty
tons burden, carried six guns and fourteen men,
besides the master, his boy, and myself. We had
on board no large cargo of goods, except of such
toys as were fit for our trade with the negroes,
such as beads, bits of glass, shells, and other
trifles, especially little looking-glasses,
knives, scissors, hatchets, and the like.
The same day I went on board we set sail,
standing away to the northward upon our own
coast, with design to stretch over for the
African coast when we came about ten or twelve
degrees of northern latitude, which, it seems,
was the manner of course in those days. We had
very good weather, only excessively hot, all the
way upon our own coast, till we came to the
height of Cape St. Augustino; from whence,
keeping further off at sea, we lost sight of
land, and steered as if we were bound for the
isle Fernando de Noronha, holding our course
N.E. by N., and leaving those isles on the east.
In this course we passed the line in about
twelve days` time, and were, by our last
observation, in seven degrees twenty-two minutes
northern latitude, when a violent tornado, or
hurricane, took us quite out of our knowledge.
It began from the south-east, came about to the
north-west, and then settled in the north-east;
from whence it blew in such a terrible manner,
that for twelve days together we could do
nothing but drive, and, scudding away before it,
let it carry us whither fate and the fury of the
winds directed; and, during these twelve days, I
need not say that I expected every day to be
swallowed up; nor, indeed, did any in the ship
expect to save their lives.
In this distress we had, besides the terror
of the storm, one of our men die of the
calenture, and one man and the boy washed
overboard. About the twelfth day, the weather
abating a little, the master made an observation
as well as he could, and found that he was in
about eleven degrees north latitude, but that he
was twenty-two degrees of longitude difference
west from Cape St. Augustino; so that he found
he was upon the coast of Guiana, or the north
part of Brazil, beyond the river Amazon, toward
that of the river Orinoco, commonly called the
Great River; and began to consult with me what
course he should take, for the ship was leaky,
and very much disabled, and he was going
directly back to the coast of Brazil.
I was positively against that; and looking
over the charts of the sea-coast of America with
him, we concluded there was no inhabited country
for us to have recourse to till we came within
the circle of the Caribbee Islands, and
therefore resolved to stand away for Barbadoes;
which, by keeping off at sea, to avoid the
indraft of the Bay or Gulf of Mexico, we might
easily perform, as we hoped, in about fifteen
days` sail; whereas we could not possibly make
our voyage to the coast of Africa without some
assistance both to our ship and to ourselves.
With this design we changed our course, and
steered away N.W. by W., in order to reach some
of our English islands, where I hoped for
relief. But our voyage was otherwise determined;
for, being in the latitude of twelve degrees
eighteen minutes, a second storm came upon us,
which carried us away with the same impetuosity
westward, and drove us so out of the way of all
human commerce, that, had all our lives been
saved as to the sea, we were rather in danger of
being devoured by savages than ever returning to
our own country.
In this distress, the wind still blowing very
hard, one of our men early in the morning cried
out, "Land!" and we had no sooner run out of the
cabin to look out, in hopes of seeing
whereabouts in the world we were, than the ship
struck upon a sand, and in a moment her motion
being so stopped, the sea broke over her in such
a manner that we expected we should all have
perished immediately; and we were immediately
driven into our close quarters, to shelter us
from the very foam and spray of the sea.
It is not easy for any one who has not been
in the like condition to describe or conceive
the consternation of men in such circumstances.
We knew nothing where we were, or upon what land
it was we were driven whether an island or the
main, whether inhabited or not inhabited. As the
rage of the wind was still great, though rather
less than at first, we could not so much as hope
to have the ship hold many minutes without
breaking into pieces, unless the winds, by a
kind of miracle, should turn immediately about.
In a word, we sat looking upon one another, and
expecting death every moment, and every man,
accordingly, preparing for another world; for
there was little or nothing more for us to do in
this. That which was our present comfort, and
all the comfort we had, was that, contrary to
our expectation, the ship did not break yet, and
that the master said the wind began to abate.
Now, though we thought that the wind did a
little abate, yet the ship having thus struck
upon the sand, and sticking too fast for us to
expect her getting off, we were in a dreadful
condition indeed, and had nothing to do but to
think of saving our lives as well as we could.
We had a boat at our stern just before the
storm, but she was first staved by dashing
against the ship`s rudder, and in the next place
she broke away, and either sunk or was driven
off to sea; so there was no hope from her. We
had another boat on board, but how to get her
off into the sea was a doubtful thing. However,
there was no time to debate, for we fancied that
the ship would break in pieces every minute, and
some told us she was actually broken already.
In this distress the mate of our vessel laid
hold of the boat, and with the help of the rest
of the men got her slung over the ship`s side;
and getting all into her, let go, and committed
ourselves, being eleven in number, to God`s
mercy and the wild sea; for though the storm was
abated considerably, yet the sea ran dreadfully
high upon the shore, and might be well called
DEN WILD ZEE, as the Dutch call the sea in a
storm.
And now our case was very dismal indeed; for
we all saw plainly that the sea went so high
that the boat could not live, and that we should
be inevitably drowned. As to making sail, we had
none, nor if we had could we have done anything
with it; so we worked at the oar towards the
land, though with heavy hearts, like men going
to execution; for we all knew that when the boat
came near the shore she would be dashed in a
thousand pieces by the breach of the sea.
However, we committed our souls to God in the
most earnest manner; and the wind driving us
towards the shore, we hastened our destruction
with our own hands, pulling as well as we could
towards land.
What the shore was, whether rock or sand,
whether steep or shoal, we knew not. The only
hope that could rationally give us the least
shadow of expectation was, if we might find some
bay or gulf, or the mouth of some river, where
by great chance we might have run our boat in,
or got under the lee of the land, and perhaps
made smooth water. But there was nothing like
this appeared; but as we made nearer and nearer
the shore, the land looked more frightful than
the sea.
After we had rowed, or rather driven about a
league and a half, as we reckoned it, a raging
wave, mountain-like, came rolling astern of us,
and plainly bade us expect the COUP DE GRACE. It
took us with such a fury, that it overset the
boat at once; and separating us as well from the
boat as from one another, gave us no time to
say, "O God!" for we were all swallowed up in a
moment.
Nothing can describe the confusion of thought
which I felt when I sank into the water; for
though I swam very well, yet I could not deliver
myself from the waves so as to draw breath, till
that wave having driven me, or rather carried
me, a vast way on towards the shore, and having
spent itself, went back, and left me upon the
land almost dry, but half dead with the water I
took in. I had so much presence of mind, as well
as breath left, that seeing myself nearer the
mainland than I expected, I got upon my feet,
and endeavoured to make on towards the land as
fast as I could before another wave should
return and take me up again; but I soon found it
was impossible to avoid it; for I saw the sea
come after me as high as a great hill, and as
furious as an enemy, which I had no means or
strength to contend with: my business was to
hold my breath, and raise myself upon the water
if I could; and so, by swimming, to preserve my
breathing, and pilot myself towards the shore,
if possible, my greatest concern now being that
the sea, as it would carry me a great way
towards the shore when it came on, might not
carry me back again with it when it gave back
towards the sea.
The wave that came upon me again buried me at
once twenty or thirty feet deep in its own body,
and I could feel myself carried with a mighty
force and swiftness towards the shore a very
great way; but I held my breath, and assisted
myself to swim still forward with all my might.
I was ready to burst with holding my breath,
when, as I felt myself rising up, so, to my
immediate relief, I found my head and hands
shoot out above the surface of the water; and
though it was not two seconds of time that I
could keep myself so, yet it relieved me
greatly, gave me breath, and new courage. I was
covered again with water a good while, but not
so long but I held it out; and finding the water
had spent itself, and began to return, I struck
forward against the return of the waves, and
felt ground again with my feet. I stood still a
few moments to recover breath, and till the
waters went from me, and then took to my heels
and ran with what strength I had further towards
the shore. But neither would this deliver me
from the fury of the sea, which came pouring in
after me again; and twice more I was lifted up
by the waves and carried forward as before, the
shore being very flat.
The last time of these two had well-nigh been
fatal to me, for the sea having hurried me along
as before, landed me, or rather dashed me,
against a piece of rock, and that with such
force, that it left me senseless, and indeed
helpless, as to my own deliverance; for the blow
taking my side and breast, beat the breath as it
were quite out of my body; and had it returned
again immediately, I must have been strangled in
the water; but I recovered a little before the
return of the waves, and seeing I should be
covered again with the water, I resolved to hold
fast by a piece of the rock, and so to hold my
breath, if possible, till the wave went back.
Now, as the waves were not so high as at first,
being nearer land, I held my hold till the wave
abated, and then fetched another run, which
brought me so near the shore that the next wave,
though it went over me, yet did not so swallow
me up as to carry me away; and the next run I
took, I got to the mainland, where, to my great
comfort, I clambered up the cliffs of the shore
and sat me down upon the grass, free from danger
and quite out of the reach of the water.
I was now landed and safe on shore, and began
to look up and thank God that my life was saved,
in a case wherein there was some minutes before
scarce any room to hope. I believe it is
impossible to express, to the life, what the
ecstasies and transports of the soul are, when
it is so saved, as I may say, out of the very
grave: and I do not wonder now at the custom,
when a malefactor, who has the halter about his
neck, is tied up, and just going to be turned
off, and has a reprieve brought to him I say, I
do not wonder that they bring a surgeon with it,
to let him blood that very moment they tell him
of it, that the surprise may not drive the
animal spirits from the heart and overwhelm him.
"For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at
first."
I walked about on the shore lifting up my
hands, and my whole being, as I may say, wrapped
up in a contemplation of my deliverance; making
a thousand gestures and motions, which I cannot
describe; reflecting upon all my comrades that
were drowned, and that there should not be one
soul saved but myself; for, as for them, I never
saw them afterwards, or any sign of them, except
three of their hats, one cap, and two shoes that
were not fellows.
I cast my eye to the stranded vessel, when,
the breach and froth of the sea being so big, I
could hardly see it, it lay so far of; and
considered, Lord! how was it possible I could
get on shore
After I had solaced my mind with the
comfortable part of my condition, I began to
look round me, to see what kind of place I was
in, and what was next to be done; and I soon
found my comforts abate, and that, in a word, I
had a dreadful deliverance; for I was wet, had
no clothes to shift me, nor anything either to
eat or drink to comfort me; neither did I see
any prospect before me but that of perishing
with hunger or being devoured by wild beasts;
and that which was particularly afflicting to me
was, that I had no weapon, either to hunt and
kill any creature for my sustenance, or to
defend myself against any other creature that
might desire to kill me for theirs. In a word, I
had nothing about me but a knife, a
tobacco-pipe, and a little tobacco in a box.
This was all my provisions; and this threw me
into such terrible agonies of mind, that for a
while I ran about like a madman. Night coming
upon me, I began with a heavy heart to consider
what would be my lot if there were any ravenous
beasts in that country, as at night they always
come abroad for their prey.
All the remedy that offered to my thoughts at
that time was to get up into a thick bushy tree
like a fir, but thorny, which grew near me, and
where I resolved to sit all night, and consider
the next day what death I should die, for as yet
I saw no prospect of life. I walked about a
furlong from the shore, to see if I could find
any fresh water to drink, which I did, to my
great joy; and having drank, and put a little
tobacco into my mouth to prevent hunger, I went
to the tree, and getting up into it, endeavoured
to place myself so that if I should sleep I
might not fall. And having cut me a short stick,
like a truncheon, for my defence, I took up my
lodging; and having been excessively fatigued, I
fell fast asleep, and slept as comfortably as, I
believe, few could have done in my condition,
and found myself more refreshed with it than, I
think, I ever was on such an occasion.
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CHAPTER IV
FIRST WEEKS ON THE ISLAND
WHEN I waked it was broad day, the weather clear, and the storm abated,
so that the sea did not rage and swell as
before. But that which surprised me most was,
that the ship was lifted off in the night from
the sand where she lay by the swelling of the
tide, and was driven up almost as far as the
rock which I at first mentioned, where I had
been so bruised by the wave dashing me against
it. This being within about a mile from the
shore where I was, and the ship seeming to stand
upright still, I wished myself on board, that at
least I might save some necessary things for my
use.
When I came down from my apartment in the
tree, I looked about me again, and the first
thing I found was the boat, which lay, as the
wind and the sea had tossed her up, upon the
land, about two miles on my right hand. I walked
as far as I could upon the shore to have got to
her; but found a neck or inlet of water between
me and the boat which was about half a mile
broad; so I came back for the present, being
more intent upon getting at the ship, where I
hoped to find something for my present
subsistence. A little after noon I found the sea
very calm, and the tide ebbed so far out that I
could come within a quarter of a mile of the
ship. And here I found a fresh renewing of my
grief; for I saw evidently that if we had kept
on board we had been all safe that is to say, we
had all got safe on shore, and I had not been so
miserable as to be left entirety destitute of
all comfort and company as I now was. This
forced tears to my eyes again; but as there was
little relief in that, I resolved, if possible,
to get to the ship; so I pulled off my clothes
for the weather was hot to extremity and took
the water. But when I came to the ship my
difficulty was still greater to know how to get
on board; for, as she lay aground, and high out
of the water, there was nothing within my reach
to lay hold of. I swam round her twice, and the
second time I spied a small piece of rope, which
I wondered I did not see at first, hung down by
the fore-chains so low, as that with great
difficulty I got hold of it, and by the help of
that rope I got up into the forecastle of the
ship. Here I found that the ship was bulged, and
had a great deal of water in her hold, but that
she lay so on the side of a bank of hard sand,
or, rather earth, that her stern lay lifted up
upon the bank, and her head low, almost to the
water. By this means all her quarter was free,
and all that was in that part was dry; for you
may be sure my first work was to search, and to
see what was spoiled and what was free. And,
first, I found that all the ship`s provisions
were dry and untouched by the water, and being
very well disposed to eat, I went to the bread
room and filled my pockets with biscuit, and ate
it as I went about other things, for I had no
time to lose. I also found some rum in the great
cabin, of which I took a large dram, and which I
had, indeed, need enough of to spirit me for
what was before me. Now I wanted nothing but a
boat to furnish myself with many things which I
foresaw would be very necessary to me.
It was in vain to sit still and wish for what
was not to be had; and this extremity roused my
application. We had several spare yards, and two
or three large spars of wood, and a spare
topmast or two in the ship; I resolved to fall
to work with these, and I flung as many of them
overboard as I could manage for their weight,
tying every one with a rope, that they might not
drive away. When this was done I went down the
ship`s side, and pulling them to me, I tied four
of them together at both ends as well as I
could, in the form of a raft, and laying two or
three short pieces of plank upon them crossways,
I found I could walk upon it very well, but that
it was not able to bear any great weight, the
pieces being too light. So I went to work, and
with a carpenter`s saw I cut a spare topmast
into three lengths, and added them to my raft,
with a great deal of labour and pains. But the
hope of furnishing myself with necessaries
encouraged me to go beyond what I should have
been able to have done upon another occasion.
My raft was now strong enough to bear any
reasonable weight. My next care was what to load
it with, and how to preserve what I laid upon it
from the surf of the sea; but I was not long
considering this. I first laid all the planks or
boards upon it that I could get, and having
considered well what I most wanted, I got three
of the seamen`s chests, which I had broken open,
and emptied, and lowered them down upon my raft;
the first of these I filled with provisions viz.
bread, rice, three Dutch cheeses, five pieces of
dried goat`s flesh (which we lived much upon),
and a little remainder of European corn, which
had been laid by for some fowls which we brought
to sea with us, but the fowls were killed. There
had been some barley and wheat together; but, to
my great disappointment, I found afterwards that
the rats had eaten or spoiled it all. As for
liquors, I found several, cases of bottles
belonging to our skipper, in which were some
cordial waters; and, in all, about five or six
gallons of rack. These I stowed by themselves,
there being no need to put them into the chest,
nor any room for them. While I was doing this, I
found the tide begin to flow, though very calm;
and I had the mortification to see my coat,
shirt, and waistcoat, which I had left on the
shore, upon the sand, swim away. As for my
breeches, which were only linen, and openkneed,
I swam on board in them and my stockings.
However, this set me on rummaging for clothes,
of which I found enough, but took no more than I
wanted for present use, for I had others things
which my eye was more upon as, first, tools to
work with on shore. And it was after long
searching that I found out the carpenter`s
chest, which was, indeed, a very useful prize to
me, and much more valuable than a shipload of
gold would have been at that time. I got it down
to my raft, whole as it was, without losing time
to look into it, for I knew in general what it
contained.
My next care was for some ammunition and
arms. There were two very good fowling-pieces in
the great cabin, and two pistols. These I
secured first, with some powder-horns and a
small bag of shot, and two old rusty swords. I
knew there were three barrels of powder in the
ship, but knew not where our gunner had stowed
them; but with much search I found them, two of
them dry and good, the third had taken water.
Those two I got to my raft with the arms. And
now I thought myself pretty well freighted, and
began to think how I should get to shore with
them, having neither sail, oar, nor rudder; and
the least capful of wind would have overset all
my navigation.
I had three encouragements 1st, a smooth,
calm sea; 2ndly, the tide rising, and setting in
to the shore; 3rdly, what little wind there was
blew me towards the land. And thus, having found
two or three broken oars belonging to the boat
and, besides the tools which were in the chest,
I found two saws, an axe, and a hammer; with
this cargo I put to sea. For a mile or
thereabouts my raft went very well, only that I
found it drive a little distant from the place
where I had landed before; by which I perceived
that there was some indraft of the water, and
consequently I hoped to find some creek or river
there, which I might make use of as a port to
get to land with my cargo.
As I imagined, so it was. There appeared
before me a little opening of the land, and I
found a strong current of the tide set into it;
so I guided my raft as well as I could, to keep
in the middle of the stream.
But here I had like to have suffered a second
shipwreck, which, if I had, I think verily would
have broken my heart; for, knowing nothing of
the coast, my raft ran aground at one end of it
upon a shoal, and not being aground at the other
end, it wanted but a little that all my cargo
had slipped off towards the end that was afloat,
and to fallen into the water. I did my utmost,
by setting my back against the chests, to keep
them in their places, but could not thrust off
the raft with all my strength; neither durst I
stir from the posture I was in; but holding up
the chests with all my might, I stood in that
manner near half-an-hour, in which time the
rising of the water brought me a little more
upon a level; and a little after, the water
still-rising, my raft floated again, and I
thrust her off with the oar I had into the
channel, and then driving up higher, I at length
found myself in the mouth of a little river,
with land on both sides, and a strong current of
tide running up. I looked on both sides for a
proper place to get to shore, for I was not
willing to be driven too high up the river:
hoping in time to see some ships at sea, and
therefore resolved to place myself as near the
coast as I could.
At length I spied a little cove on the right
shore of the creek, to which with great pain and
difficulty I guided my raft, and at last got so
near that, reaching ground with my oar, I could
thrust her directly in. But here I had like to
have dipped all my cargo into the sea again; for
that shore lying pretty steep that is to say
sloping there was no place to land, but where
one end of my float, if it ran on shore, would
lie so high, and the other sink lower, as
before, that it would endanger my cargo again.
All that I could do was to wait till the tide
was at the highest, keeping the raft with my oar
like an anchor, to hold the side of it fast to
the shore, near a flat piece of ground, which I
expected the water would flow over; and so it
did. As soon as I found water enough for my raft
drew about a foot of water I thrust her upon
that flat piece of ground, and there fastened or
moored her, by sticking my two broken oars into
the ground, one on one side near one end, and
one on the other side near the other end; and
thus I lay till the water ebbed away, and left
my raft and all my cargo safe on shore.
My next work was to view the country, and
seek a proper place for my habitation, and where
to stow my goods to secure them from whatever
might happen. Where I was, I yet knew not;
whether on the continent or on an island;
whether inhabited or not inhabited; whether in
danger of wild beasts or not. There was a hill
not above a mile from me, which rose up very
steep and high, and which seemed to overtop some
other hills, which lay as in a ridge from it
northward. I took out one of the fowling-pieces,
and one of the pistols, and a horn of powder;
and thus armed, I travelled for discovery up to
the top of that hill, where, after I had with
great labour and difficulty got to the top, I
saw any fate, to my great affliction viz. that I
was in an island environed every way with the
sea: no land to be seen except some rocks, which
lay a great way off; and two small islands, less
than this, which lay about three leagues to the
west.
I found also that the island I was in was
barren, and, as I saw good reason to believe,
uninhabited except by wild beasts, of whom,
however, I saw none. Yet I saw abundance of
fowls, but knew not their kinds; neither when I
killed them could I tell what was fit for food,
and what not. At my coming back, I shot at a
great bird which I saw sitting upon a tree on
the side of a great wood. I believe it was the
first gun that had been fired there since the
creation of the world. I had no sooner fired,
than from all parts of the wood there arose an
innumerable number of fowls, of many sorts,
making a confused screaming and crying, and
every one according to his usual note, but not
one of them of any kind that I knew. As for the
creature I killed, I took it to be a kind of
hawk, its colour and beak resembling it, but it
had no talons or claws more than common. Its
flesh was carrion, and fit for nothing.
Contented with this discovery, I came back to
my raft, and fell to work to bring my cargo on
shore, which took me up the rest of that day.
What to do with myself at night I knew not, nor
indeed where to rest, for I was afraid to lie
down on the ground, not knowing but some wild
beast might devour me, though, as I afterwards
found, there was really no need for those fears.
However, as well as I could, I barricaded
myself round with the chest and boards that I
had brought on shore, and made a kind of hut for
that night`s lodging. As for food, I yet saw not
which way to supply myself, except that I had
seen two or three creatures like hares run out
of the wood where I shot the fowl.
I now began to consider that I might yet get
a great many things out of the ship which would
be useful to me, and particularly some of the
rigging and sails, and such other things as
might come to land; and I resolved to make
another voyage on board the vessel, if possible.
And as I knew that the first storm that blew
must necessarily break her all in pieces, I
resolved to set all other things apart till I
had got everything out of the ship that I could
get. Then I called a council that is to say in
my thoughts whether I should take back the raft;
but this appeared impracticable: so I resolved
to go as before, when the tide was down; and I
did so, only that I stripped before I went from
my hut, having nothing on but my chequered
shirt, a pair of linen drawers, and a pair of
pumps on my feet.
I got on board the ship as before, and
prepared a second raft; and, having had
experience of the first, I neither made this so
unwieldy, nor loaded it so hard, but yet I
brought away several things very useful to me;
as first, in the carpenters stores I found two
or three bags full of nails and spikes, a great
screwjack, a dozen or two of hatchets, and,
above all, that most useful thing called a
grindstone. All these I secured, together with
several things belonging to the gunner,
particularly two or three iron crows, and two
barrels of musket bullets, seven muskets,
another fowling-piece, with some small quantity
of powder more; a large bagful of small shot,
and a great roll of sheet-lead; but this last
was so heavy, I could not hoist it up to get it
over the ship`s side.
Besides these things, I took all the men`s
clothes that I could find, and a spare
fore-topsail, a hammock, and some bedding; and
with this I loaded my second raft, and brought
them all safe on shore, to my very great
comfort.
I was under some apprehension, during my
absence from the land, that at least my
provisions might be devoured on shore: but when
I came back I found no sign of any visitor; only
there sat a creature like a wild cat upon one of
the chests, which, when I came towards it, ran
away a little distance, and then stood still.
She sat very composed and unconcerned, and
looked full in my face, as if she had a mind to
be acquainted with me. I presented my gun at
her, but, as she did not understand it, she was
perfectly unconcerned at it, nor did she offer
to stir away; upon which I tossed her a bit of
biscuit, though by the way, I was not very free
of it, for my store was not great: however, I
spared her a bit, I say, and she went to it,
smelled at it, and ate it, and looked (as if
pleased) for more; but I thanked her, and could
spare no more: so she marched off.
Having got my second cargo on shore though I
was fain to open the barrels of powder, and
bring them by parcels, for they were too heavy,
being large casks I went to work to make me a
little tent with the sail and some poles which I
cut for that purpose: and into this tent I
brought everything that I knew would spoil
either with rain or sun; and I piled all the
empty chests and casks up in a circle round the
tent, to fortify it from any sudden attempt,
either from man or beast.
When I had done this, I blocked up the door
of the tent with some boards within, and an
empty chest set up on end without; and spreading
one of the beds upon the ground, laying my two
pistols just at my head, and my gun at length by
me, I went to bed for the first time, and slept
very quietly all night, for I was very weary and
heavy; for the night before I had slept little,
and had laboured very hard all day to fetch all
those things from the ship, and to get them on
shore.
I had the biggest magazine of all kinds now
that ever was laid up, I believe, for one man:
but I was not satisfied still, for while the
ship sat upright in that posture, I thought I
ought to get everything out of her that I could;
so every day at low water I went on board, and
brought away something or other; but
particularly the third time I went I brought
away as much of the rigging as I could, as also
all the small ropes and rope-twine I could get,
with a piece of spare canvas, which was to mend
the sails upon occasion, and the barrel of wet
gunpowder. In a word, I brought away all the
sails, first and last; only that I was fain to
cut them in pieces, and bring as much at a time
as I could, for they were no more useful to be
sails, but as mere canvas only.
But that which comforted me more still, was,
that last of all, after I had made five or six
such voyages as these, and thought I had nothing
more to expect from the ship that was worth my
meddling with I say, after all this, I found a
great hogshead of bread, three large runlets of
rum, or spirits, a box of sugar, and a barrel of
fine flour; this was surprising to me, because I
had given over expecting any more provisions,
except what was spoiled by the water. I soon
emptied the hogshead of the bread, and wrapped
it up, parcel by parcel, in pieces of the sails,
which I cut out; and, in a word, I got all this
safe on shore also.
The next day I made another voyage, and now,
having plundered the ship of what was portable
and fit to hand out, I began with the cables.
Cutting the great cable into pieces, such as I
could move, I got two cables and a hawser on
shore, with all the ironwork I could get; and
having cut down the spritsail-yard, and the
mizzenyard, and everything I could, to make a
large raft, I loaded it with all these heavy
goods, and came away. But my good luck began now
to leave me; for this raft was so unwieldy, and
so overladen, that, after I had entered the
little cove where I had landed the rest of my
goods, not being able to guide it so handily as
I did the other, it overset, and threw me and
all my cargo into the water. As for myself, it
was no great harm, for I was near the shore; but
as to my cargo, it was a great part of it lost,
especially the iron, which I expected would have
been of great use to me; however, when the tide
was out, I got most of the pieces of the cable
ashore, and some of the iron, though with
infinite labour; for I was fain to dip for it
into the water, a work which fatigued me very
much. After this, I went every day on board, and
brought away what I could get.
I had been now thirteen days on shore, and
had been eleven times on board the ship, in
which time I had brought away all that one pair
of hands could well be supposed capable to
bring; though I believe verily, had the calm
weather held, I should have brought away the
whole ship, piece by piece. But preparing the
twelfth time to go on board, I found the wind
began to rise: however, at low water I went on
board, and though I thought I had rummaged the
cabin so effectually that nothing more could be
found, yet I discovered a locker with drawers in
it, in one of which I found two or three razors,
and one pair of large scissors, with some ten or
a dozen of good knives and forks: in another I
found about thirty-six pounds value in money
some European coin, some Brazil, some pieces of
eight, some gold, and some silver.
I smiled to myself at the sight of this
money: "O drug!" said I, aloud, "what art thou
good for? Thou art not worth to me no, not the
taking off the ground; one of those knives is
worth all this heap; I have no manner of use for
thee e`en remain where thou art, and go to the
bottom as a creature whose life is not worth
saying." However, upon second thoughts I took it
away; and wrapping all this in a piece of
canvas, I began to think of making another raft;
but while I was preparing this, I found the sky
overcast, and the wind began to rise, and in a
quarter of an hour it blew a fresh gale from the
shore. It presently occurred to me that it was
in vain to pretend to make a raft with the wind
offshore; and that it was my business to be gone
before the tide of flood began, otherwise I
might not be able to reach the shore at all.
Accordingly, I let myself down into the water,
and swam across the channel, which lay between
the ship and the sands, and even that with
difficulty enough, partly with the weight of the
things I had about me, and partly the roughness
of the water; for the wind rose very hastily,
and before it was quite high water it blew a
storm.
But I had got home to my little tent, where I
lay, with all my wealth about me, very secure.
It blew very hard all night, and in the morning,
when I looked out, behold, no more ship was to
be seen! I was a little surprised, but recovered
myself with the satisfactory reflection that I
had lost no time, nor abated any diligence, to
get everything out of her that could be useful
to me; and that, indeed, there was little left
in her that I was able to bring away, if I had
had more time.
I now gave over any more thoughts of the
ship, or of anything out of her, except what
might drive on shore from her wreck; as, indeed,
divers pieces of her afterwards did; but those
things were of small use to me.
My thoughts were now wholly employed about
securing myself against either savages, if any
should appear, or wild beasts, if any were in
the island; and I had many thoughts of the
method how to do this, and what kind of dwelling
to make whether I should make me a cave in the
earth, or a tent upon the earth; and, in short,
I resolved upon both; the manner and description
of which, it may not be improper to give an
account of.
I soon found the place I was in was not fit
for my settlement, because it was upon a low,
moorish ground, near the sea, and I believed it
would not be wholesome, and more particularly
because there was no fresh water near it; so I
resolved to find a more healthy and more
convenient spot of ground.
I consulted several things in my situation,
which I found would he proper for me: 1st,
health and fresh water, I just now mentioned;
2ndly, shelter from the heat of the sun; 3rdly,
security from ravenous creatures, whether man or
beast; 4thly, a view to the sea, that if God
sent any ship in sight, I might not lose any
advantage for my deliverance, of which I was not
willing to banish all my expectation yet.
In search of a place proper for this, I found
a little plain on the side of a rising hill,
whose front towards this little plain was steep
as a house-side, so that nothing could come down
upon me from the top. On the one side of the
rock there was a hollow place, worn a little way
in, like the entrance or door of a cave but
there was not really any cave or way into the
rock at all.
On the flat of the green, just before this
hollow place, I resolved to pitch my tent. This
plain was not above a hundred yards broad, and
about twice as long, and lay like a green before
my door; and, at the end of it, descended
irregularly every way down into the low ground
by the seaside. It was on the N.N.W. side of the
hill; so that it was sheltered from the heat
every day, till it came to a W. and by S. sun,
or thereabouts, which, in those countries, is
near the setting.
Before I set up my tent I drew a half-circle
before the hollow place, which took in about ten
yards in its semi-diameter from the rock, and
twenty yards in its diameter from its beginning
and ending.
In this half-circle I pitched two rows of
strong stakes, driving them into the ground till
they stood very firm like piles, the biggest end
being out of the ground above five feet and a
half, and sharpened on the top. The two rows did
not stand above six inches from one another.
Then I took the pieces of cable which I had
cut in the ship, and laid them in rows, one upon
another, within the circle, between these two
rows of stakes, up to the top, placing other
stakes in the inside, leaning against them,
about two feet and a half high, like a spur to a
post; and this fence was so strong, that neither
man nor beast could get into it or over it. This
cost me a great deal of time and labour,
especially to cut the piles in the woods, bring
them to the place, and drive them into the
earth.
The entrance into this place I made to be,
not by a door, but by a short ladder to go over
the top; which ladder, when I was in, I lifted
over after me; and so I was completely fenced in
and fortified, as I thought, from all the world,
and consequently slept secure in the night,
which otherwise I could not have done; though,
as it appeared afterwards, there was no need of
all this caution from the enemies that I
apprehended danger from.
Into this fence or fortress, with infinite
labour, I carried all my riches, all my
provisions, ammunition, and stores, of which you
have the account above; and I made a large tent,
which to preserve me from the rains that in one
part of the year are very violent there, I made
double one smaller tent within, and one larger
tent above it; and covered the uppermost with a
large tarpaulin, which I had saved among the
sails.
And now I lay no more for a while in the bed
which I had brought on shore, but in a hammock,
which was indeed a very good one, and belonged
to the mate of the ship.
Into this tent I brought all my provisions,
and everything that would spoil by the wet; and
having thus enclosed all my goods, I made up the
entrance, which till now I had left open, and so
passed and repassed, as I said, by a short
ladder.
When I had done this, I began to work my way
into the rock, and bringing all the earth and
stones that I dug down out through my tent, I
laid them up within my fence, in the nature of a
terrace, so that it raised the ground within
about a foot and a half; and thus I made me a
cave, just behind my tent, which served me like
a cellar to my house.
It cost me much labour and many days before
all these things were brought to perfection; and
therefore I must go back to some other things
which took up some of my thoughts. At the same
time it happened, after I had laid my scheme for
the setting up my tent, and making the cave,
that a storm of rain falling from a thick, dark
cloud, a sudden flash of lightning happened, and
after that a great clap of thunder, as is
naturally the effect of it. I was not so much
surprised with the lightning as I was with the
thought which darted into my mind as swift as
the lightning itself Oh, my powder! My very
heart sank within me when I thought that, at one
blast, all my powder might be destroyed; on
which, not my defence only, but the providing my
food, as I thought, entirely depended. I was
nothing near so anxious about my own danger,
though, had the powder took fire, I should never
have known who had hurt me.
Such impression did this make upon me, that
after the storm was over I laid aside all my
works, my building and fortifying, and applied
myself to make bags and boxes, to separate the
powder, and to keep it a little and a little in
a parcel, in the hope that, whatever might come,
it might not all take fire at once; and to keep
it so apart that it should not be possible to
make one part fire another. I finished this work
in about a fortnight; and I think my powder,
which in all was about two hundred and forty
pounds weight, was divided in not less than a
hundred parcels. As to the barrel that had been
wet, I did not apprehend any danger from that;
so I placed it in my new cave, which, in my
fancy, I called my kitchen; and the rest I hid
up and down in holes among the rocks, so that no
wet might come to it, marking very carefully
where I laid it.
In the interval of time while this was doing,
I went out once at least every day with my gun,
as well to divert myself as to see if I could
kill anything fit for food; and, as near as I
could, to acquaint myself with what the island
produced. The first time I went out, I presently
discovered that there were goats in the island,
which was a great satisfaction to me; but then
it was attended with this misfortune to me viz.
that they were so shy, so subtle, and so swift
of foot, that it was the most difficult thing in
the world to come at them; but I was not
discouraged at this, not doubting but I might
now and then shoot one, as it soon happened; for
after I had found their haunts a little, I laid
wait in this manner for them: I observed if they
saw me in the valleys, though they were upon the
rocks, they would run away, as in a terrible
fright; but if they were feeding in the valleys,
and I was upon the rocks, they took no notice of
me; from whence I concluded that, by the
position of their optics, their sight was so
directed downward that they did not readily see
objects that were above them; so afterwards I
took this method I always climbed the rocks
first, to get above them, and then had
frequently a fair mark.
The first shot I made among these creatures,
I killed a she-goat, which had a little kid by
her, which she gave suck to, which grieved me
heartily; for when the old one fell, the kid
stood stock still by her, till I came and took
her up; and not only so, but when I carried the
old one with me, upon my shoulders, the kid
followed me quite to my enclosure; upon which I
laid down the dam, and took the kid in my arms,
and carried it over my pale, in hopes to have
bred it up tame; but it would not eat; so I was
forced to kill it and eat it myself. These two
supplied me with flesh a great while, for I ate
sparingly, and saved my provisions, my bread
especially, as much as possibly I could.
Having now fixed my habitation, I found it
absolutely necessary to provide a place to make
a fire in, and fuel to burn: and what I did for
that, and also how I enlarged my cave, and what
conveniences I made, I shall give a full account
of in its place; but I must now give some little
account of myself, and of my thoughts about
living, which, it may well be supposed, were not
a few.
I had a dismal prospect of my condition; for
as I was not cast away upon that island without
being driven, as is said, by a violent storm,
quite out of the course of our intended voyage,
and a great way, viz. some hundreds of leagues,
out of the ordinary course of the trade of
mankind, I had great reason to consider it as a
determination of Heaven, that in this desolate
place, and in this desolate manner, I should end
my life. The tears would run plentifully down my
face when I made these reflections; and
sometimes I would expostulate with myself why
Providence should thus completely ruin His
creatures, and render them so absolutely
miserable; so without help, abandoned, so
entirely depressed, that it could hardly be
rational to be thankful for such a life.
But something always returned swift upon me
to check these thoughts, and to reprove me; and
particularly one day, walking with my gun in my
hand by the seaside, I was very pensive upon the
subject of my present condition, when reason, as
it were, expostulated with me the other way,
thus: "Well, you are in a desolate condition, it
is true; but, pray remember, where are the rest
of you? Did not you come, eleven of you in the
boat? Where are the ten? Why were they not
saved, and you lost? Why were you singled out?
Is it better to be here or there?" And then I
pointed to the sea. All evils are to be
considered with the good that is in them, and
with what worse attends them.
Then it occurred to me again, how well I was
furnished for my subsistence, and what would
have been my case if it had not happened (which
was a hundred thousand to one) that the ship
floated from the place where she first struck,
and was driven so near to the shore that I had
time to get all these things out of her; what
would have been my case, if I had been forced to
have lived in the condition in which I at first
came on shore, without necessaries of life, or
necessaries to supply and procure them?
"Particularly," said I, aloud (though to
myself), "what should I have done without a gun,
without ammunition, without any tools to make
anything, or to work with, without clothes,
bedding, a tent, or any manner of covering?" and
that now I had all these to sufficient quantity,
and was in a fair way to provide myself in such
a manner as to live without my gun, when my
ammunition was spent: so that I had a tolerable
view of subsisting, without any want, as long as
I lived; for I considered from the beginning how
I would provide for the accidents that might
happen, and for the time that was to come, even
not only after my ammunition should be spent,
but even after my health and strength should
decay.
I confess I had not entertained any notion of
my ammunition being destroyed at one blast I
mean my powder being blown up by lightning; and
this made the thoughts of it so surprising to
me, when it lightened and thundered, as I
observed just now.
And now being about to enter into a
melancholy relation of a scene of silent life,
such, perhaps, as was never heard of in the
world before, I shall take it from its
beginning, and continue it in its order. It was
by my account the 30th of September, when, in
the manner as above said, I first set foot upon
this horrid island; when the sun, being to us in
its autumnal equinox, was almost over my head;
for I reckoned myself, by observation, to be in
the latitude of nine degrees twenty-two minutes
north of the line.
After I had been there about ten or twelve
days, it came into my thoughts that I should
lose my reckoning of time for want of books, and
pen and ink, and should even forget the Sabbath
days; but to prevent this, I cut with my knife
upon a large post, in capital letters and making
it into a great cross, I set it up on the shore
where I first landed "I came on shore here on
the 30th September 1659."
Upon the sides of this square post I cut
every day a notch with my knife, and every
seventh notch was as long again as the rest, and
every first day of the month as long again as
that long one; and thus I kept my calendar, or
weekly, monthly, and yearly reckoning of time.
In the next place, we are to observe that
among the many things which I brought out of the
ship, in the several voyages which, as above
mentioned, I made to it, I got several things of
less value, but not at all less useful to me,
which I omitted setting down before; as, in
particular, pens, ink, and paper, several
parcels in the captain`s, mate`s, gunner`s and
carpenter`s keeping; three or four compasses,
some mathematical instruments, dials,
perspectives, charts, and books of navigation,
all which I huddled together, whether I might
want them or no; also, I found three very good
Bibles, which came to me in my cargo from
England, and which I had packed up among my
things; some Portuguese books also; and among
them two or three Popish prayer-books, and
several other books, all which I carefully
secured. And I must not forget that we had in
the ship a dog and two cats, of whose eminent
history I may have occasion to say something in
its place; for I carried both the cats with me;
and as for the dog, he jumped out of the ship of
himself, and swam on shore to me the day after I
went on shore with my first cargo, and was a
trusty servant to me many years; I wanted
nothing that he could fetch me, nor any company
that he could make up to me; I only wanted to
have him talk to me, but that would not do. As I
observed before, I found pens, ink, and paper,
and I husbanded them to the utmost; and I shall
show that while my ink lasted, I kept things
very exact, but after that was gone I could not,
for I could not make any ink by any means that I
could devise.
And this put me in mind that I wanted many
things notwithstanding all that I had amassed
together; and of these, ink was one; as also a
spade, pickaxe, and shovel, to dig or remove the
earth; needles, pins, and thread; as for linen,
I soon learned to want that without much
difficulty.
This want of tools made every work I did go
on heavily; and it was near a whole year before
I had entirely finished my little pale, or
surrounded my habitation. The piles, or stakes,
which were as heavy as I could well lift, were a
long time in cutting and preparing in the woods,
and more, by far, in bringing home; so that I
spent sometimes two days in cutting and bringing
home one of those posts, and a third day in
driving it into the ground; for which purpose I
got a heavy piece of wood at first, but at last
bethought myself of one of the iron crows;
which, however, though I found it, made driving
those posts or piles very laborious and tedious
work. But what need I have been concerned at the
tediousness of anything I had to do, seeing I
had time enough to do it in? nor had I any other
employment, if that had been over, at least that
I could foresee, except the ranging the island
to seek for food, which I did, more or less,
every day.
I now began to consider seriously my
condition, and the circumstances I was reduced
to; and I drew up the state of my affairs in
writing, not so much to leave them to any that
were to come after me for I was likely to have
but few heirs as to deliver my thoughts from
daily poring over them, and afflicting my mind;
and as my reason began now to master my
despondency, I began to comfort myself as well
as I could, and to set the good against the
evil, that I might have something to distinguish
my case from worse; and I stated very
impartially, like debtor and creditor, the
comforts I enjoyed against the miseries I
suffered, thus:
Evil: I am cast upon a horrible, desolate
island, void of all hope of recovery.
Good: But I am alive; and not drowned, as all
my ship`s company were.
Evil: I am singled out and separated, as it
were, from all the world, to be miserable.
Good: But I am singled out, too, from all the
ship`s crew, to be spared from death; and He
that miraculously saved me from death can
deliver me from this condition.
Evil: I am divided from mankind a solitaire;
one banished from human society.
Good: But I am not starved, and perishing on
a barren place, affording no sustenance.
Evil: I have no clothes to cover me.
Good: But I am in a hot climate, where, if I
had clothes, I could hardly wear them.
Evil: I am without any defence, or means to
resist any violence of man or beast.
Good: But I am cast on an island where I see
no wild beasts to hurt me, as I saw on the coast
of Africa; and what if I had been shipwrecked
there?
Evil: I have no soul to speak to or relieve
me.
Good: But God wonderfully sent the ship in
near enough to the shore, that I have got out as
many necessary things as will either supply my
wants or enable me to supply myself, even as
long as I live.
Upon the whole, here was an undoubted
testimony that there was scarce any condition in
the world so miserable but there was something
negative or something positive to be thankful
for in it; and let this stand as a direction
from the experience of the most miserable of all
conditions in this world: that we may always
find in it something to comfort ourselves from,
and to set, in the description of good and evil,
on the credit side of the account.
Having now brought my mind a little to relish
my condition, and given over looking out to sea,
to see if I could spy a ship I say, giving over
these things, I begun to apply myself to arrange
my way of living, and to make things as easy to
me as I could.
I have already described my habitation, which
was a tent under the side of a rock, surrounded
with a strong pale of posts and cables: but I
might now rather call it a wall, for I raised a
kind of wall up against it of turfs, about two
feet thick on the outside; and after some time
(I think it was a year and a half) I raised
rafters from it, leaning to the rock, and
thatched or covered it with boughs of trees, and
such things as I could get, to keep out the
rain; which I found at some times of the year
very violent.
I have already observed how I brought all my
goods into this pale, and into the cave which I
had made behind me. But I must observe, too,
that at first this was a confused heap of goods,
which, as they lay in no order, so they took up
all my place; I had no room to turn myself: so I
set myself to enlarge my cave, and work farther
into the earth; for it was a loose sandy rock,
which yielded easily to the labour I bestowed on
it: and so when I found I was pretty safe as to
beasts of prey, I worked sideways, to the right
hand, into the rock; and then, turning to the
right again, worked quite out, and made me a
door to come out on the outside of my pale or
fortification. This gave me not only egress and
regress, as it was a back way to my tent and to
my storehouse, but gave me room to store my
goods.
And now I began to apply myself to make such
necessary things as I found I most wanted,
particularly a chair and a table; for without
these I was not able to enjoy the few comforts I
had in the world; I could not write or eat, or
do several things, with so much pleasure without
a table: so I went to work. And here I must
needs observe, that as reason is the substance
and origin of the mathematics, so by stating and
squaring everything by reason, and by making the
most rational judgment of things, every man may
be, in time, master of every mechanic art. I had
never handled a tool in my life; and yet, in
time, by labour, application, and contrivance, I
found at last that I wanted nothing but I could
have made it, especially if I had had tools.
However, I made abundance of things, even
without tools; and some with no more tools than
an adze and a hatchet, which perhaps were never
made that way before, and that with infinite
labour. For example, if I wanted a board, I had
no other way but to cut down a tree, set it on
an edge before me, and hew it flat on either
side with my axe, till I brought it to be thin
as a plank, and then dub it smooth with my adze.
It is true, by this method I could make but one
board out of a whole tree; but this I had no
remedy for but patience, any more than I had for
the prodigious deal of time and labour which it
took me up to make a plank or board: but my time
or labour was little worth, and so it was as
well employed one way as another.
However, I made me a table and a chair, as I
observed above, in the first place; and this I
did out of the short pieces of boards that I
brought on my raft from the ship. But when I had
wrought out some boards as above, I made large
shelves, of the breadth of a foot and a half,
one over another all along one side of my cave,
to lay all my tools, nails and ironwork on; and,
in a word, to separate everything at large into
their places, that I might come easily at them.
I knocked pieces into the wall of the rock to
hang my guns and all things that would hang up;
so that, had my cave been to be seen, it looked
like a general magazine of all necessary things;
and had everything so ready at my hand, that it
was a great pleasure to me to see all my goods
in such order, and especially to find my stock
of all necessaries so great.
And now it was that I began to keep a journal
of every day`s employment; for, indeed, at first
I was in too much hurry, and not only hurry as
to labour, but in too much discomposure of mind;
and my journal would have been full of many dull
things; for example, I must have said thus:
"30TH. After I had got to shore, and escaped
drowning, instead of being thankful to God for
my deliverance, having first vomited, with the
great quantity of salt water which had got into
my stomach, and recovering myself a little, I
ran about the shore wringing my hands and
beating my head and face, exclaiming at my
misery, and crying out, `I was undone, undone!`
till, tired and faint, I was forced to lie down
on the ground to repose, but durst not sleep for
fear of being devoured."
Some days after this, and after I had been on
board the ship, and got all that I could out of
her, yet I could not forbear getting up to the
top of a little mountain and looking out to sea,
in hopes of seeing a ship; then fancy at a vast
distance I spied a sail, please myself with the
hopes of it, and then after looking steadily,
till I was almost blind, lose it quite, and sit
down and weep like a child, and thus increase my
misery by my folly.
But having gotten over these things in some
measure, and having settled my household staff
and habitation, made me a table and a chair, and
all as handsome about me as I could, I began to
keep my journal; of which I shall here give you
the copy (though in it will be told all these
particulars over again) as long as it lasted;
for having no more ink, I was forced to leave it
off.
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CHAPTER V
BUILDS A HOUSE THE JOURNAL
SEPTEMBER 30, 1659. I, poor miserable Robinson Crusoe, being
shipwrecked during a dreadful storm in the
offing, came on shore on this dismal,
unfortunate island, which I called "The Island
of Despair"; all the rest of the ship`s company
being drowned, and myself almost dead.
All the rest of the day I spent in afflicting
myself at the dismal circumstances I was brought
to viz. I had neither food, house, clothes,
weapon, nor place to fly to; and in despair of
any relief, saw nothing but death before me
either that I should be devoured by wild beasts,
murdered by savages, or starved to death for
want of food. At the approach of night I slept
in a tree, for fear of wild creatures; but slept
soundly, though it rained all night.
OCTOBER 1. In the morning I saw, to my great
surprise, the ship had floated with the high
tide, and was driven on shore again much nearer
the island; which, as it was some comfort, on
one hand for, seeing her set upright, and not
broken to pieces, I hoped, if the wind abated, I
might get on board, and get some food and
necessaries out of her for my relief so, on the
other hand, it renewed my grief at the loss of
my comrades, who, I imagined, if we had all
stayed on board, might have saved the ship, or,
at least, that they would not have been all
drowned as they were; and that, had the men been
saved, we might perhaps have built us a boat out
of the ruins of the ship to have carried us to
some other part of the world. I spent great part
of this day in perplexing myself on these
things; but at length, seeing the ship almost
dry, I went upon the sand as near as I could,
and then swam on board. This day also it
continued raining, though with no wind at all.
FROM THE 1ST OF OCTOBER TO THE 24TH. All
these days entirely spent in many several
voyages to get all I could out of the ship,
which I brought on shore every tide of flood
upon rafts. Much rain also in the days, though
with some intervals of fair weather; but it
seems this was the rainy season.
OCT. 20. I overset my raft, and all the goods
I had got upon it; but, being in shoal water,
and the things being chiefly heavy, I recovered
many of them when the tide was out.
OCT. 25. It rained all night and all day,
with some gusts of wind; during which time the
ship broke in pieces, the wind blowing a little
harder than before, and was no more to be seen,
except the wreck of her, and that only at low
water. I spent this day in covering and securing
the goods which I had saved, that the rain might
not spoil them.
OCT. 26. I walked about the shore almost all
day, to find out a place to fix my habitation,
greatly concerned to secure myself from any
attack in the night, either from wild beasts or
men. Towards night, I fixed upon a proper place,
under a rock, and marked out a semicircle for my
encampment; which I resolved to strengthen with
a work, wall, or fortification, made of double
piles, lined within with cables, and without
with turf.
From the 26th to the 30th I worked very hard
in carrying all my goods to my new habitation,
though some part of the time it rained
exceedingly hard. The 31st, in the morning, I
went out into the island with my gun, to seek
for some food, and discover the country; when I
killed a she-goat, and her kid followed me home,
which I afterwards killed also, because it would
not feed.
NOVEMBER 1. I set up my tent under a rock,
and lay there for the first night; making it as
large as I could, with stakes driven in to swing
my hammock upon.
NOV. 2. I set up all my chests and boards,
and the pieces of timber which made my rafts,
and with them formed a fence round me, a little
within the place I had marked out for my
fortification.
NOV. 3. I went out with my gun, and killed
two fowls like ducks, which were very good food.
In the afternoon went to work to make me a
table.
NOV. 4. This morning I began to order my
times of work, of going out with my gun, time of
sleep, and time of diversion viz. every morning
I walked out with my gun for two or three hours,
if it did not rain; then employed myself to work
till about eleven o`clock; then eat what I had
to live on; and from twelve to two I lay down to
sleep, the weather being excessively hot; and
then, in the evening, to work again. The working
part of this day and of the next were wholly
employed in making my table, for I was yet but a
very sorry workman, though time and necessity
made me a complete natural mechanic soon after,
as I believe they would do any one else.
NOV. 5. This day went abroad with my gun and
my dog, and killed a wild cat; her skin pretty
soft, but her flesh good for nothing; every
creature that I killed I took of the skins and
preserved them. Coming back by the sea-shore, I
saw many sorts of sea-fowls, which I did not
understand; but was surprised, and almost
frightened, with two or three seals, which,
while I was gazing at, not well knowing what
they were, got into the sea, and escaped me for
that time.
NOV. 6. After my morning walk I went to work
with my table again, and finished it, though not
to my liking; nor was it long before I learned
to mend it.
NOV. 7. Now it began to be settled fair
weather. The 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, and part of
the 12th (for the 11th was Sunday) I took wholly
up to make me a chair, and with much ado brought
it to a tolerable shape, but never to please me;
and even in the making I pulled it in pieces
several times.
NOTE. I soon neglected my keeping Sundays;
for, omitting my mark for them on my post, I
forgot which was which.
NOV. 13. This day it rained, which refreshed
me exceedingly, and cooled the earth; but it was
accompanied with terrible thunder and lightning,
which frightened me dreadfully, for fear of my
powder. As soon as it was over, I resolved to
separate my stock of powder into as many little
parcels as possible, that it might not be in
danger.
NOV. 14, 15, 16. These three days I spent in
making little square chests, or boxes, which
might hold about a pound, or two pounds at most,
of powder; and so, putting the powder in, I
stowed it in places as secure and remote from
one another as possible. On one of these three
days I killed a large bird that was good to eat,
but I knew not what to call it.
NOV. 17. This day I began to dig behind my
tent into the rock, to make room for my further
conveniency.
NOTE. Three things I wanted exceedingly for
this work viz. a pickaxe, a shovel, and a
wheelbarrow or basket; so I desisted from my
work, and began to consider how to supply that
want, and make me some tools. As for the
pickaxe, I made use of the iron crows, which
were proper enough, though heavy; but the next
thing was a shovel or spade; this was so
absolutely necessary, that, indeed, I could do
nothing effectually without it; but what kind of
one to make I knew not.
NOV. 18. The next day, in searching the
woods, I found a tree of that wood, or like it,
which in the Brazils they call the irontree, for
its exceeding hardness. Of this, with great
labour, and almost spoiling my axe, I cut a
piece, and brought it home, too, with difficulty
enough, for it was exceeding heavy. The
excessive hardness of the wood, and my having no
other way, made me a long while upon this
machine, for I worked it effectually by little
and little into the form of a shovel or spade;
the handle exactly shaped like ours in England,
only that the board part having no iron shod
upon it at bottom, it would not last me so long;
however, it served well enough for the uses
which I had occasion to put it to; but never was
a shovel, I believe, made after that fashion, or
so long in making.
I was still deficient, for I wanted a basket
or a wheelbarrow. A basket I could not make by
any means, having no such things as twigs that
would bend to make wicker-ware at least, none
yet found out; and as to a wheelbarrow, I
fancied I could make all but the wheel; but that
I had no notion of; neither did I know how to go
about it; besides, I had no possible way to make
the iron gudgeons for the spindle or axis of the
wheel to run in; so I gave it over, and so, for
carrying away the earth which I dug out of the
cave, I made me a thing like a hod which the
labourers carry mortar in when they serve the
bricklayers. This was not so difficult to me as
the making the shovel: and yet this and the
shovel, and the attempt which I made in vain to
make a wheelbarrow, took me up no less than four
days I mean always excepting my morning walk
with my gun, which I seldom failed, and very
seldom failed also bringing home something fit
to eat.
NOV. 23. My other work having now stood
still, because of my making these tools, when
they were finished I went on, and working every
day, as my strength and time allowed, I spent
eighteen days entirely in widening and deepening
my cave, that it might hold my goods
commodiously.
NOTE. During all this time I worked to make
this room or cave spacious enough to accommodate
me as a warehouse or magazine, a kitchen, a
dining-room, and a cellar. As for my lodging, I
kept to the tent; except that sometimes, in the
wet season of the year, it rained so hard that I
could not keep myself dry, which caused me
afterwards to cover all my place within my pale
with long poles, in the form of rafters, leaning
against the rock, and load them with flags and
large leaves of trees, like a thatch.
DECEMBER 10. I began now to think my cave or
vault finished, when on a sudden (it seems I had
made it too large) a great quantity of earth
fell down from the top on one side; so much
that, in short, it frighted me, and not without
reason, too, for if I had been under it, I had
never wanted a gravedigger. I had now a great
deal of work to do over again, for I had the
loose earth to carry out; and, which was of more
importance, I had the ceiling to prop up, so
that I might be sure no more would come down.
DEC. 11. This day I went to work with it
accordingly, and got two shores or posts pitched
upright to the top, with two pieces of boards
across over each post; this I finished the next
day; and setting more posts up with boards, in
about a week more I had the roof secured, and
the posts, standing in rows, served me for
partitions to part off the house.
DEC. 17. From this day to the 20th I placed
shelves, and knocked up nails on the posts, to
hang everything up that could be hung up; and
now I began to be in some order within doors.
DEC. 20. Now I carried everything into the
cave, and began to furnish my house, and set up
some pieces of boards like a dresser, to order
my victuals upon; but boards began to be very
scarce with me; also, I made me another table.
DEC. 24. Much rain all night and all day. No
stirring out.
DEC. 25. Rain all day.
DEC. 26. No rain, and the earth much cooler
than before, and pleasanter.
DEC. 27. Killed a young goat, and lamed
another, so that I caught it and led it home in
a string; when I had it at home, I bound and
splintered up its leg, which was broke.
N.B. I took such care of it that it lived,
and the leg grew well and as strong as ever;
but, by my nursing it so long, it grew tame, and
fed upon the little green at my door, and would
not go away. This was the first time that I
entertained a thought of breeding up some tame
creatures, that I might have food when my powder
and shot was all spent.
DEC. 28,29,30,31. Great heats, and no breeze,
so that there was no stirring abroad, except in
the evening, for food; this time I spent in
putting all my things in order within doors.
JANUARY 1. Very hot still: but I went abroad
early and late with my gun, and lay still in the
middle of the day. This evening, going farther
into the valleys which lay towards the centre of
the island, I found there were plenty of goats,
though exceedingly shy, and hard to come at;
however, I resolved to try if I could not bring
my dog to hunt them down.
JAN. 2. Accordingly, the next day I went out
with my dog, and set him upon the goats, but I
was mistaken, for they all faced about upon the
dog, and he knew his danger too well, for he
would not come near them.
JAN. 3. I began my fence or wall; which,
being still jealous of my being attacked by
somebody, I resolved to make very thick and
strong.
N.B. This wall being described before, I
purposely omit what was said in the journal; it
is sufficient to observe, that I was no less
time than from the 2nd of January to the 14th of
April working, finishing, and perfecting this
wall, though it was no more than about
twenty-four yards in length, being a half-circle
from one place in the rock to another place,
about eight yards from it, the door of the cave
being in the centre behind it.
All this time I worked very hard, the rains
hindering me many days, nay, sometimes weeks
together; but I thought I should never be
perfectly secure till this wall was finished;
and it is scarce credible what inexpressible
labour everything was done with, especially the
bringing piles out of the woods and driving them
into the ground; for I made them much bigger
than I needed to have done.
When this wall was finished, and the outside
double fenced, with a turf wall raised up close
to it, I perceived myself that if any people
were to come on shore there, they would not
perceive anything like a habitation; and it was
very well I did so, as may be observed
hereafter, upon a very remarkable occasion.
During this time I made my rounds in the
woods for game every day when the rain permitted
me, and made frequent discoveries in these walks
of something or other to my advantage;
particularly, I found a kind of wild pigeons,
which build, not as wood-pigeons in a tree, but
rather as house-pigeons, in the holes of the
rocks; and taking some young ones, I endeavoured
to breed them up tame, and did so; but when they
grew older they flew away, which perhaps was at
first for want of feeding them, for I had
nothing to give them; however, I frequently
found their nests, and got their young ones,
which were very good meat. And now, in the
managing my household affairs, I found myself
wanting in many things, which I thought at first
it was impossible for me to make; as, indeed,
with some of them it was: for instance, I could
never make a cask to be hooped. I had a small
runlet or two, as I observed before; but I could
never arrive at the capacity of making one by
them, though I spent many weeks about it; I
could neither put in the heads, or join the
staves so true to one another as to make them
hold water; so I gave that also over. In the
next place, I was at a great loss for candles;
so that as soon as ever it was dark, which was
generally by seven o`clock, I was obliged to go
to bed. I remembered the lump of beeswax with
which I made candles in my African adventure;
but I had none of that now; the only remedy I
had was, that when I had killed a goat I saved
the tallow, and with a little dish made of clay,
which I baked in the sun, to which I added a
wick of some oakum, I made me a lamp; and this
gave me light, though not a clear, steady light,
like a candle. In the middle of all my labours
it happened that, rummaging my things, I found a
little bag which, as I hinted before, had been
filled with corn for the feeding of poultry not
for this voyage, but before, as I suppose, when
the ship came from Lisbon. The little remainder
of corn that had been in the bag was all
devoured by the rats, and I saw nothing in the
bag but husks and dust; and being willing to
have the bag for some other use (I think it was
to put powder in, when I divided it for fear of
the lightning, or some such use), I shook the
husks of corn out of it on one side of my
fortification, under the rock.
It was a little before the great rains just
now mentioned that I threw this stuff away,
taking no notice, and not so much as remembering
that I had thrown anything there, when, about a
month after, or thereabouts, I saw some few
stalks of something green shooting out of the
ground, which I fancied might be some plant I
had not seen; but I was surprised, and perfectly
astonished, when, after a little longer time, I
saw about ten or twelve ears come out, which
were perfect green barley, of the same kind as
our European nay, as our English barley.
It is impossible to express the astonishment
and confusion of my thoughts on this occasion. I
had hitherto acted upon no religious foundation
at all; indeed, I had very few notions of
religion in my head, nor had entertained any
sense of anything that had befallen me otherwise
than as chance, or, as we lightly say, what
pleases God, without so much as inquiring into
the end of Providence in these things, or His
order in governing events for the world. But
after I saw barley grow there, in a climate
which I knew was not proper for corn, and
especially that I knew not how it came there, it
startled me strangely, and I began to suggest
that God had miraculously caused His grain to
grow without any help of seed sown, and that it
was so directed purely for my sustenance on that
wild, miserable place.
This touched my heart a little, and brought
tears out of my eyes, and I began to bless
myself that such a prodigy of nature should
happen upon my account; and this was the more
strange to me, because I saw near it still, all
along by the side of the rock, some other
straggling stalks, which proved to be stalks of
rice, and which I knew, because I had seen it
grow in Africa when I was ashore there.
I not only thought these the pure productions
of Providence for my support, but not doubting
that there was more in the place, I went all
over that part of the island, where I had been
before, peering in every corner, and under every
rock, to see for more of it, but I could not
find any. At last it occurred to my thoughts
that I shook a bag of chickens` meat out in that
place; and then the wonder began to cease; and I
must confess my religious thankfulness to God`s
providence began to abate, too, upon the
discovering that all this was nothing but what
was common; though I ought to have been as
thankful for so strange and unforeseen a
providence as if it had been miraculous; for it
was really the work of Providence to me, that
should order or appoint that ten or twelve
grains of corn should remain unspoiled, when the
rats had destroyed all the rest, as if it had
been dropped from heaven; as also, that I should
throw it out in that particular place, where, it
being in the shade of a high rock, it sprang up
immediately; whereas, if I had thrown it
anywhere else at that time, it had been burnt up
and destroyed.
I carefully saved the ears of this corn, you
may be sure, in their season, which was about
the end of June; and, laying up every corn, I
resolved to sow them all again, hoping in time
to have some quantity sufficient to supply me
with bread. But it was not till the fourth year
that I could allow myself the least grain of
this corn to eat, and even then but sparingly,
as I shall say afterwards, in its order; for I
lost all that I sowed the first season by not
observing the proper time; for I sowed it just
before the dry season, so that it never came up
at all, at least not as it would have done; of
which in its place.
Besides this barley, there were, as above,
twenty or thirty stalks of rice, which I
preserved with the same care and for the same
use, or to the same purpose to make me bread, or
rather food; for I found ways to cook it without
baking, though I did that also after some time.
But to return to my Journal.
I worked excessive hard these three or four
months to get my wall done; and the 14th of
April I closed it up, contriving to go into it,
not by a door but over the wall, by a ladder,
that there might be no sign on the outside of my
habitation.
APRIL 16. I finished the ladder; so I went up
the ladder to the top, and then pulled it up
after me, and let it down in the inside. This
was a complete enclosure to me; for within I had
room enough, and nothing could come at me from
without, unless it could first mount my wall.
The very next day after this wall was
finished I had almost had all my labour
overthrown at once, and myself killed. The case
was thus: As I was busy in the inside, behind my
tent, just at the entrance into my cave, I was
terribly frighted with a most dreadful,
surprising thing indeed; for all on a sudden I
found the earth come crumbling down from the
roof of my cave, and from the edge of the hill
over my head, and two of the posts I had set up
in the cave cracked in a frightful manner. I was
heartily scared; but thought nothing of what was
really the cause, only thinking that the top of
my cave was fallen in, as some of it had done
before: and for fear I should be buried in it I
ran forward to my ladder, and not thinking
myself safe there neither, I got over my wall
for fear of the pieces of the hill, which I
expected might roll down upon me. I had no
sooner stepped do ground, than I plainly saw it
was a terrible earthquake, for the ground I
stood on shook three times at about eight
minutes` distance, with three such shocks as
would have overturned the strongest building
that could be supposed to have stood on the
earth; and a great piece of the top of a rock
which stood about half a mile from me next the
sea fell down with such a terrible noise as I
never heard in all my life. I perceived also the
very sea was put into violent motion by it; and
I believe the shocks were stronger under the
water than on the island.
I was so much amazed with the thing itself,
having never felt the like, nor discoursed with
any one that had, that I was like one dead or
stupefied; and the motion of the earth made my
stomach sick, like one that was tossed at sea;
but the noise of the falling of the rock
awakened me, as it were, and rousing me from the
stupefied condition I was in, filled me with
horror; and I thought of nothing then but the
hill falling upon my tent and all my household
goods, and burying all at once; and this sunk my
very soul within me a second time.
After the third shock was over, and I felt no
more for some time, I began to take courage; and
yet I had not heart enough to go over my wall
again, for fear of being buried alive, but sat
still upon the ground greatly cast down and
disconsolate, not knowing what to do. All this
while I had not the least serious religious
thought; nothing but the common "Lord have mercy
upon me!" and when it was over that went away
too.
While I sat thus, I found the air overcast
and grow cloudy, as if it would rain. Soon after
that the wind arose by little and little, so
that in less than half-an-hour it blew a most
dreadful hurricane; the sea was all on a sudden
covered over with foam and froth; the shore was
covered with the breach of the water, the trees
were torn up by the roots, and a terrible storm
it was. This held about three hours, and then
began to abate; and in two hours more it was
quite calm, and began to rain very hard. All
this while I sat upon the ground very much
terrified and dejected; when on a sudden it came
into my thoughts, that these winds and rain
being the consequences of the earthquake, the
earthquake itself was spent and over, and I
might venture into my cave again. With this
thought my spirits began to revive; and the rain
also helping to persuade me, I went in and sat
down in my tent. But the rain was so violent
that my tent was ready to be beaten down with
it; and I was forced to go into my cave, though
very much afraid and uneasy, for fear it should
fall on my head. This violent rain forced me to
a new work viz. to cut a hole through my new
fortification, like a sink, to let the water go
out, which would else have flooded my cave.
After I had been in my cave for some time, and
found still no more shocks of the earthquake
follow, I began to be more composed. And now, to
support my spirits, which indeed wanted it very
much, I went to my little store, and took a
small sup of rum; which, however, I did then and
always very sparingly, knowing I could have no
more when that was gone. It continued raining
all that night and great part of the next day,
so that I could not stir abroad; but my mind
being more composed, I began to think of what I
had best do; concluding that if the island was
subject to these earthquakes, there would be no
living for me in a cave, but I must consider of
building a little hut in an open place which I
might surround with a wall, as I had done here,
and so make myself secure from wild beasts or
men; for I concluded, if I stayed where I was, I
should certainly one time or other be buried
alive.
With these thoughts, I resolved to remove my
tent from the place where it stood, which was
just under the hanging precipice of the hill;
and which, if it should be shaken again, would
certainly fall upon my tent; and I spent the two
next days, being the 19th and 20th of April, in
contriving where and how to remove my
habitation. The fear of being swallowed up alive
made me that I never slept in quiet; and yet the
apprehension of lying abroad without any fence
was almost equal to it; but still, when I looked
about, and saw how everything was put in order,
how pleasantly concealed I was, and how safe
from danger, it made me very loath to remove. In
the meantime, it occurred to me that it would
require a vast deal of time for me to do this,
and that I must be contented to venture where I
was, till I had formed a camp for myself, and
had secured it so as to remove to it. So with
this resolution I composed myself for a time,
and resolved that I would go to work with all
speed to build me a wall with piles and cables,
&c., in a circle, as before, and set my tent up
in it when it was finished; but that I would
venture to stay where I was till it was
finished, and fit to remove. This was the 21st.
APRIL 22. The next morning I begin to
consider of means to put this resolve into
execution; but I was at a great loss about my
tools. I had three large axes, and abundance of
hatchets (for we carried the hatchets for
traffic with the Indians); but with much
chopping and cutting knotty hard wood, they were
all full of notches, and dull; and though I had
a grindstone, I could not turn it and grind my
tools too. This cost me as much thought as a
statesman would have bestowed upon a grand point
of politics, or a judge upon the life and death
of a man. At length I contrived a wheel with a
string, to turn it with my foot, that I might
have both my hands at liberty. NOTE. I had never
seen any such thing in England, or at least, not
to take notice how it was done, though since I
have observed, it is very common there; besides
that, my grindstone was very large and heavy.
This machine cost me a full week`s work to bring
it to perfection.
APRIL 28, 29. These two whole days I took up
in grinding my tools, my machine for turning my
grindstone performing very well.
APRIL 30. Having perceived my bread had been
low a great while, now I took a survey of it,
and reduced myself to one biscuit cake a day,
which made my heart very heavy.
MAY 1. In the morning, looking towards the
sea side, the tide being low, I saw something
lie on the shore bigger than ordinary, and it
looked like a cask; when I came to it, I found a
small barrel, and two or three pieces of the
wreck of the ship, which were driven on shore by
the late hurricane; and looking towards the
wreck itself, I thought it seemed to lie higher
out of the water than it used to do. I examined
the barrel which was driven on shore, and soon
found it was a barrel of gunpowder; but it had
taken water, and the powder was caked as hard as
a stone; however, I rolled it farther on shore
for the present, and went on upon the sands, as
near as I could to the wreck of the ship, to
look for more.
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CHAPTER VI
ILL AND CONSCIENCE-STRICKEN
WHEN I came down to the ship I found it strangely removed. The
forecastle, which lay before buried in sand, was
heaved up at least six feet, and the stern,
which was broke in pieces and parted from the
rest by the force of the sea, soon after I had
left rummaging her, was tossed as it were up,
and cast on one side; and the sand was thrown so
high on that side next her stern, that whereas
there was a great place of water before, so that
I could not come within a quarter of a mile of
the wreck without swimming I could now walk
quite up to her when the tide was out. I was
surprised with this at first, but soon concluded
it must be done by the earthquake; and as by
this violence the ship was more broke open than
formerly, so many things came daily on shore,
which the sea had loosened, and which the winds
and water rolled by degrees to the land.
This wholly diverted my thoughts from the
design of removing my habitation, and I busied
myself mightily, that day especially, in
searching whether I could make any way into the
ship; but I found nothing was to be expected of
that kind, for all the inside of the ship was
choked up with sand. However, as I had learned
not to despair of anything, I resolved to pull
everything to pieces that I could of the ship,
concluding that everything I could get from her
would be of some use or other to me.
MAY 3. I began with my saw, and cut a piece
of a beam through, which I thought held some of
the upper part or quarter-deck together, and
when I had cut it through, I cleared away the
sand as well as I could from the side which lay
highest; but the tide coming in, I was obliged
to give over for that time.
MAY 4. I went a-fishing, but caught not one
fish that I durst eat of, till I was weary of my
sport; when, just going to leave off, I caught a
young dolphin. I had made me a long line of some
ropeyarn, but I had no hooks; yet I frequently
caught fish enough, as much as I cared to eat;
all which I dried in the sun, and ate them dry.
MAY 5. Worked on the wreck; cut another beam
asunder, and brought three great fir planks off
from the decks, which I tied together, and made
to float on shore when the tide of flood came
on.
MAY 6. Worked on the wreck; got several iron
bolts out of her and other pieces of ironwork.
Worked very hard, and came home very much tired,
and had thoughts of giving it over.
MAY 7. Went to the wreck again, not with an
intent to work, but found the weight of the
wreck had broke itself down, the beams being
cut; that several pieces of the ship seemed to
lie loose, and the inside of the hold lay so
open that I could see into it; but it was almost
full of water and sand.
MAY 8. Went to the wreck, and carried an iron
crow to wrench up the deck, which lay now quite
clear of the water or sand. I wrenched open two
planks, and brought them on shore also with the
tide. I left the iron crow in the wreck for next
day.
MAY 9. Went to the wreck, and with the crow
made way into the body of the wreck, and felt
several casks, and loosened them with the crow,
but could not break them up. I felt also a roll
of English lead, and could stir it, but it was
too heavy to remove.
MAY 10-14. Went every day to the wreck; and
got a great many pieces of timber, and boards,
or plank, and two or three hundredweight of
iron.
MAY 15. I carried two hatchets, to try if I
could not cut a piece off the roll of lead by
placing the edge of one hatchet and driving it
with the other; but as it lay about a foot and a
half in the water, I could not make any blow to
drive the hatchet.
MAY 16. It had blown hard in the night, and
the wreck appeared more broken by the force of
the water; but I stayed so long in the woods, to
get pigeons for food, that the tide prevented my
going to the wreck that day.
MAY 17. I saw some pieces of the wreck blown
on shore, at a great distance, near two miles
off me, but resolved to see what they were, and
found it was a piece of the head, but too heavy
for me to bring away.
MAY 24. Every day, to this day, I worked on
the wreck; and with hard labour I loosened some
things so much with the crow, that the first
flowing tide several casks floated out, and two
of the seamen`s chests; but the wind blowing
from the shore, nothing came to land that day
but pieces of timber, and a hogshead, which had
some Brazil pork in it; but the salt water and
the sand had spoiled it. I continued this work
every day to the 15th of June, except the time
necessary to get food, which I always appointed,
during this part of my employment, to be when
the tide was up, that I might be ready when it
was ebbed out; and by this time I had got timber
and plank and ironwork enough to have built a
good boat, if I had known how; and also I got,
at several times and in several pieces, near one
hundredweight of the sheet lead.
JUNE 16. Going down to the seaside, I found a
large tortoise or turtle. This was the first I
had seen, which, it seems, was only my
misfortune, not any defect of the place, or
scarcity; for had I happened to be on the other
side of the island, I might have had hundreds of
them every day, as I found afterwards; but
perhaps had paid dear enough for them.
JUNE 17. I spent in cooking the turtle. I
found in her threescore eggs; and her flesh was
to me, at that time, the most savoury and
pleasant that ever I tasted in my life, having
had no flesh, but of goats and fowls, since I
landed in this horrid place.
JUNE 18. Rained all day, and I stayed within.
I thought at this time the rain felt cold, and I
was something chilly; which I knew was not usual
in that latitude.
JUNE 19. Very ill, and shivering, as if the
weather had been cold.
JUNE 20. No rest all night; violent pains in
my head, and feverish.
JUNE 21. Very ill; frighted almost to death
with the apprehensions of my sad condition to be
sick, and no help. Prayed to God, for the first
time since the storm off Hull, but scarce knew
what I said, or why, my thoughts being all
confused.
JUNE 22. A little better; but under dreadful
apprehensions of sickness.
JUNE 22. Very bad again; cold and shivering,
and then a violent headache.
JUNE 24. Much better.
JUNE 25. An ague very violent; the fit held
me seven hours; cold fit and hot, with faint
sweats after it.
JUNE 26. Better; and having no victuals to
eat, took my gun, but found myself very weak.
However, I killed a she-goat, and with much
difficulty got it home, and broiled some of it,
and ate, I would fain have stewed it, and made
some broth, but had no pot.
JUNE 27. The ague again so violent that I lay
a-bed all day, and neither ate nor drank. I was
ready to perish for thirst; but so weak, I had
not strength to stand up, or to get myself any
water to drink. Prayed to God again, but was
light-headed; and when I was not, I was so
ignorant that I knew not what to say; only I lay
and cried, "Lord, look upon me! Lord, pity me!
Lord, have mercy upon me!" I suppose I did
nothing else for two or three hours; till, the
fit wearing off, I fell asleep, and did not wake
till far in the night. When I awoke, I found
myself much refreshed, but weak, and exceeding
thirsty. However, as I had no water in my
habitation, I was forced to lie till morning,
and went to sleep again. In this second sleep I
had this terrible dream: I thought that I was
sitting on the ground, on the outside of my
wall, where I sat when the storm blew after the
earthquake, and that I saw a man descend from a
great black cloud, in a bright flame of fire,
and light upon the ground. He was all over as
bright as a flame, so that I could but just bear
to look towards him; his countenance was most
inexpressibly dreadful, impossible for words to
describe. When he stepped upon the ground with
his feet, I thought the earth trembled, just as
it had done before in the earthquake, and all
the air looked, to my apprehension, as if it had
been filled with flashes of fire. He was no
sooner landed upon the earth, but he moved
forward towards me, with a long spear or weapon
in his hand, to kill me; and when he came to a
rising ground, at some distance, he spoke to me
or I heard a voice so terrible that it is
impossible to express the terror of it. All that
I can say I understood was this: "Seeing all
these things have not brought thee to
repentance, now thou shalt die;" at which words,
I thought he lifted up the spear that was in his
hand to kill me.
No one that shall ever read this account will
expect that I should be able to describe the
horrors of my soul at this terrible vision. I
mean, that even while it was a dream, I even
dreamed of those horrors. Nor is it any more
possible to describe the impression that
remained upon my mind when I awaked, and found
it was but a dream.
I had, alas! no divine knowledge. What I had
received by the good instruction of my father
was then worn out by an uninterrupted series,
for eight years, of seafaring wickedness, and a
constant conversation with none but such as
were, like myself, wicked and profane to the
last degree. I do not remember that I had, in
all that time, one thought that so much as
tended either to looking upwards towards God, or
inwards towards a reflection upon my own ways;
but a certain stupidity of soul, without desire
of good, or conscience of evil, had entirely
overwhelmed me; and I was all that the most
hardened, unthinking, wicked creature among our
common sailors can be supposed to be; not having
the least sense, either of the fear of God in
danger, or of thankfulness to God in
deliverance.
In the relating what is already past of my
story, this will be the more easily believed
when I shall add, that through all the variety
of miseries that had to this day befallen me, I
never had so much as one thought of it being the
hand of God, or that it was a just punishment
for my sin my rebellious behaviour against my
father or my present sins, which were great or
so much as a punishment for the general course
of my wicked life. When I was on the desperate
expedition on the desert shores of Africa, I
never had so much as one thought of what would
become of me, or one wish to God to direct me
whither I should go, or to keep me from the
danger which apparently surrounded me, as well
from voracious creatures as cruel savages. But I
was merely thoughtless of a God or a Providence,
acted like a mere brute, from the principles of
nature, and by the dictates of common sense
only, and, indeed, hardly that. When I was
delivered and taken up at sea by the Portugal
captain, well used, and dealt justly and
honourably with, as well as charitably, I had
not the least thankfulness in my thoughts. When,
again, I was shipwrecked, ruined, and in danger
of drowning on this island, I was as far from
remorse, or looking on it as a judgment. I only
said to myself often, that I was an unfortunate
dog, and born to be always miserable.
It is true, when I got on shore first here,
and found all my ship`s crew drowned and myself
spared, I was surprised with a kind of ecstasy,
and some transports of soul, which, had the
grace of God assisted, might have come up to
true thankfulness; but it ended where it began,
in a mere common flight of joy, or, as I may
say, being glad I was alive, without the least
reflection upon the distinguished goodness of
the hand which had preserved me, and had singled
me out to be preserved when all the rest were
destroyed, or an inquiry why Providence had been
thus merciful unto me. Even just the same common
sort of joy which seamen generally have, after
they are got safe ashore from a shipwreck, which
they drown all in the next bowl of punch, and
forget almost as soon as it is over; and all the
rest of my life was like it. Even when I was
afterwards, on due consideration, made sensible
of my condition, how I was cast on this dreadful
place, out of the reach of human kind, out of
all hope of relief, or prospect of redemption,
as soon as I saw but a prospect of living and
that I should not starve and perish for hunger,
all the sense of my affliction wore off; and I
began to be very easy, applied myself to the
works proper for my preservation and supply, and
was far enough from being afflicted at my
condition, as a judgment from heaven, or as the
hand of God against me: these were thoughts
which very seldom entered my head.
The growing up of the corn, as is hinted in
my Journal, had at first some little influence
upon me, and began to affect me with
seriousness, as long as I thought it had
something miraculous in it; but as soon as ever
that part of the thought was removed, all the
impression that was raised from it wore off
also, as I have noted already. Even the
earthquake, though nothing could be more
terrible in its nature, or more immediately
directing to the invisible Power which alone
directs such things, yet no sooner was the first
fright over, but the impression it had made went
off also. I had no more sense of God or His
judgments much less of the present affliction of
my circumstances being from His hand than if I
had been in the most prosperous condition of
life. But now, when I began to be sick, and a
leisurely view of the miseries of death came to
place itself before me; when my spirits began to
sink under the burden of a strong distemper, and
nature was exhausted with the violence of the
fever; conscience, that had slept so long, began
to awake, and I began to reproach myself with my
past life, in which I had so evidently, by
uncommon wickedness, provoked the justice of God
to lay me under uncommon strokes, and to deal
with me in so vindictive a manner. These
reflections oppressed me for the second or third
day of my distemper; and in the violence, as
well of the fever as of the dreadful reproaches
of my conscience, extorted some words from me
like praying to God, though I cannot say they
were either a prayer attended with desires or
with hopes: it was rather the voice of mere
fright and distress. My thoughts were confused,
the convictions great upon my mind, and the
horror of dying in such a miserable condition
raised vapours into my head with the mere
apprehensions; and in these hurries of my soul I
knew not what my tongue might express. But it
was rather exclamation, such as, "Lord, what a
miserable creature am I! If I should be sick, I
shall certainly die for want of help; and what
will become of me!" Then the tears burst out of
my eyes, and I could say no more for a good
while. In this interval the good advice of my
father came to my mind, and presently his
prediction, which I mentioned at the beginning
of this story viz. that if I did take this
foolish step, God would not bless me, and I
would have leisure hereafter to reflect upon
having neglected his counsel when there might be
none to assist in my recovery. "Now," said I,
aloud, "my dear father`s words are come to pass;
God`s justice has overtaken me, and I have none
to help or hear me. I rejected the voice of
Providence, which had mercifully put me in a
posture or station of life wherein I might have
been happy and easy; but I would neither see it
myself nor learn to know the blessing of it from
my parents. I left them to mourn over my folly,
and now I am left to mourn under the
consequences of it. I abused their help and
assistance, who would have lifted me in the
world, and would have made everything easy to
me; and now I have difficulties to struggle
with, too great for even nature itself to
support, and no assistance, no help, no comfort,
no advice." Then I cried out, "Lord, be my help,
for I am in great distress." This was the first
prayer, if I may call it so, that I had made for
many years.
But to return to my Journal.
JUNE 28. Having been somewhat refreshed with
the sleep I had had, and the fit being entirely
off, I got up; and though the fright and terror
of my dream was very great, yet I considered
that the fit of the ague would return again the
next day, and now was my time to get something
to refresh and support myself when I should be
ill; and the first thing I did, I filled a large
square case-bottle with water, and set it upon
my table, in reach of my bed; and to take off
the chill or aguish disposition of the water, I
put about a quarter of a pint of rum into it,
and mixed them together. Then I got me a piece
of the goat`s flesh and broiled it on the coals,
but could eat very little. I walked about, but
was very weak, and withal very sad and
heavy-hearted under a sense of my miserable
condition, dreading, the return of my distemper
the next day. At night I made my supper of three
of the turtle`s eggs, which I roasted in the
ashes, and ate, as we call it, in the shell, and
this was the first bit of meat I had ever asked
God`s blessing to, that I could remember, in my
whole life. After I had eaten I tried to walk,
but found myself so weak that I could hardly
carry a gun, for I never went out without that;
so I went but a little way, and sat down upon
the ground, looking out upon the sea, which was
just before me, and very calm and smooth. As I
sat here some such thoughts as these occurred to
me: What is this earth and sea, of which I have
seen so much? Whence is it produced? And what am
I, and all the other creatures wild and tame,
human and brutal? Whence are we? Sure we are all
made by some secret Power, who formed the earth
and sea, the air and sky. And who is that? Then
it followed most naturally, it is God that has
made all. Well, but then it came on strangely,
if God has made all these things, He guides and
governs them all, and all things that concern
them; for the Power that could make all things
must certainly have power to guide and direct
them. If so, nothing can happen in the great
circuit of His works, either without His
knowledge or appointment.
And if nothing happens without His knowledge,
He knows that I am here, and am in this dreadful
condition; and if nothing happens without His
appointment, He has appointed all this to befall
me. Nothing occurred to my thought to contradict
any of these conclusions, and therefore it
rested upon me with the greater force, that it
must needs be that God had appointed all this to
befall me; that I was brought into this
miserable circumstance by His direction, He
having the sole power, not of me only, but of
everything that happened in the world.
Immediately it followed: Why has God done this
to me? What have I done to be thus used? My
conscience presently checked me in that inquiry,
as if I had blasphemed, and methought it spoke
to me like a voice: "Wretch! dost THOU ask what
thou hast done? Look back upon a dreadful
misspent life, and ask thyself what thou hast
NOT done? Ask, why is it that thou wert not long
ago destroyed? Why wert thou not drowned in
Yarmouth Roads; killed in the fight when the
ship was taken by the Sallee man-of-war;
devoured by the wild beasts on the coast of
Africa; or drowned HERE, when all the crew
perished but thyself? Dost THOU ask, what have I
done?" I was struck dumb with these reflections,
as one astonished, and had not a word to say no,
not to answer to myself, but rose up pensive and
sad, walked back to my retreat, and went up over
my wall, as if I had been going to bed; but my
thoughts were sadly disturbed, and I had no
inclination to sleep; so I sat down in my chair,
and lighted my lamp, for it began to be dark.
Now, as the apprehension of the return of my
distemper terrified me very much, it occurred to
my thought that the Brazilians take no physic
but their tobacco for almost all distempers, and
I had a piece of a roll of tobacco in one of the
chests, which was quite cured, and some also
that was green, and not quite cured.
I went, directed by Heaven no doubt; for in
this chest I found a cure both for soul and
body. I opened the chest, and found what I
looked for, the tobacco; and as the few books I
had saved lay there too, I took out one of the
Bibles which I mentioned before, and which to
this time I had not found leisure or inclination
to look into. I say, I took it out, and brought
both that and the tobacco with me to the table.
What use to make of the tobacco I knew not, in
my distemper, or whether it was good for it or
no: but I tried several experiments with it, as
if I was resolved it should hit one way or
other. I first took a piece of leaf, and chewed
it in my mouth, which, indeed, at first almost
stupefied my brain, the tobacco being green and
strong, and that I had not been much used to.
Then I took some and steeped it an hour or two
in some rum, and resolved to take a dose of it
when I lay down; and lastly., I burnt some upon
a pan of coals, and held my nose close over the
smoke of it as long as I could bear it, as well
for the heat as almost for suffocation. In the
interval of this operation I took up the Bible
and began to read; but my head was too much
disturbed with the tobacco to bear reading, at
least at that time; only, having opened the book
casually, the first words that occurred to me
were these, "Call on Me in the day of trouble,
and I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify
Me." These words were very apt to my case, and
made some impression upon my thoughts at the
time of reading them, though not so much as they
did afterwards; for, as for being DELIVERED, the
word had no sound, as I may say, to me; the
thing was so remote, so impossible in my
apprehension of things, that I began to say, as
the children of Israel did when they were
promised flesh to eat, "Can God spread a table
in the wilderness?" so I began to say, "Can God
Himself deliver me from this place?" And as it
was not for many years that any hopes appeared,
this prevailed very often upon my thoughts; but,
however, the words made a great impression upon
me, and I mused upon them very often. It grew
now late, and the tobacco had, as I said, dozed
my head so much that I inclined to sleep; so I
left my lamp burning in the cave, lest I should
want anything in the night, and went to bed. But
before I lay down, I did what I never had done
in all my life I kneeled down, and prayed to God
to fulfil the promise to me, that if I called
upon Him in the day of trouble, He would deliver
me. After my broken and imperfect prayer was
over, I drank the rum in which I had steeped the
tobacco, which was so strong and rank of the
tobacco that I could scarcely get it down;
immediately upon this I went to bed. I found
presently it flew up into my head violently; but
I fell into a sound sleep, and waked no more
till, by the sun, it must necessarily be near
three o`clock in the afternoon the next day nay,
to this hour I am partly of opinion that I slept
all the next day and night, and till almost
three the day after; for otherwise I know not
how I should lose a day out of my reckoning in
the days of the week, as it appeared some years
after I had done; for if I had lost it by
crossing and recrossing the line, I should have
lost more than one day; but certainly I lost a
day in my account, and never knew which way. Be
that, however, one way or the other, when I
awaked I found myself exceedingly refreshed, and
my spirits lively and cheerful; when I got up I
was stronger than I was the day before, and my
stomach better, for I was hungry; and, in short,
I had no fit the next day, but continued much
altered for the better. This was the 29th.
The 30th was my well day, of course, and I
went abroad with my gun, but did not care to
travel too far. I killed a sea-fowl or two,
something like a brandgoose, and brought them
home, but was not very forward to eat them; so I
ate some more of the turtle`s eggs, which were
very good. This evening I renewed the medicine,
which I had supposed did me good the day before
the tobacco steeped in rum; only I did not take
so much as before, nor did I chew any of the
leaf, or hold my head over the smoke; however, I
was not so well the next day, which was the
first of July, as I hoped I should have been;
for I had a little spice of the cold fit, but it
was not much.
JULY 2. I renewed the medicine all the three
ways; and dosed myself with it as at first, and
doubled the quantity which I drank.
JULY 3. I missed the fit for good and all,
though I did not recover my full strength for
some weeks after. While I was thus gathering
strength, my thoughts ran exceedingly upon this
Scripture, "I will deliver thee"; and the
impossibility of my deliverance lay much upon my
mind, in bar of my ever expecting it; but as I
was discouraging myself with such thoughts, it
occurred to my mind that I pored so much upon my
deliverance from the main affliction, that I
disregarded the deliverance I had received, and
I was as it were made to ask myself such
questions as these viz. Have I not been
delivered, and wonderfully too, from sickness
from the most distressed condition that could
be, and that was so frightful to me? and what
notice had I taken of it? Had I done my part?
God had delivered me, but I had not glorified
Him that is to say, I had not owned and been
thankful for that as a deliverance; and how
could I expect greater deliverance? This touched
my heart very much; and immediately I knelt down
and gave God thanks aloud for my recovery from
my sickness.
JULY 4. In the morning I took the Bible; and
beginning at the New Testament, I began
seriously to read it, and imposed upon myself to
read a while every morning and every night; not
tying myself to the number of chapters, but long
as my thoughts should engage me. It was not long
after I set seriously to this work till I found
my heart more deeply and sincerely affected with
the wickedness of my past life. The impression
of my dream revived; and the words, "All these
things have not brought thee to repentance," ran
seriously through my thoughts. I was earnestly
begging of God to give me repentance, when it
happened providentially, the very day, that,
reading the Scripture, I came to these words:
"He is exalted a Prince and a Saviour, to give
repentance and to give remission." I threw down
the book; and with my heart as well as my hands
lifted up to heaven, in a kind of ecstasy of
joy, I cried out aloud, "Jesus, thou son of
David! Jesus, thou exalted Prince and Saviour!
give me repentance!" This was the first time I
could say, in the true sense of the words, that
I prayed in all my life; for now I prayed with a
sense of my condition, and a true Scripture view
of hope, founded on the encouragement of the
Word of God; and from this time, I may say, I
began to hope that God would hear me.
Now I began to construe the words mentioned
above, "Call on Me, and I will deliver thee," in
a different sense from what I had ever done
before; for then I had no notion of anything
being called DELIVERANCE, but my being delivered
from the captivity I was in; for though I was
indeed at large in the place, yet the island was
certainly a prison to me, and that in the worse
sense in the world. But now I learned to take it
in another sense: now I looked back upon my past
life with such horror, and my sins appeared so
dreadful, that my soul sought nothing of God but
deliverance from the load of guilt that bore
down all my comfort. As for my solitary life, it
was nothing. I did not so much as pray to be
delivered from it or think of it; it was all of
no consideration in comparison to this. And I
add this part here, to hint to whoever shall
read it, that whenever they come to a true sense
of things, they will find deliverance from sin a
much greater blessing than deliverance from
affliction.
But, leaving this part, I return to my
Journal.
My condition began now to be, though not less
miserable as to my way of living, yet much
easier to my mind: and my thoughts being
directed, by a constant reading the Scripture
and praying to God, to things of a higher
nature, I had a great deal of comfort within,
which till now I knew nothing of; also, my
health and strength returned, I bestirred myself
to furnish myself with everything that I wanted,
and make my way of living as regular as I could.
From the 4th of July to the 14th I was
chiefly employed in walking about with my gun in
my hand, a little and a little at a time, as a
man that was gathering up his strength after a
fit of sickness; for it is hardly to be imagined
how low I was, and to what weakness I was
reduced. The application which I made use of was
perfectly new, and perhaps which had never cured
an ague before; neither can I recommend it to
any to practise, by this experiment: and though
it did carry off the fit, yet it rather
contributed to weakening me; for I had frequent
convulsions in my nerves and limbs for some
time. I learned from it also this, in
particular, that being abroad in the rainy
season was the most pernicious thing to my
health that could be, especially in those rains
which came attended with storms and hurricanes
of wind; for as the rain which came in the dry
season was almost always accompanied with such
storms, so I found that rain was much more
dangerous than the rain which fell in September
and October.
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CHAPTER VII
AGRICULTURAL EXPERIENCE
I HAD now been in this unhappy island above ten months. All possibility
of deliverance from this condition seemed to be
entirely taken from me; and I firmly believe
that no human shape had ever set foot upon that
place. Having now secured my habitation, as I
thought, fully to my mind, I had a great desire
to make a more perfect discovery of the island,
and to see what other productions I might find,
which I yet knew nothing of.
It was on the 15th of July that I began to
take a more particular survey of the island
itself. I went up the creek first, where, as I
hinted, I brought my rafts on shore. I found
after I came about two miles up, that the tide
did not flow any higher, and that it was no more
than a little brook of running water, very fresh
and good; but this being the dry season, there
was hardly any water in some parts of it at
least not enough to run in any stream, so as it
could be perceived. On the banks of this brook I
found many pleasant savannahs or meadows, plain,
smooth, and covered with grass; and on the
rising parts of them, next to the higher
grounds, where the water, as might be supposed,
never overflowed, I found a great deal of
tobacco, green, and growing to a great and very
strong stalk. There were divers other plants,
which I had no notion of or understanding about,
that might, perhaps, have virtues of their own,
which I could not find out. I searched for the
cassava root, which the Indians, in all that
climate, make their bread of, but I could find
none. I saw large plants of aloes, but did not
understand them. I saw several sugar-canes, but
wild, and, for want of cultivation, imperfect. I
contented myself with these discoveries for this
time, and came back, musing with myself what
course I might take to know the virtue and
goodness of any of the fruits or plants which I
should discover, but could bring it to no
conclusion; for, in short, I had made so little
observation while I was in the Brazils, that I
knew little of the plants in the field; at
least, very little that might serve to any
purpose now in my distress.
The next day, the sixteenth, I went up the
same way again; and after going something
further than I had gone the day before, I found
the brook and the savannahs cease, and the
country become more woody than before. In this
part I found different fruits, and particularly
I found melons upon the ground, in great
abundance, and grapes upon the trees. The vines
had spread, indeed, over the trees, and the
clusters of grapes were just now in their prime,
very ripe and rich. This was a surprising
discovery, and I was exceeding glad of them; but
I was warned by my experience to eat sparingly
of them; remembering that when I was ashore in
Barbary, the eating of grapes killed several of
our Englishmen, who were slaves there, by
throwing them into fluxes and fevers. But I
found an excellent use for these grapes; and
that was, to cure or dry them in the sun, and
keep them as dried grapes or raisins are kept,
which I thought would be, as indeed they were,
wholesome and agreeable to eat when no grapes
could be had.
I spent all that evening there, and went not
back to my habitation; which, by the way, was
the first night, as I might say, I had lain from
home. In the night, I took my first contrivance,
and got up in a tree, where I slept well; and
the next morning proceeded upon my discovery;
travelling nearly four miles, as I might judge
by the length of the valley, keeping still due
north, with a ridge of hills on the south and
north side of me. At the end of this march I
came to an opening where the country seemed to
descend to the west; and a little spring of
fresh water, which issued out of the side of the
hill by me, ran the other way, that is, due
east; and the country appeared so fresh, so
green, so flourishing, everything being in a
constant verdure or flourish of spring that it
looked like a planted garden. I descended a
little on the side of that delicious vale,
surveying it with a secret kind of pleasure,
though mixed with my other afflicting thoughts,
to think that this was all my own; that I was
king and lord of all this country indefensibly,
and had a right of possession; and if I could
convey it, I might have it in inheritance as
completely as any lord of a manor in England. I
saw here abundance of cocoa trees, orange, and
lemon, and citron trees; but all wild, and very
few bearing any fruit, at least not then.
However, the green limes that I gathered were
not only pleasant to eat, but very wholesome;
and I mixed their juice afterwards with water,
which made it very wholesome, and very cool and
refreshing. I found now I had business enough to
gather and carry home; and I resolved to lay up
a store as well of grapes as limes and lemons,
to furnish myself for the wet season, which I
knew was approaching. In order to do this, I
gathered a great heap of grapes in one place, a
lesser heap in another place, and a great parcel
of limes and lemons in another place; and taking
a few of each with me, I travelled homewards;
resolving to come again, and bring a bag or
sack, or what I could make, to carry the rest
home. Accordingly, having spent three days in
this journey, I came home (so I must now call my
tent and my cave); but before I got thither the
grapes were spoiled; the richness of the fruit
and the weight of the juice having broken them
and bruised them, they were good for little or
nothing; as to the limes, they were good, but I
could bring but a few.
The next day, being the nineteenth, I went
back, having made me two small bags to bring
home my harvest; but I was surprised, when
coming to my heap of grapes, which were so rich
and fine when I gathered them, to find them all
spread about, trod to pieces, and dragged about,
some here, some there, and abundance eaten and
devoured. By this I concluded there were some
wild creatures thereabouts, which had done this;
but what they were I knew not. However, as I
found there was no laying them up on heaps, and
no carrying them away in a sack, but that one
way they would be destroyed, and the other way
they would be crushed with their own weight, I
took another course; for I gathered a large
quantity of the grapes, and hung them trees,
that they might cure and dry in the sun; and as
for the limes and lemons, I carried as many back
as I could well stand under.
When I came home from this journey, I
contemplated with great pleasure the
fruitfulness of that valley, and the
pleasantness of the situation; the security from
storms on that side of the water, and the wood:
and concluded that I had pitched upon a place to
fix my abode which was by far the worst part of
the country. Upon the whole, I began to consider
of removing my habitation, and looking out for a
place equally safe as where now I was situate,
if possible, in that pleasant, fruitful part of
the island.
This thought ran long in my head, and I was
exceeding fond of it for some time, the
pleasantness of the place tempting me; but when
I came to a nearer view of it, I considered that
I was now by the seaside, where it was at least
possible that something might happen to my
advantage, and, by the same ill fate that
brought me hither might bring some other unhappy
wretches to the same place; and though it was
scarce probable that any such thing should ever
happen, yet to enclose myself among the hills
and woods in the centre of the island was to
anticipate my bondage, and to render such an
affair not only improbable, but impossible; and
that therefore I ought not by any means to
remove. However, I was so enamoured of this
place, that I spent much of my time there for
the whole of the remaining part of the month of
July; and though upon second thoughts, I
resolved not to remove, yet I built me a little
kind of a bower, and surrounded it at a distance
with a strong fence, being a double hedge, as
high as I could reach, well staked and filled
between with brushwood; and here I lay very
secure, sometimes two or three nights together;
always going over it with a ladder; so that I
fancied now I had my country house and my
seacoast house; and this work took me up to the
beginning of August.
I had but newly finished my fence, and began
to enjoy my labour, when the rains came on, and
made me stick close to my first habitation; for
though I had made me a tent like the other, with
a piece of a sail, and spread it very well, yet
I had not the shelter of a hill to keep me from
storms, nor a cave behind me to retreat into
when the rains were extraordinary.
About the beginning of August, as I said, I
had finished my bower, and began to enjoy
myself. The 3rd of August, I found the grapes I
had hung up perfectly dried, and, indeed, were
excellent good raisins of the sun; so I began to
take them down from the trees, and it was very
happy that I did so, for the rains which
followed would have spoiled them, and I had lost
the best part of my winter food; for I had above
two hundred large bunches of them. No sooner had
I taken them all down, and carried the most of
them home to my cave, than it began to rain; and
from hence, which was the 14th of August, it
rained, more or less, every day till the middle
of October; and sometimes so violently, that I
could not stir out of my cave for several days.
In this season I was much surprised with the
increase of my family; I had been concerned for
the loss of one of my cats, who ran away from
me, or, as I thought, had been dead, and I heard
no more tidings of her till, to my astonishment,
she came home about the end of August with three
kittens. This was the more strange to me
because, though I had killed a wild cat, as I
called it, with my gun, yet I thought it was
quite a different kind from our European cats;
but the young cats were the same kind of
house-breed as the old one; and both my cats
being females, I thought it very strange. But
from these three cats I afterwards came to be so
pestered with cats that I was forced to kill
them like vermin or wild beasts, and to drive
them from my house as much as possible.
From the 14th of August to the 26th,
incessant rain, so that I could not stir, and
was now very careful not to be much wet. In this
confinement, I began to be straitened for food:
but venturing out twice, I one day killed a
goat; and the last day, which was the 26th,
found a very large tortoise, which was a treat
to me, and my food was regulated thus: I ate a
bunch of raisins for my breakfast; a piece of
the goat`s flesh, or of the turtle, for my
dinner, broiled for, to my great misfortune, I
had no vessel to boil or stew anything; and two
or three of the turtle`s eggs for my supper.
During this confinement in my cover by the
rain, I worked daily two or three hours at
enlarging my cave, and by degrees worked it on
towards one side, till I came to the outside of
the hill, and made a door or way out, which came
beyond my fence or wall; and so I came in and
out this way. But I was not perfectly easy at
lying so open; for, as I had managed myself
before, I was in a perfect enclosure; whereas
now I thought I lay exposed, and open for
anything to come in upon me; and yet I could not
perceive that there was any living thing to
fear, the biggest creature that I had yet seen
upon the island being a goat.
SEPT. 30. I was now come to the unhappy
anniversary of my landing. I cast up the notches
on my post, and found I had been on shore three
hundred and sixty-five days. I kept this day as
a solemn fast, setting it apart for religious
exercise, prostrating myself on the ground with
the most serious humiliation, confessing my sins
to God, acknowledging His righteous judgments
upon me, and praying to Him to have mercy on me
through Jesus Christ; and not having tasted the
least refreshment for twelve hours, even till
the going down of the sun, I then ate a
biscuit-cake and a bunch of grapes, and went to
bed, finishing the day as I began it. I had all
this time observed no Sabbath day; for as at
first I had no sense of religion upon my mind, I
had, after some time, omitted to distinguish the
weeks, by making a longer notch than ordinary
for the Sabbath day, and so did not really know
what any of the days were; but now, having cast
up the days as above, I found I had been there a
year; so I divided it into weeks, and set apart
every seventh day for a Sabbath; though I found
at the end of my account I had lost a day or two
in my reckoning. A little after this, my ink
began to fail me, and so I contented myself to
use it more sparingly, and to write down only
the most remarkable events of my life, without
continuing a daily memorandum of other things.
The rainy season and the dry season began now
to appear regular to me, and I learned to divide
them so as to provide for them accordingly; but
I bought all my experience before I had it, and
this I am going to relate was one of the most
discouraging experiments that I made.
I have mentioned that I had saved the few
ears of barley and rice, which I had so
surprisingly found spring up, as I thought, of
themselves, and I believe there were about
thirty stalks of rice, and about twenty of
barley; and now I thought it a proper time to
sow it, after the rains, the sun being in its
southern position, going from me. Accordingly, I
dug up a piece of ground as well as I could with
my wooden spade, and dividing it into two parts,
I sowed my grain; but as I was sowing, it
casually occurred to my thoughts that I would
not sow it all at first, because I did not know
when was the proper time for it, so I sowed
about two-thirds of the seed, leaving about a
handful of each. It was a great comfort to me
afterwards that I did so, for not one grain of
what I sowed this time came to anything: for the
dry months following, the earth having had no
rain after the seed was sown, it had no moisture
to assist its growth, and never came up at all
till the wet season had come again, and then it
grew as if it had been but newly sown. Finding
my first seed did not grow, which I easily
imagined was by the drought, I sought for a
moister piece of ground to make another trial
in, and I dug up a piece of ground near my new
bower, and sowed the rest of my seed in
February, a little before the vernal equinox;
and this having the rainy months of March and
April to water it, sprung up very pleasantly,
and yielded a very good crop; but having part of
the seed left only, and not daring to sow all
that I had, I had but a small quantity at last,
my whole crop not amounting to above half a peck
of each kind. But by this experiment I was made
master of my business, and knew exactly when the
proper season was to sow, and that I might
expect two seed-times and two harvests every
year.
While this corn was growing I made a little
discovery, which was of use to me afterwards. As
soon as the rains were over, and the weather
began to settle, which was about the month of
November, I made a visit up the country to my
bower, where, though I had not been some months,
yet I found all things just as I left them. The
circle or double hedge that I had made was not
only firm and entire, but the stakes which I had
cut out of some trees that grew thereabouts were
all shot out and grown with long branches, as
much as a willow-tree usually shoots the first
year after lopping its head. I could not tell
what tree to call it that these stakes were cut
from. I was surprised, and yet very well
pleased, to see the young trees grow; and I
pruned them, and led them up to grow as much
alike as I could; and it is scarce credible how
beautiful a figure they grew into in three
years; so that though the hedge made a circle of
about twenty-five yards in diameter, yet the
trees, for such I might now call them, soon
covered it, and it was a complete shade,
sufficient to lodge under all the dry season.
This made me resolve to cut some more stakes,
and make me a hedge like this, in a semi-circle
round my wall (I mean that of my first
dwelling), which I did; and placing the trees or
stakes in a double row, at about eight yards
distance from my first fence, they grew
presently, and were at first a fine cover to my
habitation, and afterwards served for a defence
also, as I shall observe in its order.
I found now that the seasons of the year
might generally be divided, not into summer and
winter, as in Europe, but into the rainy seasons
and the dry seasons, which were generally
thus:The half of February, the whole of March,
and the half of April rainy, the sun being then
on or near the equinox.
The half of April, the whole of May, June,
and July, and the half of August dry, the sun
being then to the north of the line.
The half of August, the whole of September,
and the half of October rainy, the sun being
then come back.
The half of October, the whole of November,
December, and January, and the half of February
dry, the sun being then to the south of the
line.
The rainy seasons sometimes held longer or
shorter as the winds happened to blow, but this
was the general observation I made. After I had
found by experience the ill consequences of
being abroad in the rain, I took care to furnish
myself with provisions beforehand, that I might
not be obliged to go out, and I sat within doors
as much as possible during the wet months. This
time I found much employment, and very suitable
also to the time, for I found great occasion for
many things which I had no way to furnish myself
with but by hard labour and constant
application; particularly I tried many ways to
make myself a basket, but all the twigs I could
get for the purpose proved so brittle that they
would do nothing. It proved of excellent
advantage to me now, that when I was a boy, I
used to take great delight in standing at a
basket-maker`s, in the town where my father
lived, to see them make their wicker-ware; and
being, as boys usually are, very officious to
help, and a great observer of the manner in
which they worked those things, and sometimes
lending a hand, I had by these means full
knowledge of the methods of it, and I wanted
nothing but the materials, when it came into my
mind that the twigs of that tree from whence I
cut my stakes that grew might possibly be as
tough as the sallows, willows, and osiers in
England, and I resolved to try. Accordingly, the
next day I went to my country house, as I called
it, and cutting some of the smaller twigs, I
found them to my purpose as much as I could
desire; whereupon I came the next time prepared
with a hatchet to cut down a quantity, which I
soon found, for there was great plenty of them.
These I set up to dry within my circle or hedge,
and when they were fit for use I carried them to
my cave; and here, during the next season, I
employed myself in making, as well as I could, a
great many baskets, both to carry earth or to
carry or lay up anything, as I had occasion; and
though I did not finish them very handsomely,
yet I made them sufficiently serviceable for my
purpose; thus, afterwards, I took care never to
be without them; and as my wicker-ware decayed,
I made more, especially strong, deep baskets to
place my corn in, instead of sacks, when I
should come to have any quantity of it.
Having mastered this difficulty, and employed
a world of time about it, I bestirred myself to
see, if possible, how to supply two wants. I had
no vessels to hold anything that was liquid,
except two runlets, which were almost full of
rum, and some glass bottles some of the common
size, and others which were case bottles,
square, for the holding of water, spirits, &c. I
had not so much as a pot to boil anything,
except a great kettle, which I saved out of the
ship, and which was too big for such as I
desired it viz. to make broth, and stew a bit of
meat by itself. The second thing I fain would
have had was a tobacco-pipe, but it was
impossible to me to make one; however, I found a
contrivance for that, too, at last. I employed
myself in planting my second rows of stakes or
piles, and in this wicker-working all the summer
or dry season, when another business took me up
more time than it could be imagined I could
spare.
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